Bam, My True Love

Growing up

In the late Autumn of 2006, Elizabeth Mae was 6, Jazmine and Skylar came home from school and Elizabeth Mae noticed how her eldest sister looked sad. She followed Jazmine to the room the twins shared. Knock knock “What!?” “it’s me… Jaz are you okay? I’m here if you wanna complain or talk. I love you biggest sis.” Jazmine got up off her bed and walked to the door with a sad smile. Opening the door she looked down at her half sister. “I’m not okay.” She pulled her little sister in and hugged her. “What happened Jaz?” Jazmine thought about everything that brought her to this point, and wasn’t sure how much to tell her sister. “Please tell me everything. I want to be here for you. I am here for you.” Before she could second guess herself she was telling Elizabeth Mae everything. How people were picking on her, how they were making her spill her food, how when they were picking on Skylar she couldn’t stop them. How she wished she could take them down a peg, how she’d ruin their confidence, and make them go home fighting tears just like they did to her. “So El-Mae what are your thoughts? Am I a horrible person?” Elizabeth Mae smiled a sweet but sad kind of smile, then looked at her sister. “You are not a horrible person. You are thinking to do exactly what they probably did that caused them to bully you. They want to feel powerful so they take away people’s power that they find to be easy targets. Just show them you aren’t giving up your power, they’ll leave you alone. I’m sure of it.” Jazmine thanked her little sister for coming to her. She actually helped and was able to make it so that she wouldn’t get bullied anymore. “How are you so smart when you never had to deal with all the stupid stuff?” Jaz says with a small huff. “Maggie teaches me everything and anything. Plus it’s just physiology.” “You know physiology?” Jaz asked, causing Elizabeth Mae to get a cute little smile. “Yea, I wanted to not seem so distanced when I finally get to do normal stuff like you and Sky.” Jaz thought for a minute and Elizabeth Mae started to leave. “Hey El-Mae?” Elizabeth Mae turned around “yea Jaz?” “Why don’t you go to school or out when Sky and I go with dad?” “Um, I guess because I have Maggie for school. Plus it makes it so I can learn a bunch of stuff instead of just the basics. I don’t go with you guys to your dad’s because he’s not mine. Momma and Maggie promised that when I’m a little older Maggie will take me field tripping. I bet you’ll be allowed to come too.”“El-Mae, do you like that you are different?” I don’t dislike it. It definitely gives me a lot to learn.” Jaz nodded and said “sometimes it sucks to be different, it makes people pick on you. The only response was that maybe it’s a good thing she does not go to school. Elizabeth Mae walked to the door before adding “Plus I like that I am different it makes me special and since I feel like I wasn’t good enough for my father, than I’ll never have to worry about not being good enough for Momma, Sky, you, or Maggie.” With that she went back to her room up in the attic and tried to learn to read some of the big girl books Maggie got her as inspiration to keep working hard.

April 28th 2007

Dear Daddy, Maggie just gave me this diary and told me that anything I want to say to you I should write it down and maybe one day I will be able to show it to you. Like that will ever happen. I bet you haven’t even missed me. Well I am smart, and Momma says I am very pretty, Jaz is starting to look at me funny but I think it is because she is now a cheerleader at her public school and I am like a nerd since I read and write and am on the honor roll. So you gave up a smart kid. Okay I am bragging and I feel bad for that but I hate that I don’t even know my own Dad.

I have a wish, it’s one I’ve wished for awhile I wish I was able to be my Daddy’s princess. Even though I do not know you I love you and I hope you see me as your princess.

With undying love and affection; your princess:

Elizabeth Mae ?

After making her first entry she hid the book in a loose floorboard under her carpet right by the head of her bed. Then she went downstairs for lunch. In the kitchen she heard Linda talking “she is doing well. I feel bad that she has no idea what she is expected to do when she is older… she is kind, sweet and incredibly smart. How are your parents? … oh I am sorry to hear that… well she never asks about regular school so we are lucky. Plus she loves the broad learning… I miss you. I wish you could meet her for yourself… Yes, I know one day you will but you would be so proud of her… okay, I hope she gets better and please say hello to your father. I love you… bye for now.” Elizabeth Mae had no idea who her Momma could be talking to but figured that maybe Momma was dating someone since she said I love you. Elizabeth Mae then started thinking ‘I never thought of regular school. I always thought that wasn’t an option for me “well she never asks about regular school” so if I ask I could go? I always did… no I shouldn’t think about this I like being tutored … but I do want to have friends my age. I do want to be regular. I think I am going to think about this and maybe one day ask to go to a regular school, to be a regular kid.’ After her own pep talk Elizabeth Mae walked into the kitchen and started getting plates for the grilled cheese. It was a habit and she was bored. After eating Linda went back to work.

May 1st 2007

Dear Daddy, today was so normal. I woke up at 6:30am and did last night’s dishes from after dinner. Then I went back upstairs until I heard Momma moving around. I waited another twenty-ish minutes so that I could help her in the kitchen but wasn’t at risk of dealing with Momma with no coffee. That’s a scary thing haha. After I helped with food Jaz and Sky came down and ate with Maggie, Momma and I. They quickly left (leaving their plates on the table and rushed off for school, Momma does it too. I don’t get why but whatever,) Maggie helps me clear the table when we are done (she’s the only one that is allowed around when I do stuff. Sometimes we even make the cleaning into a game which is very fun.) Anyways I did the dishes and then started working on memorizing the royal’s names. (why I need to know this escapes me but I am still learning it. Then Maggie and I go to the track and run, jog, jump, and other activities, then head home to shower and get ready for lunch. Then other work with Maggie including math, English, and others. I do that until Jaz and Sky come back. Then I help Sky with her homework. Finally I go read until dinner. After dinner I watched some TV. Until I got tired. That brings me to now since I wanted to do this before bed.

With undying love and affection; your princess:

Elizabeth Mae ?

June 3rd 2009

Maggie never stopped talking about the Queen passing away today. I feel bad for her family, both the King and Prince lost someone in their family. Seemed like a big deal at the house even though I don’t really get why but whatever right? Other than the main topic of the day, today was normal.

With undying love and affection; your princess:

Elizabeth Mae ?

A little over a year later everyone went to the Prince’s coronation. At the end of the new king’s coronation his father fell to the floor. Linda, the crowned King and some more people ran to his side then the guards pushed everyone out of the court yard. Maggie organized Jaz, Sky, and Elizabeth Mae then brought us to the house. Elizabeth Mae didn’t notice until then that Linda wasn’t with them. Maggie told her “your Momma is a doctor so she is staying with the King until his royal doctor was there.”

Today was my 12th birthday. Through out the day Maggie asked if I still wrote in the book she gave me so long ago. I looked at her and answered. “It was six years ago and I wrote when there was something to write but now I’m thinking about it being a song book instead of a sad diary to my non-existent dad. However if I ever get to see him I will show him the ones I already wrote and who knows I might write more later. Later that night Momma came up to my room with a gift. It was wrapped with the prettiest fabric I have ever seen. I was excited because I knew that this was no ordinary gift. Momma put it on the bed and looked at me with a smile. “My darling girl, you have one gift from a family friend. Would you like to open it?” I knew that Momma was a smart mother so I knew that the point wasn’t if I wanted to open it. I looked my Momma in the eyes wanting to understand what she wanted from me at this moment. I knew that I would be able to understand the point because Maggie taught me that the eyes were the way to understand a person. “Momma, what’s wrong?” Momma smiled and looked at me. “Nothing darling, just open your pretty gift.” I knew she wasn’t telling the whole truth but I knew she would only do that for a reason. Plus if you can’t trust your own family, who can you trust? Listening to my Momma I carefully unwrap the fabric which turns out to be a beautiful pink scarf with shimmering strands, with it moved it revealed a box. After I wrapped the scarf around my neck I opened the box revealing a phone in a pink sparkly phone case. “Okay darling there are two phone numbers one is mine, the other is the number of the friend who gave you the phone. You can tell this person anything okay, this person is trustworthy.” Momma then stood up and smiled. “I love you darling.good night and happy birthday.” Momma then left the room. I quickly opened my new phone, excited to see what was on it. There was a message and the name read ‘J’

Hi there Elizabeth Mae, I hope you find this not to be weird, however I would understand if you did. I am here to talk to and I hope that you do talk to me. Anything you say to me will never be told to another person. I can promise you that…

Hello J?

Happy 12th birthday, how did it go?

Well, thank you. Also thank you for the phone, and the pretty scarf. How did you know pink was my favorite color?

You are very welcome i am glad you like it. Your mom told me. I know you have to sleep so good night.

Thank you and I hope the same for you, Goodnight J…

I texted J for the whole year. I went from writing in the diary to texting him instead. And I started using my diary as a song book. I kept my promise to Maggie of keeping the pages so that if my dad ever showed up I could show him what he missed out on.

The next two years were boring and time passed with nothing special happening. Until August 27 2014. When Momma told me that I was allowed to go to Sandy Bay High School with Jaz and Sky. Momma said that taught me so well I would be going into Grade 10. That night I was so excited and I told J in our nightly texts.

Hey J :)

Hello Mae flower, how was your 14th birthday?

Amazing! I found out that I get to go to normal school and Maggie… She is… was my tutor, will be there too. She said she is going to be teaching World history. But Jaz is unhappy.

That is awesome I am so happy for you. Why is Jaz unhappy?

Because I am 1 year 9 months and 24 days younger I was going into grade 10 with them.

Oh yes that would upset an older sibling. I hope you enjoy getting ready for school.

Goodnight Mae flower

Goodnight J. Thank you for talking with me you are like a father to me.

It is my honor Mae Flower :)

For the next three days Maggie took me around town getting stuff so that I would feel comfortable