I am disappointed when the main course comes to an end and Elijah moves on to sit with someone else. He is interesting and charming, and actually enjoyable to be around. But I have tonight to look forward to. I still feel that my heart is closed off, reserved for Caspian, but I owe it to myself and the young men that left their lives behind to at least get to know them. At the end of the day, there is a chance that I will end up as the Queen of Zore, and if that happens, then the more connections I have, the better. I see Elijah sitting next to Desdemona and cringe. She doesn't deserve someone like him, she should end up with someone like Alexander, but that would probably be bad for everyone around them!
Lunia sits to my right for dessert, which doesn't really make sense since she is no
