nostalgia

Cold sweats running through her body, the sound of a boy laughing with her, a boy who's head on her shoulder, happy memories inside her head kept going. Crying. Gyu Ri, a college girl who's an engineering student, living in the most unconditioned condo unit in seoul. Gyu Ri is working a part time job in a cafe the only source of her money. She's at the edge of the condo rooftop. Gyu Ri is an orphan who was adopted by a rich couple when she was 10 years old but how in the world did she end up in this most miserable life. let me go! Gyu Ri was crying for help. give me the necklace you stole you ungrateful child! Necklace. Gyu Ri was looking at the sky wondering why did God gave her so much challenges. Tears start to fall from her eyes, she couldn't get mad. tears kept falling and falling. She can't give up now, after all the sacrifices she did just to go up here, she's almost there, at her goal. goal? Since she was 15 years old, she had these vivid memories, memories that she thought that it was someone else not even realizing how the girl in the vivid memories was pointing at her. The long black haired girl with the old hoodies. It's her. The girl in her dreams, the dreams that continued. that's why she's here trying so hard to be a licensed engineer because of those dreams. She tried so hard so that she could... she could him, the boy in her dreams the boy will help her. Help her to be happy and bring back the smile on her face. "how can I meet him when he's blurry" gyu ri said throwing the cigarette and stepping on it before going inside. Morning has come and Gyu Ri was putting on her daily clothes, zipper hoodie and a pair of pants and grabbed her bag, turned off the lights before she left the condo. Gyu Ri was walking on the street before taking a seat at the bus stop, she's a morning person who always woke up before the sun rises. it's because she love the morning fresh air. the cold breeze blowing her baby hairs. The bus was already there and she sat at the back seat and put her earphones and played some music. and she didn't realize that her eyes are starting to close. I love you, Gyu said the guy beside her clinging on her shoulder while she looked at him as if she doesn't want him to be away from her sight. why aren't you saying it back? don't you love me? the guy said looking back at her but was startled that she's already looking at him. Don't ever leave me, .. Gyu Ri pov "ah" she winced at the impact of her head banging on the bus window, she massage her head trying to remove the dizziness. "are you oka- seeing that the bus has stopped already I immediately went out without noticing that I bump into someone, without even saying sorry because the bus was about to go. "that hurts" I said as soon as I stepped out of the bus, but remembering the dream that I had at the bus made my heart flutter but was a disappointment because I was about to say his name. Going through the hallway, I went to my locker and put some of my books and took my gym clothes. Yes first subject was PE. " 1, 2, 3, okay again on other side ... "Gyu Ri" someone whispered through my ears, I looked at the person beside me, but what shocked me more is that no one actually approached me since. I guess this is the first time. "Do I perhaps know you?" I said stopping from what I am doing. "actually you dropped your towel earlier, it has your name on it" why did I even expect that someone will know me. "thanks" I said before going back to exercising. my day went like this and that it just feels like every day is on repeat. it's tiring. I went to my locker to get essential books before going back home. the sun already went down and it's already dark pitch, and I'm walking back to my condo unit. and just like that I was already at the front door taking my shoes off, and making my way to kitchen and searching for something to eat after I haven't eaten anything today. there's only a roll of kimbap from yesterday, and that's what I ate, before scrolling through my phone for the firstly time today, after I finished eating I went to the bathroom and wash up, putting comfortable clothes before going through the rooftop again. going through the rooftop became my hobby because of how nice the view and how fresh the air is, it just make me forget all my problems. "why can't life be easy?"