Sorry about the past
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Chapter 25
Jason POV
The last three years without her in my life have made me feel so empty that I always wished I could turn back the hands of time. I know I don't deserve to show my face to her after everything that transpired between us in the past. I should've fought for her and made sure I kept her by my side, I shouldn't have ever left her, but I was scared she'd get hurt around me.
When I saw her yesterday, I knew that I was still in love with her. I can never let her go, no matter how much I try to.
"How have you been?" I know I have no right to ask her that, but I still did, anyway. I just want to get rid of the silence that assumed the atmosphere.
"I'm good," She replies to me casually, and I nod my head briefly. I have so many things to say to her, but I'm a bit scared she would get mad at me. Silence creeps in afterward since I don't even know what to say to her again.
"Why did you come back?" She suddenly asks out of the blue, and I glance at her before I pull over at the side of the road, taking a deep breath. Maybe this is the time to talk about everything that happened, and who knows, maybe we can go back to the way we used to be as couples, although I doubt if it'll happen so easily.
"Uhm..."
"You're done over there, I guess," She cuts me off, and I slowly nod my head since there's nothing else I can say to her. I couldn't have told her that I came back because of her, right? That won't make any sense and will make me look stupid in her eyes
"How is... Your girlfriend?" The question seems to be difficult for her, but she still asks anyway.
"She's fine," I reply to her with a deep sigh, and she slowly nods her head. I have a girlfriend, and I can't lie to her that I don't have any. What if she finds out late? How will she feel?
"I'm sorry about everything, Sophie," I apologize to her, even though I know I don't have any right to say that to her. I lost that the moment I left her and cut all contact with her.
"Why did you leave without telling me?" She finally turns her gaze to look at me, her eyes gleaming with tears, which disappear almost immediately.
"I'm sorry..."
"About what? About leaving and not telling me, or about blocking me from reaching out to you?" She scoffs as she turns her gaze away, and I bite my bottom lip.
"It was my mom, Sophie... I wanted to fight for us, but I was scared you'd get hurt... I was scared you won't be safe around me, I was..."
"Why are you here now? Because you have the courage to fight for us now? Oh, wait a minute! You said you have a girlfriend just now, yeah? Won't your mom get mad at you if she finds out that you came to see me?" She asks as she scoffs, and I gulp down the lump that forms in my throat.
"Sophie..."
"Don't touch me!" She raises her index finger warningly, and I sit back in my seat.
"Don't ever come to see me again, Jason. Seeing your face reminds me of the old memories I've buried in my past, and I don't like that. Don't come looking for me at the office too... I don't want my boyfriend to get angry," She utters and pushes the door open.
"Where are you going? We are not home yet," I utter hurriedly as I watch her step out of my car, but she doesn't even stop to spare me a glance.
"Thanks for the ride. I will take it from here," She utters before she walks away, not sparing me another glance.
Taking a deep breath, I rest my head on the headrest as I clench my fingers around the steering wheel, and waves of anger spur through me. It was all my mom's fault, she was the cause of all this.
Staying here won't help me, so I drive home while bearing in mind that I won't stop here because she's asking me to. You would wonder why I'm still chasing her when I already got a girlfriend, but the truth is that my mom forced me into a relationship with Ariana, her best friend's daughter.
My phone starts ringing as I drive home minutes later, and seeing Ariana's name displayed on the screen makes me sigh briefly. I pull over at the side of the road and answer the call.
"Babe, where are you?" Her tiny voice sounds from the other end, and I sigh briefly and silently. Ariana has been my childhood friend whom I know has a secret crush on me, but the one I loved from the onset was Sophie. Ariana and I were close that people thought we were dating. Mom was expecting me to bring her home as my girlfriend but was disappointed when I brought Sophie instead, and that was how everything messed up. Three months later, she insisted that I leave the country to further my education, and there, my fate and Ariana's were entangled, and we eventually started dating after a night together which was proudly sponsored by a bottle of vodka. Of course, mom found out I had s*x with Ariana, so she insisted that we both start dating right away and get married in the future.
"I'm on my way home. I will be there shortly," I reply to her and quickly end the call, not waiting for her to say anything again, because getting disturbed by her is the last thing on my mind right now.
Being the only child of my poor mom, it has always been my obligation to make sure that I do everything in my poor to make her happy. Being the only child has affected my life negatively, which included my life being ruled by my mom. I had to do whatever she asked me to do because I didn't want to see her sad, and that was how I ended up losing the woman I loved so much with everything in me.
'This is Xander, my boyfriend' now recalling her introducing me to her boyfriend earlier, I feel a sting in my heart. This is going to be extremely difficult, but I have to try my best and get her to forgive me for what happened in the past, and maybe get back together again. As for Ariana, I will take care of her and make sure she doesn't become a threat...
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