My Two True Mates (Book 2 True Fated Mate Series)

Chapter 2

Lena POV

Ryker and I were now sitting in the middle of the lake far away from shore with our fishing rods. We already cast them in and are now waiting for the fish to bite. Our children are at Lukas's wing of the castle for tonight. They were excited to learn that they'd be going to the bouncy castle tomorrow.

"I think my parents might as well move here permanently," I tell Ryker as my eyes look over the beautiful view of the open lake. White geese are swimming 30 yards away from us, the water is nice and calm. There was a little breeze but not chilly at all. It was perfect weather for fishing, and the skies weren't quite turning orange and pink yet of the upcoming setting sun.

I glanced at Ryker, he was leaning back with his hands behind his head, looking at the sky as he replied. "Yeah, they should. After all, they both have already been long-time retired from their duties at North Star Pack. They have been here since our babies have been born. Your siblings can always visit them here. Speaking, of your siblings, I am surprised that they don't have kids yet."

"I should ask my parents later. Also, Jenni had boys the same age as our triplets and Zeke. Jace and James remember? Cruiz hasn't found his mate yet. Logan's mate Lianna is a vampire, and some vampires have a harder time conceiving. They are trying, though. As for my baby brother Zane, he hasn't found his mate yet and doesn't want to." I tell him as I lean back and put my feet up on the edge of the boat. Ryker hummed in response to what I had told him. My eyes stayed on the rods and our fishing lines in the water as I spoke to Ryker. "We have my parent's temporary cabin on the other side of this lake. Then we have Hardin's house which is next door to ours. Then we have your uncle Elliot who comes and goes. Then we also have my siblings that also come and go, well, Logan and Cruiz who can teleport. Then Weston and Gemma and their kids who live on the right side of the lake not too far from us maybe like a 10-minute walk in human strides." I giggled, if I ran to their place I'd be there in 10 seconds. We all wanted to live near each other, plus it would be good for the kids to grow up together. The only ones who can't live closer are, Cruiz, Jenni, Logan, and Zane. "Anyway, they could also choose to live with any of my other siblings if they wanted. I just want to know so we can change their cabin into a functioning permanent home with it being warm for the winter."

Ryker agreed with me and we sat in comfortable silence for a moment. I was truly enjoying being out here, I felt so relaxed and at ease right now. If I could, I would stay out here forever.

"Lena?" Ryker asks after a long moment of comfortable silence.

"Yes?" I glanced at him, and he was still sitting in the same position. I stare back at the rods, hoping I'll catch a fish soon. Come on fishy fishy fishy, where are you?

"Are you happy with me?" He sounded vulnerable. I can also feel the tension rolling off of him in waves all of a sudden. I stare at him in shock, I wasn't expecting the conversation to turn to this. Wait? I frown as I try feeling for his emotions but get nothing. Was he blocking me out of his feelings this whole time? As I stared at him, I realized that he was serious so I thought to myself, am I happy with Ryker? He's my best friend and the father to our children, I love him. What's gotten into him? Am I happy with Ryker? "Yes.." I answer slowly. I think this conversation is new and weird. He's not even looking at me either, he's looking out at the lake.

"Doesn't fully feel like it." He half whispered, I almost didn't hear him. Ryker finally looked at me, he folded his hands in front of him, leaning forward. His eyes are searching mine. His expression was a little sad. Why, though? I couldn't get a good read on him at all, which left me confused. Had he always been strong enough to block me with our bond and my angelic abilities to read his intentions, his vibes? I also felt guilty. I had no idea I was making him feel like he wasn't enough. We haven't felt like lovers at all. More like roommates who share a bed and children.

I continued to watch him and waited for him to speak. I wanted him to enlighten me of what he just said to me. I tilted my head as I tried to read him again since he was still silent, I, of course, couldn't get a read on him at all. It completely frustrated me.

Finally, after a moment, he said, "You've been off for a few weeks now. Maybe even months."

"What do you mean?" I asked him, my frown deepened.

He runs his other hand through his black hair, making it messy then he lets out a stressful sigh. "Well, you seem to be not fully here with us when you are here. Like the other day, when we were doing puzzles with the kids and they were talking to us, you'd nod and hum at them in response. You weren't fully listening to anything we were all saying. Your mind was somewhere else. Even the guys are starting to notice. Ryn came up to me and asked me yesterday what was wrong with you. Curious, I walked to where she came from, you were by the lake, just staring out at it. You stayed there for a good hour before you snapped out of it. Even now, before we got here, you were spaced out. Ryn is the only one out of our children who has noticed it."

I couldn't believe it, how did I not notice I'd been spacing out? Especially on my children? They're my everything, my world. If I was, I wasn't doing it intentionally. I looked at the water as guilt weighed heavily on me. I feel bad that I have been spacing out a lot. Especially spacing out on my children, my babies. Why? What is going on with me?

"Lena, whatever is going on, I may have an idea about it. I think you should go and visit King Finn. Get him to look deep in your head at what may cause this. I can feel from your own emotions that you don't even know what's going on. I also know you're not doing it on purpose and that you have no control. It's not your fault." He tells me, his tone soft and all I see is the concern in his eyes. "My uncle Elliot is not strong enough to look into your mind. He knows it, too, but King Finn is strong enough. He did it before. He can do it again."

I nodded in agreement as I felt my throat thicken. I can't believe I've been spacing out on my babies. "Okay, I'll go tomorrow." I choked out, I don't want to cry right now. But, of course, a tear slipped, and I quickly wiped it off.

"Right, then. I'll send him a message." Ryker pulled a bag from under him. He glances at me with a small smile, "Don't worry, love, we will get through this. You didn't mean to. It's also hard to break you out of it when it happens. Don't worry we will fix this." He reassured me. He dug into the bag in his hands and pulled out a pen and a piece of paper. He wrote on it and then crumpled it in his hand. He whispered a spell to it, and the paper lit up in flames and disappeared.

"I love it when you do that. It's so cool." I tell him in awe as I wipe a tear that slipped down my cheek again. He smiled at me. I don't want to space out anymore. Hopefully, King Finn can help me.

"Look!" He pointed to my fishing line. The bobber was dipping under the water. I quickly grabbed my rod and started to reel in the fish.

"Oh my gosh! I think this one is huge! He's a fighter." I exclaimed as I kept reeling him in slowly, only stopping when he fought. My spacing-out problem was momentarily forgotten.

"Oh! I got one!" Ryker yells as he starts reeling in his fish. I reached for the net with my other hand dipped it in the water, and lifted my fish.

I was laughing, "Yup, and big ol' walleye!" I told Ryker as I unhooked this fish, "I'm taking you home to eat." I tell the fish as I put the fish in the fishing tub we had behind me.

"I think mine is bigger than yours." He says all proudly as he passes me his fish. I grabbed it and put it with mine. It was bigger than mine. I rolled my eyes as Ryker laughed. "It is bigger than yours, isn't it? That's why you're not saying anything." He chuckles.

"Just fish, we need at least 2 more," I tell him as I cast in my line again. I waved him off.

Ryker smirked at me as he tossed his in, too. "Okay, we shall see who gets the biggest this round."

Later on that evening, we were sitting around the table eating our fish, mashed potatoes, veggies, toast, and water. Ryker put on the radio at a low volume just for background noise. The radio was playing old country music, which was comforting.

I was busy thinking about my spacing out. Most days, I don't realize I am doing it. On other days, I am aware of it. It's all confusing. I can't believe I have been losing time. Worst, I've been losing time with my 4 babies. I hate that I am losing time with them.

"Ry, you said that I've been spacing out for years? Or months? How long exactly?" I asked him as I took a sip of water. I forgot what he had said earlier.

He sighed and said, "Every day, every few hours, its been going on for months. Now, that I think of it, maybe even years."

"What?! Years! And you're just telling me now!" I was getting angry at him now. Why would he not say anything earlier?

"Wait, hold on." He held his hands up to me after he put down his fork. "After the triplets were born, you spaced out, feeding them but only for a moment. Then, after that, you'd only space out maybe once or twice a year. It wasn't until 2 weeks ago that it got much more frequent and lasted longer. I thought it would go away this week, and you wouldn't do it again, You did it 3 times today. So now it's more urgent. I am sorry, I thought you knew, and I thought you were doing it on purpose. That was until, I realized today that you had no control, Storm, was the one who noticed. I apologize, love."

"It's fine. As long as I know now." I waved him off and continued to eat.

I am not okay. I know I'm not. I am grateful to Ryker and Storm for figuring it out right away. Now that I know the route of my problem, I am more determined to get help. Especially for my children. They need their mommy to be okay.