Our Story

Chapter 10

Next morning I woke up and I was very nervous as if I was going to write an important exam. And if I truly compare both situations then this was tougher. I was honestly not this nervous when I was writing my finals. I didn't know what I was going to do and what the result was going to be. That morning I motivated myself a hundred times and finally came out of my house.

Taking a deep breath I gathered the courage inside me and walked to the subway. After reaching the subway, I clicked open my mobile. It was displaying 8:13 AM, the time when she used to be there. I searched for her but she was not there.

Soon our metro was on the platform but still I couldn't find her and unwillingly I had to get into the train and head to the office. I went to the office, hoping that, "Maybe tomorrow I will see her."

Next morning, again I waited for her on the subway but she wasn't there that day either. I persuaded myself with much difficulty to meet her and that day too she wasn't there.

Again the metro was on the platform but I didn't get into it and waited for 30 minutes there. But still she wasn't there, so I took the other metro and reached late to the office. Luckily, my boss didn't catch me that day and I was saved.

The other day, I went to the subway earlier even though she wasn't there. I scanned around everywhere but couldn't find her and soon our metro was on the platform.

I started to feel a strange kind of restlessness inside me. A guilt that I never felt before. Unknowingly I got upset. I wanted to meet her, I wanted to talk to her about my situation, I wanted to know what she would say about my confusions. Again I waited for her for 30 minutes more but that was also wasted. I wanted to wait more for her although I had no other option except going straight to the office. I took the next metro and was late again.

"Screw nut needed to be tightened again, huh?" I heard this pathetic line from behind, when I reached the office.

I knew who he was and that discomfortness inside me made me apathetic. I didn't turn around to him and continued walking my way. I was already disturbed and didn't want to give him any chance to irritate me more.

Slowly a week passed, and I was still searching for her. Everyday on the metro, I often tried to find someone who could tell me anything about her but I didn't find any. Even those two Laut's friends were also not there.

I was enraged for the first time, asking myself, "Why did I have to let go of that chance. Why didn't I extend my hand to her? Why shouldn't I talk to her at least for once."

She gave me many chances and I. . What did I do? Skipped every single chance and waited for the next. I started to talk to her in my thoughts all day but even in my thoughts she did not say a word and I was the only one who spoke. I wanted to at least hear her voice for once. So I could talk to her in my mind.

Every day I used to search for her but she was never there. Every day my hope was breaking into pieces and with my hope something inside me was broken too.

Maybe that was the eleventh day of my search for her on the metro and again I was infelicitous. After reaching the office, my mobile beeped with a message from the office group," Hurry up guy. To the conference room, the meeting is about to start."

And I came to know that there was going to be a meeting. I went to the conference room and quietly sat down there on my seat without knowing what the meeting was about. I was not interested in talking to anyone, so I didn't even ask.

The meeting started. All my co-employees were focused on 'THE BOSS' instructions and their laptop screens. At the start of the meeting, I too tried to focus but after my flop try 'she' was the one at whom I was focusing.

Suddenly, it came to my mind that, "The station where she used to get down, whatever cancer hospital will be there, let's check on the staff of that hospital." and I started searching for cancer hospitals in that area on my laptop.

The search showed me a hospital in that place. That was the same hospital where Uncle Paul had an undergoing treatment a few years ago, Max told me about that. And it was the only cancer hospital around there. Then I, with all due attention, started checking the staff of that hospital and was disturbed by the laughter of my co-employees.

I looked around me, they all were giggling at me hiding their mouths. I was totally irritated by them but tried to ignore them and continued my search. They laughed even more, which made me irritatedly confused again. I glanced around again and my gaze hit the 'Interactive board'.

THE BOSS was monitoring my screen, when I looked at his face he winked.

Every time I was trying to find her I collapsed with failure. I was already irritated and then my boss made me extremely frustrated and furious. And I was done. For me it was a flood situation, I couldn't control myself.

Annoyingly, I stood up at my place without thinking much and shouted at THE BOSS, "Why scratch others' ass if you have itching on your own?"

A brief silence overtook all their laughter, from the eyes he winked at me a moment ago, was widely staring at me after getting some unexpected entertainment from me. None of them expected this from me, neither did I.

Basically, the thing was I did nothing on my own. SHE provoked me to do that. The old me couldn't even dream about that.

They all were shocked and paused. Taking the next step, I kicked the chair. The sound of the chair thug against the floor was heard clearly in the room silent with my sudden action. And I walked out from the conference room and then came out straight from the office.

I was standing out of my office and was confused. "What did I just do ?" I didn't even get anything and thought, "What should I do now ? What would be my next step to find her?"

And suddenly the inner soul of mine said to me, "Let's go to the hospital and ask them about her. Maybe anyone knows about her."

Wishing myself good luck, I took the metro to head to that cancer hospital.