KINKY!; Goodbye✓

Choi Beomgyu // Cheating

He was late. He had been late to your tiny dates for more than a month yet you understood that he had a job. Being an idol wasn’t easy and you understood every single choice Beomgyu had to make including acting like you didn’t exist in public or lie telling people you worked for him. You understood everything. You loved him and you didn’t want to damage anything TXT had achieved, that’s why you always tried to be understanding towards him and never bring up how late he was or how much effort you putted on dates. Beomgyu had to arrive 30 minutes ago and he didn’t even send you a message which worried you.

A sudden and loud DING startled you and made you look at your phones screen to see that your boyfriend sent you a picture. Thinking the best you opened the chat to find one of the not so many things Choi Beomgyu could send you that would break your heart: A selfie of a girl holding your boyfriend while he was sleeping.

A text followed that pic, too disgusted and angry after finding your boyfriend cheated for a while with that very good looking woman you locked your phone and surprisingly calmly went to eat the home cooked meal you got ready for him. You thought about all the time you spent thinking about him, all the things you planned together, all the ‘I love you’ you said to each other... Everything was going downhill now and you seem rather calm, cold hearted even. Once you finish your dinner you did the washing up in hopes for him to come and give you an explanation. An imaginative explanation that would allow you to forgive his behaviour, but he never came so you decided than the next best thing was to pack your things and keep them next to the door, in your shared bedroom.

You lied on the bed staring at the ceiling and thinking about what you should do. Was staying a few days with him until you could find a better place even an option? No. The pain that your chest was holding for you not to crash and become a crying mess warned you by letting a tear roll down your temple.

After drying it with the sleeve of your shirt you decided to take thing to the extreme following the example of you future ex boyfriend, Beomgyu. Taking your phone you started to search for flights, going home seemed the best thing until you remembered your life in Seoul. You had a job and your boss knew you were foreigner, he also offered you to find you a place to stay through the company if you ever needed it. Yes, that could help you. You programmed an email for the next day so you would seem too anxious or needy since staying in a hotel for a few days was an acceptable option for now. That’s when you heard the front door open and Beomgyu exclaim a melodiously “I’m home” Without an answer he walked straight to where you were “Oh! You’re awake. I thought you were sleeping since you didn’t answer” His soft smile made you feel nauseous, how could he smile at you like nothing happened. Since you didn’t answer he kept talking while taking his clothes off “You forgot to put the dinner in the fridge. I already had dinner with the boys so don’t worry about it”.

“I won’t” your answer took him by surprise. You tone was plain and you were staring at the wall in front of you unconsciously which made him furrow his eyebrows.“You good, jagiya?” the question made your chest hurt so you didn’t move nor answer him “Come on, tell me what happens” you felt the mattress sank next to you and his arms were around your shoulders, that action made your blood burn in anger. How could he act like that?“I know you were with her” you stated and the Korean boy froze. His eyes and mouth opened and he didn’t know how to answer to that. You removed his arms off your body roughly and stood up with the intention of leaving to the guest room so you could think about your future as a single woman with a broken heart.“Babe! Baby! Where are you going? I don’t really understand what you’re talking about” he denied acting like he didn’t know what you were talking about but praying to God not to have that conversation with you. He got up as fast as he could to get in the middle of your way out in an attempt of avoiding your exit.

You smiled ironically and showed him the picture on your phone “There’s also a very revealing text. She sent both from your phone so I guess you already have it” Beomgyu stayed still, like he was made of stone. That’s when you left the room but he soon reacted and followed you trying to explain the situation to you and failing miserably “Try to understand me, I love you but sometimes I feel like you are not enough” Anger flew through your veins and you turned around to growl him “If you think that justifies what you just did to me you couldn’t be more wrong. If I wasn’t enough you could have just tell me and we could have talked this out, even if that meant to break up. I would have been more understanding of your feelings then because I don’t really understand you or your feelings now!” Silence followed that. He was speechless. You got inside the guest room and locked the door.

That was the first step for you, you had too many ahead from now on. This was a new beginning for both of you and you thought it was better to face it with the little optimism Beomgyu left in you, it wasn’t too much but you would have to be strong.