Awake // jinkook

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Seokjin went out of the car, he embraced himself as the cold wind hit his bare skin, he looked around and smiled at the calm atmosphere.

He let out a contented smile when he saw the ocean waving at them, few more walks and his feet will touch the white sand, he smiled.

"Let's go..."

Taehyung took the lead walking forward to the water with the younger following behind him— still with a neverending smile on his face.

The both of them stopped when they're steps away from the water, it's a good thing that Seokjin followed what the other man has said, to just wear a comfy slippers.

"Do you like it in here?" Taehyung asked.

Seokjin embraced himself tighter looking around before he smiled at the man infront of him.

"I love it." He breathed out.

It's as if the skies looks so much brighter in here, the fresh air that is very different from the city and most especially the white sand that is softly hitting his feet.

"Is this you first time going to a beach?" Taehyung asked, his eyebrows furrowing.

"Yes..."

He blinked for a couple of times, unsure of what to say. He just asked that since he doesnt even know how to start a conversation, he never expected Seokjin to say yes.

He bit his lower lips as he realized how the kinds of Seokjin is living— they're treasured by their family as if they're a hidden gem supposed to be caged and handled with utmost care.

Yoongi is like that too. Though, his bestfriend is fearless. He fears nothing, not even the danger of being alone in the streets.

"How did you take all of this?" Taehyung said how the younger's eyebrows furrowed with his words, "I mean, you getting married in this way." He said.

He doesnt want to sound rude but he also doesnt know how to say it in a nice way, he doesnt want to offend Seokjin but he's curious.

How did Seokjin handle all of this? He's barely living with his life settled on the corners of their house and when he got the chance to see the world, he needs to chose a partner in life already.

The younger cant help but to stare at the ocean waving at them a little bit calm than expected as if knowing what he feels as of the moment.

It's as if the clear water that is slowly going up and down is making him see and remember all of the things that he heard before— words that carved into his mind that this is what he's born for.

"My Aunt loves to dressed me up as a kid, I thought that it was just because she loves nice clothes on me," he let out a tight-lipped smile remembering all of that.

"When I turned nine, she hired a servant for me. We doesnt have a huge amount of money but she worked a couple of jobs just to get me a person that will take care of me," he bit his lower lips, "Someone who will make me eat and take care of me, my hygiene and all the stuff that I need."

He can clearly remember how his Aunt always comes home exhausted because of her job just to give all of the things that he needs.

Fortunately, his Aunt got enough money to open a small business that is up until now is the main source of their income.

"Then, my Aunt will always come to my room before the day ends to look at me as if all of his tiredness will go away just by simply looking at me."

Taehyung cant help but to stare at the younger, he can see the sadness in his eyes, the longing of something that he cant even point out.

It's as if Seokjin is missing something important in his life. It's as if the younger needs a highlight of anything that will make him enjoy every single day.

"One day, I accidentally tripped on the floor. She screamed worriedly, she helped me get up and she first checked if my face has bruises before asking me if im fine."

"After that, she keeps on telling me that I shouldnt have scars or any kind of wounds. She said that my future husband wont like it, she told me right on my face that I should marry someone who got the name, influence and money."

Seokjin let out a very deep sigh as he shrugged his shoulder, he smiled a little.

He doesnt have a heavy heart. He's moved onto the stage wherein he's in denial of everything, he knows that this is going to happen sooner or later.

"That's when I knew that, I have to be beautiful, I have to remain pure, I have to watch what I say, I have to know how to act well not for myself but for my future husband and his family."

Taehyung pressed his lips into a thin line, not knowing what to say.

He cant help but to stare at Seokjin, admiring the younger. Thinking as to how he looks so calm with all of that, he knows that there's something deep inside of the younger that wants to run away with the kind of set-up he has.

Though, he admired Seokjin for accepting what is happening with a welcoming heart. He wants to admire Seokjin for being so strong and holding onto what he has right now than to ask for more because of the lack of freedom.

Seokjin is very much contented with the little things that he have when the truth is, he deserves more than that.

"You are beautiful, Seokjin," Taehyung blurted out, "No, not because you look good." He sighed.

"But because you're accepting what is given to you when you clearly deserve so much better than being locked up."

Seokjin stopped when he heard what Taehyung just said, it's as if those words literally touched his heart.

Locked up? He swallowed the lump forming in his throat. He shut his eyes closed wanting to prevent the tears from just falling out of his eyes.

You wont really realize something unless someone pointed it out, maybe that is the reason as to why he feels empty without the reason being known.

"No, Taehyung. Im fine with this." He said with a smile plastered on his face.