An unloving arrangement

If you wish to hear my story I shan’t stop you, but I have to warn you it comes with no promises of happiness, for my life is anything but a fairytale. {~~~} It was the morn of my fifteenth birthday, I woke as I usually did by my ladies drawing the drapes “Morning miss” my dear Emily spoke to me she was around the age of my mother, her dark hair always pulled in a bun and her plump face always smiling at me. I started to sit up when I felt something wet in my bed, it felt as if I had wet myself, but I haven’t done that since I was a child. When I looked down I seen it, red my nightgown and my sheets were completely stained red “Help!” I shouted, you see no one had ever prepared me, no one ever told me these things happened to a young woman “Oh miss” Emily raced toward me extending her hand helping me up “your alright don’t fret.” {~~~} A few hours later after I had been cleaned up my mother came into my room Her blonde hair so perfectly pined up in an extravagant updo for absolutely no reason, her thin lips smiling at me. She took my hand in hers “You are now a woman my child, it’s time you do this family proud” At the time I had no idea what that meant, I didn’t even realize how much I’d clearly been slacking as a daughter until then. “You will be a queen darling isn’t that grand?” “How would I be a queen?” I asked nervously “By marriage of course” she smiles harder My heart began to pound, In my mind at that time I was still very much only a child and to this day I still think I was only a child In that moment. As quickly as my mother had entered my room she exited even quicker My whole life I’d lived on my own of course we had this mansion of a home, I had a mother and a father, a seven year old brother and more servants then you could count on both hands, but my entire life I’ve only felt alone. I’ve never had a reason for sadness, not compare to others anyhow, yeah the feeling of your own mother and father not loving you, well I just can’t seem to get over that. As I exited my bedroom for the last time I began walking down the stairs and my father he looked me in a way he’s never done before. He was proud “You’ve done good my child” he said to me The sentence was strange in its own, but when you add the fact that from the moment my father found out I wasn’t a male heir he never spoke a word to me, until now that is, well I think that takes it from strange and pushes it a bit further Who would’ve known all I had to do was produce a bit of blood to get my father to acknowledge my existence. My mother took me by hand outside where a horse and carriage we’re waiting, I watched in awe as crates upon crates of my belongings were packed in. A young handmade by the name Liza hoped into the carriage and my mother grinned towards me. “Your going to bring great honor to are family name” I tried to pull her in for a hug, but she kissed my forehead and turned away, i’m not entirely sure what I expected from her, but I know what I hoped for. All I needed in that moment was a moment of motherly love the simple words I love you, but she has never said that before why would she now. I wasn’t about to even attempt to speak with my father or hug him goodbye, I hardly knew the man after all. My younger brother took me by surprise when he wrapped his arms around my waist with tears in his green eyes. “Don’t leave me” he whispered My heart shattered with his words, I bent down taking his face in my palms “As long as there is breath in my lungs I’ll never leave you and even after” I put on my bravest face as I walked away stepping into the carriage. I watched as my family slowly faded away, as my dear brother chased after me until his little legs could no longer keep pace. And once they we’re out of sight I watched as Liza stared terrified out the window, she must of been leaving her family behind too. “How old are you Liza” “Seventeen miss” she said I took her hand in mine as I looked at her “we will be alright, each day we shall miss them less and when it becomes to much we shall turn towards each other.” She began crying, but I think they were happy tears , I hope so anyhow.