Burning in the dark

Anger is all I feel now, all I am now. All the love and compassion I had a little while ago went down the drain on Saturday without ever realizing that they had ever been there. Everything I think, everything I feel, everything I look at in anything and everyone ... is ANGRY. I honestly don't understand love, I once had a love, a single person that I thought had put a lid on all the nonsense I was going to do at some point. But she left as suddenly as she came. It was my shortest relationship in which I put more soul, patience, love and attention than in the others I have had so far. The door through which everyone in my life could enter and exit is now open in one direction only to the exit, I no longer need new people, I no longer want to have falsehood and interests in my relations with the outside world, which he showed only the humiliation and fear of being loyal to someone who is loyal to you every minute of the day and of the night anyway. I was taken away from everything that means quarrels, discussions related to quarrels, betrayals, deceptions and even personal interests acquired as a result of interacting with a person who gives his interest to be with you, to be with you whatever be, no matter the situation, and you are a weak person, without any trace of shame, without any trace of compassion for other people ... you show me what love means, it sounds pathetic. I showed loyalty a few times and I can say love, but the person ... the people I was with didn't give a damn about how I felt. That's why I chose anger. Anger is universal, it can be used by anyone who can fully understand it. I have received anger from the outside world of my person, I have come to feel this for everyone, even for family, ex-girlfriends and for the rest of the world.