I'm writing this book for my boyso. They can go from nothing to something

My first encounter with the most high God I was about to get a whooping And this is how I know God is real. I prayed I said God, please don't let me get a whopping today. I'm just tired of getting wounds. By my moma and her girlfriend I forgot to tell you. She was gay on and off throughout our life. We've seen 11- 20 mates that my mother had. That's why I choose to stay by myself. And take care of my children. i don't want have too many strange people around. Because I've been through it through my whole life. And I just didn't want it for my boys. I only want the best for them. That's that's why I chose to be alone. I've been living by myself for 11 years. Every since I have my first son,(Princeton)He's smart, he's intelligent my whole life changed. He makes good grades. And I try my best to do my best for my children. Being a single moma is very hard both their dads are not in their life. But I keep pushing I pray a lot and I decided to write this book To let young mothers know that you can do it too I'm not telling nobody to be alone but if something is not working for you or the relationships are not prospering And if you Getting the same results out of every relationship. Then something has to change my other son Titan He's a great baby He's only 7 but he's a smart little guy he can sing he dance well my family full of stars We just had to embrace it and apply ourselves. I'm looking for ways to forget my pass and move on to the future. So I can be a better mother, but things old haunt me. I have anxiety about different things different Situations that happened when I was little I was molested at fourteen by a man Name Larry Jenkins, my mom accepted beer and exchange for me. he Often just to put his mouth. On my body, he never penetrated me. But I still call him a monster he took my innocence. And my mother knew all about it and she did not stop it. I had the grudge for a long time for that. Yeah, but I finally let it go I finally forgave. They say your mother is your first pimp, it's like I have to recover from all my past trauma. And I'm doing it God is helping me do it. He's so wonderful from 14 to now. God never took his hands off of me. Even when I was going to get that whoopin when I was four God stopped it because I prayed hard lol I started reading my Bible at 14 a girl who's a close friend of mine. shirlisa Introduce me to the Bible and I never stop reading it. I read it non-stop. I read it to a point of no return the stories were so enlighten, but I still didn't change my ways as a child. I still was bad. I still had conflict with my mother. I just wasn't a good child as I got older I grew knowledge. I prayed for wisdom. And understanding, I'm still working on it I really think I have it already. But I just aint applied. I want to be the best mother. I can be. I wanna be the best friend I can be. i wanna be everything God wants me to be I met this preacher named Eli Jacobs. He had friends that used to touch in fell. On little girls and at church. And once they told me with my loud mouth. I exposed everything cause the word say don't hide nothing. That is bad i'm (paraphrasing) tell the truth about everything So I did I told the truth as a got older I wasn't afraid anymore. He sent people to blow up my car to get even with me kids had to go to cps for months After taking parenting classes and finding a new place to stay. I got my kids back eventually and I was very happy. But while my kids were gone I turned to alcoholism. I mean drinking heavy. I had no outlets so i prayed for the Lord to take that off me, but my heart was so weary. I just couldn't stop drinking so they led to me fighting I wss high strong In very rebellious to the Most high God But he never left my side he stayed with me. I slept in my van 4 a couple days I found a place to stay. It was like I was going crazy without my kids. I actually did go crazy without my kids. You know faith is the thing's hoped for and the evidence of things not seen So one thing I never did was lose faith I was angry so long at the people who did these things to me. But I stop being victim and start taking control of my life im still not perfect but the lord is working on me and I just want you single Mother's to know that the Lord has your back. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Even with the short story i'm telling you The lord God above put it on my mind to write it may not be the best top selling navel, but hopefully it could be something that can help. I think a mother or a single father that went through dramatic events should take it as a road to Redemption,,it's time to let go and let God (be just )and (upright) Don't let past trauma Hander you from your blessing Ahead because God made Abraham a promise to provide for his seeds. We are Abraham's children. Don't ever forget that. The wildest pain in misery I went through. I'm still alive. And I know we can have Anything That we set our minds to I want to be rich Maybe a billionaire cause God did not put us here to not have Wealth So just to let you know anything you go through. You're gonna get through it in any past Trauma, let it go. Let it go and let it take you to the next level. Because he will if you believe. All you have to do is have a mustard seed of faith ima leave with something I wrote for the most high God I have worked long days and nights for my boys I have spent all my money on my boys I've got them back from cps when I was laced and went manic I have done alot to make them happy by myself because I love them I have went hungry so they can eat have sold my cars to keep up with rent one has a daddy one don't but I still provided without any help from nobody but god my moma or they daddy no grandparents they too old but they pray for me ive got better yes they gave me good advice i got myself back i church but they tell everyone my bad ways drinking and drinking because of stress of doing things alone and I got a dwi dint drink in drive lol not funny though. poem :Yahawah well Show me things I never seen Yahawah turn it to light it's not a dream Yahawah will make everything brand new Yahawah will Bring me to light so show det truth Yahawah will teach my thing my moma nva done Yahawah will Bring me from darkness to the sun Yahawah make everything brand new Yahawah will yes He go Bring out det truth I searched high in low for a love like this , I finally got his love and it feels like bliss ain't nobody on the earth yall can't tell me shhh Cuz I know rat now det isreal lit.. Yahawah will Show me things I never seen Yahawah turn it to light it's not a dream Yahawah will make everything brand new Yahawah will Bring me to light so show det truth Yahawah will teach my thing my moma nva done Yahawah will Bring me from darkness to the sun Yahawah make everything brand new Yahawah will yes He go Bring out det truth 3×Ohhh yea Yahawah will This is Yahawahs will... thawadah isreal... thank you Yahawah bahashem Yahawshi