When love becomes pain.

For years I wept, begged and cried, but it was all to no avail. The pain never stopped. I felt forced to stay with him. It all started because of one mistake. One night I got drunk and made a mistake I regret deeply. He said he forgave me, but then he did the same thing and slept with his ex. I thought we were even. I thought if he forgave me, we could move on and start fresh. If only I knew what was coming next. It started small. His hand around my neck in public, gripping it tightly as if to show everyone I belonged to him. I thought it was normal. I told myself it was his way of being protective, that he was just jealous because he loved me. I tried to ignore the voice inside me that said this was not love. I told my friends everything was fine. I smiled in public while my heart was breaking inside. I was wrong. This was only the beginning.I tried to ignore the voice inside me that said this was not love. I told my friends everything was fine.I smiled in public while my heart was breaking inside.I was wrong. This was only the beginning.