The ripple effect
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It's always so easy to get lost in what could be when Alexander are cooking in the kitchen together. It always felt natural, reminding him of his parents when he was growing up. As they were admiring their master piece, Alexander doesn't know what came over him and he kissed her and she kissed him back and for what felt like forever. She pulled back, "I'll set the table and you and Andrew can just stay there and look cool," she said to afraid to acknowledge the kiss because it may have meant more to her than it had to him, she felt him become distant, she worried if it would be because she pulled away, tears threatened to fall.
Tomorrow she would look for an apartment now that she didn't have to worry about it being wheelchair friendly. They had dinner in an awkward silence and she now wished she had given into his kiss because it was not because she didn't want to, she was too afraid she was more into it than he was, and judging by his reaction she was.
What annoyed her the most was that he sat on that sofa humming beautifully to Andrew until he fell asleep and this time when she woke up in the middle of the night, she was warm but alone, no Alexander. She willed herself not to cry. This guy practically told her that he saw himself as her older brother when she first moved in. What confused her was the passion he kissed her with in that kitchen, that was not some weird game of thrones s**t, in that moment Alexander wanted her as much as she wanted him. She took Andrew to the room and they fell back asleep. She just didn't want to fall asleep.
In the morning after she had cried her eyes out she took a shower and gave her little angel his bottle and he fell back asleep and she took cleaning supplies to keep from crying about what happened. She would look for a new place when she was in the right frame of mind. Her tears wouldn't stop falling and she startled by Alexander stopping him from what she was doing, "What is going on? Why are you cleaning? The maid was just here yesterday," he could tell something was wrong by how she couldn't look at him. "I'm paying for my stay here, I don't want to have to pay for it in other ways," he heard how shaky her voice was, was she crying. Why would she think she needed to pay him with s*x to stay, and the kiss from last night came back and he felt bad. "Casey I'm sorry I kissed you, I didn't expect you to sleep with me by it. I never struggle to get women, should you have s*x with me, it will be because you want to and I'm sorry I made you feel like your stay here was threatened by you not being interested." he said standing her up. "You don't get it, it's not about the kiss. It's you being hot and cold, you're giving me whiplash trying to keep with your s**t," she said and if he was honest with himself he was hot and cold with her, but it was to protect her from him, she is still so young and innocent and he is nothing but pure evil.
The beast inside of him wanted to come out and play seeing her this vulnerable and it took all he had to protect her, because as much as he wanted to be with her he couldn't. He didn't have control of his beast around her, he doesn't even know why he ended up calling her. That kiss may have been a tiny pebble, by the ripple effects almost made him lose her. "I'm going out for a bit, is there anything you need?" he asked and she said she needed nothing knowing full well there was a lot she needed. She just didn't want to depend on him. She already depended on him for way too much. She would call a cab and go get her stuff as well as Andrew's bath stuff.
Alexander had a lot to share with Dr Evans today, especially after her fight with Casey. As broken as he is, he can not be with someone as broken, they were toxic for each other. Dr Evans told him to fix his relationship with his brothers first as a practice run and he would then know he is ready to start anything with Casey. Walking out of Dr Evans' office, he ran into Jason. "Hey bro, I thought you only came in on Wednesdays?" Jason said showing he cared enough to notice. "I just needed advice on something, " Alexander said already walking away. "Xander I know I have not been the most supportive, but I need you to know I'm here if you want to talk. I'm done dropping hints because you obviously not getting them, the times I annoy you are my favorite part of my day, because it's the only time talk to me, I miss you. The last four years have been really rough, I'm sorry that instead of standing with you, we distanced ourselves to country club. I hope we can get a chance to work on us and one day be friends again, we could go get smoothies and you can watch me suffer from the broccoli and spinach smoothie Sam is forcing on me. I learnt the hard way that she knows when I don't get the vegetable monstrosity she calls a smoothie." Jason said and managed to get a laugh out of his brother. "As much as that would be fun, I am starting the night shift on Monday and I want to get my prias ready for Casey for when I'll be too tired to take her places." he said still laughing. "You may not want to admit it bro, but she domesticated you and knowing you she doesn't even know she did it." he said on a more serious tone, "...I've never seen you go through such for a woman, and I've met her so I know why you feel like that, just let yourself be in it. You're ready." "I'll see you around, hopefully over a smoothie, just to make my day hey," he said walking to his car and Jason to his as well.
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