Let's break up
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Chapter 27
Jason POV
The drive back to my house didn't take much time, and as I park at the garage minutes later, I spot Ariana standing in front of the house and waiting for me. She scurries over to me as soon as I hop out of the car, and I groan silently.
"You're here, baby? I have missed you so much," She whines as she throws herself in my arms, hugging me tightly as if I've been away for so long, and she has really missed me.
"It's late. Why are you still up?" I ask as I pull her away from me gently, and she scoffs as she rolls her eyes.
"How was I supposed to sleep knowing my baby wasn't home yet? Come on, I made your favorite. Why don't you come inside, and..."
"I don't think I will have dinner tonight. I'm exhausted, and need to get some rest now," I cut her off, and she creases her eyebrows as she stares at me suspiciously.
"Are you ok? You look sad. Did anything happen while you were away? Come on, tell me what happened?" She urges me as she holds my hands, but I gently retract from her grasp, and she blinks her eyes rapidly.
"I just want to be left alone, Ariana. You should get some sleep," And with that, I walk past her and head toward the entrance door, when her voice sounds through my ears.
"Sophie... Did you see her today?" Her question brings me to an abrupt halt, and I slowly clench my fingers beside me.
"I guess I should take that for a yes, right?" She scoffs, followed by her footsteps that drew closer behind me, and I turn to see her standing right behind me.
"Why? Am I not enough?" The look in her eyes is evidence of the pain she must be suffering inside. She doesn't deserve to be treated like this. She has been with me and did everything to win my heart, but it just didn't work. I tried to love her, but it turned out that my heart was still with Sophie, and it was never my fault that I couldn't stop loving her even after all those years, right?
"Ariana..." I pause and bite my lip, not knowing what to say to her.
"It has been three years, Jason... Three good years, and all those years, I have tried so hard to be a good woman to you... I lived my life for you, hoping and praying that you would one day see how much I love you, and you would return the feeling, but why this? Why does it still have to be her even after all these years?" Tears finally find their way down her cheeks as she stares into my eyes like the answers to her questions are written in them.
"Our three years of relationship never meant anything to you, did it?" Her voice quivers as she throws the question to me, even though I haven't been able to answer the first one she asked.
"What should I do? Don't just stare at me like that, and tell me what I need to do to make you love me. Tell me what I need to do to make you forget her, and I wouldn't mind even though it will hurt me," She utters as she holds my hand, more tears stream down her cheeks, and I sigh briefly.
"Let's...break up," I know this is unfair to her, but I can't keep her by my side and keep wasting her time even though I feel nothing for her. That is being wicked to her.
"Let's end things, Ariana..." She quickly let go of my hand and step away from me, while shaking her head slowly.
"Break up? I won't ever do that. How can you even ask us to break up, Jason? We have been together for years, we can't just break up like that," She shakes her head again, and I sigh briefly.
"I still love her... I still want to be with her, and I don't want to hurt you. We should end things for the sake of our happiness. We should..."
"Does she still feel the same way toward you after what happened? Does she still love you?" She cuts me off, and I bite my bottom lip as realization dawn on me that she already has a boyfriend, but that shouldn't stop me from winning her back, yeah?
"That doesn't matter..."
"I won't break up with you, never!" She utters before she turns and walks toward the entrance door, and she slams it close behind her once she walks inside the house.
Taking a deep breath, I push my legs toward the entrance door, and I head to my room once I'm inside the house.
Having my bath and getting ready to sleep didn't take me much time, and soon, I'm laying on the bed and trying to get some sleep, but my eyes seems to be haunted as I can't bring myself to get some sleep, no matter how much I try to force it.
I toss on the bed for the umpteenth time, before I turn to face Ariana that is fast asleep on the bed, and I sigh briefly. Life has been hard for me, trying to cope with this relationship. I never had the guts to speak up because I didn't want to hurt my mom, but it seems like I can't take it anymore at this point. I already lost Sophie once, and I'm not ready to lose her again this time. I need to win her heart back and make her mine again, but will that ever be possible especially now that she has a boyfriend?
Pushing all the thoughts to the back of my mind, I stand up from the bed and stride out of the room to the balcony. Staring at the beautiful sky that has the pretty stars twinkling, I slowly clench my fingers around the rail as memories of years ago flood my mind. I miss how I used to watch the stars with Sophie, how I used to call her the most beautiful star whenever we watched the stars together. Can those memories be brought back to life again? Will she watch the stars with me for as long as I breathe? Those are the questions that flood my mind without a single answer, so I give up thinking.
Turning to go inside the room, I stop on my track when I find Ariana standing at the doorway with tears in her eyes.
"Ariana?" I call surprisingly because she was sleeping when I left the room.
"What did she do to you that you can't forget her?" She throws the question at me again, and I gulp down nothing.
"Just tell me... I'm ready to do folds of it to get you to be mine. I love you, Jason. Please don't do this," I watch as tears stream down her cheeks, and waves of guilt spur through me. I wish this can work, but I don't think it ever will. She will only get hurt if she still chooses to stay by my side forever. Her emotions will only be subjected to jeopardy, which is what I don't want to ever happen...
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