FIRST LOVE

Episode Four

Okay, say it. Come on. Why get back into that lesson learned, you know? We're young. Think about all the cities to see. The money to be made. The women we can meet. Think about all the positions you'll miss out on, and you've got to try them all, man. Figure out what you like. We've got to make the most of this wild time while we can.

But now, I've got to say hi to whoever that is over there. Give me a minute. Why don't you come with me? No. No, no, no, there are one, two, three of them I can prove my point to you about. Go ahead. Go ahead, I'll be here.

Hi.

You changed your hair. Oh yeah, yeah, I guess I did. Uh, you look the same, in the best way. Thank you.

Should we? Yeah. Plan to stay up in New York after you finish? You know, I don't know. Graduation seems far away, but it's only next year and... I am chasing some internships.

You feel like you fit in well up there. What do you mean? It's in the city. I feel like it suits you.

What about you? Are you still running? Yeah. Times are getting better. I want to see you race again.

You dating anyone? No. No? No, I'm not. Who was the last lucky guy? Oh, he wasn't lucky. We just went out for a couple dates and some shows, and then things went dark. Dark like bats? No, I mean silent. It's kind of how things work up there. They pick up fast, and they just go nowhere.

If you're fishing for any juicy details, you'll find the water's pretty shallow.

What about you? Sure you've had some romances? No. Okay, sure. Come on, come on. Tell me about your hot flings. Be honest. You know, I was going to tell you all the steamy details. Mm hmm. And then I just thought, now I've heard that you're solo, I don't want to embarrass you, so... Oh, okay. You've just been a man in demand, I see.

Busy, busy boy. Mm hmm.

What was that? Hmm? About that look. That shake.

You gonna do that? What, get married? No, I mean, have your picture taken like that. Oh, um, maybe. But I wouldn't do it here. I would do it in a place that, uh, felt like home.

I was looking through this book of Japanese wedding portraits from before World War I. Don't ask me why. And I loved how intimate they felt. It didn't feel like a glamour shot or a magazine. It's like each bride felt so personal. In their own space, in their home. It's just like these souvenirs around that show their families.

And yeah, you could get a real sense of them that way.

Do you want water or anything? Sure, I can get it. Okay. Um, I'll just, I'll be right back.

The wind of

all I've got to

wrap your arm around me, wrap your arm around me, wrap your arm around me. I need it to pull me down. When did you get this done? Last year. A girl in the city did it for me.

I love it. What now? For us. What do you want? This.

What time's your flight tomorrow? Noon. I'll drive you to the airport. No. I won't. No, it'll just be depressing. I don't mind.

I love you. I do. I always have. I want you to know that. I love you too. Don't cry. I missed

you.

Hey.

Why don't you open the blinds? It gets too hot. I sit in the dark.

Any callbacks today?

Any callbacks? They'll know when there's news.

Why don't we sit together tonight and update your resume? Why don't we try having a normal conversation? Excuse me? Can we act like husband and wife? When you come home, don't just jump into a list of chores. I was just offering my help. Well, that's nagging. Yeah, well, when I come home from work and there's no dinner and no help and the TV's on, maybe there needs to be a little bit of nagging.

Where are you going? To the gym. Look, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to launch into a to do list. I just want things to be different when I get home.

You went to the gym this morning. Greg. Greg, we're not roommates. We need to be talking. We need to get through this together. Look, I know you're unhappy. And believe me, I'm unhappy, too. You don't just walk out, though. This place is a box. Let's go for a walk. I don't want to go for a walk, and I don't want to hear about your job.

I don't want to hear about your staff or your problems. I just want to watch the game. I'm sorry I'm so boring to you. Stop. No, really, I should be more interesting for you. Stop.

Do you think that you're interesting to me? Do you think I love watching you sit in front of the TV all day long?

At the very least, when you go to the gym, you should be wearing your wedding band. Enough. Oh, why? You don't want the little spin class girls knowing that you're married? Don't be small. Oh, I feel small. All of this is feeling very small. And I feel like we're invisible. Go pity yourself somewhere else. I would love to!

I would love to escape Greg! But I'm not! I'm here! And I'm here with you! I'm not walking out, that's what you're doing! How would you feel if I did that?

James has what's called a spontaneous pneumothorax on the right side, which means that he has a tear in his lung. Air has escaped out, has gone between his lung and the chest wall. Oh my goodness. And compressed his lungs down. That's why he's having shortness of breath. Okay. So the plan's gonna be to make an incision about two centimeters into his ribcage.

Place a tube into that space.

I miss you. She's

here. She took a late flight last night. Inhale. Three. Hold it. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Exhale. Let it go. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. You got one more in you? Flight's at three.

I can drive you. No. No. My mom won't take me.

I'm getting tired of all these goodbyes. Me too.

Thank you.