Moonlight

Chapter 14.

While I watched the car disappear with my mate inside, I felt the fists in my hands clench and unclench in frustration. As Alek growled in frustrated, he struggled to gain control over the situation. Even though he wanted me to stop her, he wanted me to

make her stay with us, but I was not able to do so. In fact, it wasn't with the distrust I was feeling at the time. There was no way I could treat her in such a way. Over and over again, I repeated the words that Aspen spoke to me over and over again in my

head. At that moment, I could feel my anger rising within me. If you don't get your s**t together and come to terms with what you are allowing to walk away from your life, then you will never deserve her, he told me,

even if you don't realize it now. Should you not be able to get it together, please know that I will be there to pick up whatever pieces are left. As much as I love her, I'll be the one who comforts her, because I know how much she needs it. My snort grew

louder as I remembered the incident, I knew I had messed up big time. In the past few months, I haven't done anything but since I met Luna. My apologies for a number of things had to be made. My hand was running through my hair with frustration as

I ran my hand through it. My father leaned down on my shoulder and a hand clamped down on it, which caused me to turn to see my mother and father. Clarissa asked, "can you tell me what you were thinking when you let her leave?". Not only was she

concerned about Luna, but she was also concerned about me as well. It was an embarrassing moment for me that I looked away ashamedly. It worries me that I am going to screw up even more than I have already. Because it was mom who cheated, I

always thought I had to be concerned about the females. However, I have hurt Luna more than I thought I was justified. I realized I was not justified. "I was deluded by hatred toward not just my mother but towards myself." As I laughed bitterly, I

shook my head. The first time I saw her with another man, when I was a child, was when I was five, and I should have said something sooner, before things got so out of hand." I heard Clarissa gasp, and my father growled lowly, but I continued. "I had accidently

walked in while they were together. But she- she just stopped for a moment to look at me then ordered me to come in and watch. In the event I did not follow her advice, she threatened to beat me if I did not. In the summer of 2005, I was afraid that

my five-year-old self would actually see her do it. No matter how old I got, no matter how much I loved her, I could not bring myself to stand up to her no matter how many beatings she gave me. My head shook in disgust as I shook my head in disbelief at

how weak I was. My father suddenly hugged me tightly, I was not used to my father's affection, so I was afraid I would end up in the same situation you were in with my mother if Luna showed up and turned out to be my mate." I had promised

myself that after you exiled her, I would never let anyone have any sort of power over me. My experience with affection was quite different from what I was used to. You- I'm sorry for all of it, Remus. I'm so sorry for all of it. My mother was-is a sick

woman, and Luna is nothing like her. You cannot run from your destiny son. I'm sorry for everything." As my father pulled away, he smiled sadly, "You are not weak for loving the woman who gave birth to you, nor will you ever be in a situation like mine.

You can't run from her son." It is imperative that you let the past go as soon as possible so that you can move forward. Can you do it without your mate? Would you like to move forward without your mate? " In the whirlwind of my thoughts, I flashed back to

the beautiful, gentle face she wore, the blue eyes that surprised me, and the long blond hair she wore. Despite my apprehensions, I watched her as she went about her daily routine, watching her, even though I was not eager to get to know her, as she went

about the activities of her day. It was not only her interacting with the kids that made her a pleasant person, but she also enjoyed reading books as well. It was Luna's strong character and her ability to make me smile that made me love her so much. The

realization I just made to myself made my eyes widen, and I looked at my father with a knowing look on his face. "No. I can't." You will not find yourself in a similar situation to mine, nor will you ever find yourself in one. In addition to your mother being sick,

your father was also sick. Her personality is very different from Luna's. The destiny son cannot be run from, and you cannot hide from him. Then I found Luna." My father smiled sadly as he pulled away. "You need to let go of the past and look forward to the

future." He drew back while still smiling. Could you possibly hold on to your mate without him or her?My mind flashed back to her beautiful blue eyes, her long blond hair, and her adorable little face for a moment, as I pondered this. She was sweet,

caring and even though I had not gone out of my way to get to know her, I admired her. She played with the kids, loved to read, always smiled, no matter how forced it seemed. Luna was a strong woman and I loved her. My eyes widened as I realized

what I had just admitted to myself, looking at my father who was nodding with knowledge. Then you will want to know what I am going to say to you now, before it is too late." I was pushed toward the door as I spoke. "No. I can't." As soon as I realized

this, I emptied my truck of all my belongings and placed them in a bag. My father and I shook hands before I set off for Clarissa's house and I kissed Clarissa goodbye before I left. In my heart, I really wanted to claim Luna and beg her to forgive me for all the

things I've done to her over the years.