My ex is my soulmate

Chapter thirteen - Getting close

Ally's POV:

I wish that we could spend our second anniversary together. I don't know why this day upset me so much, but it did. We did so many things together. I know that I should forget about this, but how am I supposed to? I still love Austin, and I don't think that anything or anyone can change that. It's not only because he was my first boyfriend. He cared for me a lot. Sometimes even more than my parents, which I thought was impossible. To be honest, I didn't expect him to remember this day. The way he acted didn't show that he knew it. I was a mess, and he was chilling like there was nothing. I guess that this is the difference between boys and girls. During the day, mom called me to ask how I was. I guess that she remembered that day as well. I wasn't feeling that bad, but the memories were hitting hard. Sometimes I hate that I had such a good boyfriend because now I realize what I have missed. Austin is not just a boy. He is made of gold, and I let him go just like that. Without even trying to keep him. No matter how hard I try, I don't think that I will be able to find someone better. I guess that this is why it hurts so much. Maybe we can get back together, but it won't be easy, or at least for me. I did and said so many horrible things to him that I will understand if he doesn't want to get back to me.

I woke up and felt a hand wrapped around me. I looked up to see Austin. Last night he came here and I didn't tell him to go, because that is exactly what I needed. I know that we shouldn't do this because we are only friends. Even if I did this with someone else, it wasn't going to feel so good. His touch is magical, and his cuddles are something that I am dying for. I know that he will do anything for me, and maybe this is why I am trying to keep him close. We are still only friends, so I have to behave. Probably one day we should talk about this, but I am not ready. I can't tell him what I feel, because I don't know if he will respond the same way.

I looked at Austin, who was sleeping peacefully. You have no idea how good I feel that he is here. It's not like he knows it. His hair is messy, his PJ out of place, and one of his hands is around me. What more should I want? I slightly got up and kissed his cheek. It's not a good idea for me to do this, but I couldn't resist. Later, I started playing with his hair. Something that he doesn't know is that I love his messy hair. I felt eyes on me, and I looked up to see that he was awake. I wonder if he felt the kiss.

- Good morning.

- To you too.

- You like my hair, don't you? I did it like that only for you.

- Um... thanks. I never said that I liked it.

- You don't have to. After all, I know you.

I didn't say anything and buried my face in his shirt, which made him laugh. He kissed the top of my head and removed a piece of my hair from my face. Austin used to do this a lot. I looked at him, and he smiled at me. How much I miss this. I miss him.

- I miss you.

- What?

- What? - I asked, confused

- Did you just say that... you miss me?

Sh*t! Did I say this out loud? Great. Just great. Now, I have to think of something.

- No, probably you didn't hear it right.

- Yeah, sure.

- I said that I miss YouTube. With silent tube.

- Ally, you are the worst liar ever. Whatever. I don't want to think about this.

- Thank you. - I said silently

- What do you want us to do today?

- I don't know. Maybe we should start with our project.

- Any ideas?

- No. We can make a love story.

- And we can be the main characters. I like your idea.

- I didn't say that.

- But I like it.

- I don't care. You know what. Maybe it has to be about superheroes. That way your imagination won't invent crazy ideas.

- I don't have crazy ideas.

- Yeah, totally.

- Do you want to see a crazy idea?

- Better not.

Austin didn't say anything, got up from bed only to sit on my legs. How am I supposed to escape now? I told him to get away from me, but he didn't listen. Instead, he came close. Please, don't tell me that he will kiss me. The problem is that if he does it, I won't be able to push him away. He was so close that I thought that he would kiss me, but no. Austin only winked at me and got up.

- Let's start working. We don't have a whole day. I will go to buy some food. Meanwhile, you can get ready and put everything that we'll need.

I didn't say anything and only nodded my head. I can't believe that he played me like that. The worst thing is that I almost gave in. I don't know why he did it, but it wasn't cool. Maybe I should tell him one or two things about this. After all, I don't want this to repeat anytime soon. I got up from my bed and went to get ready. Later, I made the bed and took everything that we'll need for the project. In that moment, an idea came to me. What if we make a story about a teenage girl who falls for a player? He will be the school's captain of the team. There are many stories about a girl who falls for the popular boy in school, but we can create our own.

Soon, Austin came back and I looked at him with a smile. I usually do this if I want something, but today, this is not the case. He looked at me and gave me the bag with food. This smells delicious. I can't wait to eat it all.

- To understand that you have an idea.

- Yes. I don't know if you will like it, but I think that it's good.

- Let me hear it.

- What if we make a story about a girl who falls for a school's team captain. He will be chilling in a park with his friends and throwing a ball when suddenly he misses it. The ball will be caught by one girl, and when the boy goes to take it, they will make eye contact. This is where everything will start. He will try to find who she is, the same as her. Soon they will meet again, and just like that, the story will evolve. What do you think?

- It's not bad, but isn't this something that already exists? How many stories there are about girls who fall for boys.

- Yes, but they are not with pictures. Do you have something better?

- To be honest, no, I don't. Ok, we can do your idea.

- Yay! Thank you. For the food as well. This is delicious.

- No problem. From where we'll start.

- I think that we can make it like a mini-book. First, we can make a couple of drawings to show what her and his life are. Then we can draw the first time when they will meet.

- Which is in a park, right?

- Yes. The boy and his friends will play with a ball, and suddenly it will go to one girl.

- I get it. It sounds good. After I finish with my food, we can start.

- Awesome.

After our breakfast, we started with the first drawings. I wanted this to be like a mini-book so we had to make it look like one. I was about to cut some papers in half when Austin gave me a better idea. We can use a sketchbook and that way all of our drawings will be in one place. If I have to be honest, this is a very good idea. Both of us walked out to the nearest bookshop. I know that there we can find sketchbooks.

- Hello, how can I help you? - one woman asked

- We need a sketchbook. - Austin said

- What type?

- Can we see them? - I asked

- Sure. Follow me.

After about half an hour of debating, we chose a black one with white paper. I was about to pay for it, but Austin did it first. I told him to wait for me outside while I bought a couple more things. I bought some pencils, colorful ones as well, and erasers. It's not like we don't have some in our dorm, but I want this project to be perfect. I walked out, and both with Austin went for lunch. I don't know when we'll eat it, but in the afternoon we plan to work.

- I will let you have the honor to start first. After all, you are a girl.

- Thank you, sir.

Like that, we started working. Austin was giving me tips on how to make my drawings look better. In the beginning, I wasn't very happy that we had to work together, but now I am good. He is a great teacher. We decided that I would draw the scenes with the girl, and Austin, with the boy. Both of us still don't know how their relationship will evolve. For now, what we have are the main events. For example, where they will meet, how they will start searching for each other. The good news is that we have enough time to do it.

After three hours of work, Austin wanted a break. He had started the boy's scenes. I won't lie that I loved watching him drawing. I still keep one drawing, which he did for me. It was part of my birthday presents. He drew me, holding a white rose. I wonder how much time he spent doing this. It was so detailed.

- I think that we are doing a great job.

- I agree. Your drawings are amazing.

- Not as much as yours, but thanks for the compliment.

- Mine are not that good.

- I don't think so.

Later, we worked for two more hours and decided to finish for the day. We can continue tomorrow. Drawing is not that hard for us, but it takes time, to make everything perfect. Austin wanted us to go for a walk and later to watch movies in bed. I had to agree since I couldn't offer anything better. We went to a park and sat on a bench. After that, we went to a*****e to buy some food for the movies. We walked into our dorm and put the food on his bed.

- What do you want us to watch? - Austin asked me

- How about The Avengers? They are cool.

- Don't tell me that I have to compete with a superhero.

- No, you don't. You are already my superhero.

- Really?

- No. - I said, laughing

- Very funny. Now you will see.

Austin went to his bed and started tickling me. Why did I open my mouth? Now, he won't stop until I apologize. Well, I guess that it didn't work. No matter how many times I said sorry, he didn't stop. What else does he want from me? Soon he came dangerously close. I am having deja vu from the morning.

- Let's watch our movie now. I tortured you enough.

I didn't say anything and played the first movie of The Avengers. I won't lie that they are some of the coolest superheroes ever. I love them so much. The thing is that whenever I was watching a movie with Austin and said that I love one of the characters, he was trying to show me that he is better. I'm not going to lie that I had my benefits from that. Now, things are a bit different, but I will try not to make any comments about the movie.

- Ok, I think that I will go to bed. I'm tired.

- This is a bed. - Austin said

- I know, but I prefer my bed.

- Give me five minutes, and I will be done.

- For what? Austin, you have your own bed. Use it. What happened was only for one night.

- So? You don't want me.

- I didn't say that. Only that I want to sleep alone. Moreover, the bed is too tight for two people.

- You didn't complain last night.

- Because I fall asleep quickly. Anyway. Go to your bed.

- Fine. I'll let the ghost cuddle with you.

- What ghost?

- Good night.

- To you too.

I hope that Austin didn't get offended. What happened last night, shouldn't repeat. I know that he wants to cuddle with me, but we did it during the movies. That's enough. I still love him, but for my own good, I have to stay away. I don't want to do something wrong and lose him forever. We are only friends now, but this doesn't mean that it will always be like that. I would love to spend more time with him, and I think that the project will help us. Now, all I will do is enjoy his company and hope that nothing bad will happen between us.