Nervous
1396 Words
Chapter 17
Alpha Erubas POV
"Are you kidding me, Ares? How can you even think of that?" I snap at Ares angrily as I slam my hands on the table in front of him. I have only gone here to tell him about the progress with my mate so far, but he told me to bring her here already.
"This is something you need to do..."
"Come on, we both know that I can't do this... At least not now. She doesn't even know who I am, and you expect me to just bring her here? That's crazy. She's a human for goodness sake, and that is not how things are done in their world," I try to explain to him, trying not to yell again. I know he has been doing his best to help me, which was why I always deemed it fit to listen to him and heed his instructions, but not this one.
It has been difficult for me, having to put up all that in the name of making her fall in love with me, but it is more difficult, lying to her. I wonder how she will feel when she finds out about all this.
"What are you planning to do since you are in a relationship with her, or whatever you called it?" He inquires, and I sigh briefly. Even I haven't stopped to really think about that. I don't know what I should do next, but I know bringing her here is definitely out of it.
"I don't know yet. I think I just need some time to figure everything out," I reply to him, and he nods his head.
"I understand, but you shouldn't also waste much time. You know this has to be done fast," He says to me before I finally stride out of his chamber.
I head to the garden to get fresh air before I go back to my house.
"Things have been difficult on you lately, right? It'll be over eventually," I whisper to Raul as I stare into space. It has been a while since I was last here and being here now kind of makes me feel much better.
"When did you arrive here?" Hearing Noah's voice behind me, I just can't help but sigh briefly as I turn to see him walking toward me.
"Why are you here?" I ask him as I turn away from him, staring into space.
"It's not a coincidence... Maybe I was just missing you and I decided to come here, since it holds memories of us together, and I fortunately found you here," He says as he stands beside me now, and I slowly nod my head.
Silence creeps in afterward as I stare into space. I remember those days we used to come here to play even after we became adults, I can still remember those days we would spend the whole night here at times, talking about random things and playing together, and I can't deny that I miss those days, but what am I supposed to do? I don't even know who I am again.
"Why did you come here? Did you..."
"I need to go, Noah. Take care," I cut him up and turn to leave.
"For how long do you plan to keep running away from the truth? For how long do you plan to keep avoiding me?" I halt on my track and slowly clench my fingers as he asks me the questions, but sadly, I can't answer them. Maybe because I don't know the answer to it, or maybe I'm just scared of it.
I ignore him and stride out of the garden. I finally teleport back to my mansion, and I walk into the bathroom once I walk inside my room. Having a cold shower can make someone feel relaxed, and it's exactly what I decided to do.
'It's our first day together, don't you think we should spend the time together?' I sigh briefly as her words ring in my head. I don't think I can do this, but I don't also have a choice.
I finally walk back into my room, wearing my robe. I pick up my phone from the bed and think of a sweet message to send to her as I sit on the edge of the bed. I have never sent any girl a love message before, and this feels so weird. Of course, in the werewolf world, there's nothing like dating. Once you find your mate, you go straight to mating her, and that's it. There's always no cause to get to know each other and all that.
'Hey, are you there?' I type the message and send it to her, and as if she was about to message me, or she was waiting for my message, her reply popped in immediately, and I feel my heart skip a beat.
'Yes, I'm here. I've been waiting for your text. Did you get home safely?'
'Yes, I did. I will pick you up tomorrow on my way to the office' I wanted to send it to her, but I feel that it's void of emotions, and according to my research, I should always make my texts sweet so she would want to see me. Although I don't know how to flirt with a woman, but I think I just have to start learning it if I want to be romantic and win her over.
'I'm sorry I didn't text you earlier. I had something to take care of here. I got home safely. Uhm... How about I pick you up tomorrow so we can go to the office together? I just want to spend time with you in the morning before office' I read the message over and over again, but end up deleting them because I feel like it's also much. I mean, we just started dating.
'Yes, I did. Why don't we talk tomorrow? I have some work to do here' I ended up sending her the message since I couldn't come up with something sweet. It's really stressful to date a girl. I didn't sign up for this, but what was I supposed to do when my fate is like this?
'I was hoping we could spend more time talking on the phone. Can I call you?' Her message pops on the screen of my phone, and I sigh briefly. I suddenly become nervous and scared of hearing her voice, and I guess you know. I may not be able to talk to her later.
'Alright,' I reply to her text since I don't want to make her sad on our first days together as a couple. My phone starts ringing even before I expect her to have gotten the message.
"Hey," Her voice sounds through the phone as soon as I answer the call, and I feel my wolf waver excitedly, the sudden urge to see her surges through me, but I try to control myself.
"Why aren't you sleeping yet?" I ask her instead, and I hear her sigh.
"Something is bothering me, and I can't sleep," She whines, and I feel my heart freeze in my chest for seconds, as waves of excitement spark in my body.
"What happened?" I mumble, but she heard me anyway.
"Nothing... I'm just kidding. I was just missing you, and wanted to hear your voice," She whispers, and I gulp down nothing as I feel my heart skip again. I think I'm going to lose my mind if I keep talking to her.
"Hmm," I only hum.
"Hey... I know we just started dating, but can I ask for something?" She asks, and I nod my head as if she can see me.
"Hmm," I reply to her.
"I don't really feel comfortable with calling you Sir, and you calling me by name... So, I was thinking we could find sweet names to call each other. Why don't we talk about it over dinner tomorrow after work? Let's go out on a date," She sounds shy as she utters.
"Hmm," I know I sound weird, but I'm just too nervous to say something.
"I will leave you to work now. Good night," She says before the call disconnects, and I release the breath I've been holding unknowingly. Is this how I'm going to feel all the time?
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