love hurts

I was born in small town I was the only child no brother sister my mom dad work all the time I had everything I won't but one thing was missing I was aone dad was alcoholic mom like her party life but they loved me I hated school I made fun of bullying all the time they made fun of me pick on all the time I had lot of ants uncle on my mom side they was couple girls they where all boys they won't to play house the touch me places I told my parents they act like did not believe me I still have to go around them cause my sister I hate them and every one I was not allowed to go spend night with any one or no one allowed to spend night with me they was all night skating I was not allowed to go I was won't to go do bad I went any way my dad got so mad I seen a good looking boy I went to him give him my phone number I thought he was not going to call me he did it was not long we dated one day I started to feel there was something wrong with me of course we lived 23 miles of town so we all went to hospital my dad was separated the hole time mom and dad was fussing in hospital the Dr come in told us I was pregnant and I was so happy and scared at the same time I was 15 years old going have baby and got married my dad was not going to have it any other way got own place I was happy it was not long I had another child Rachel . Victoria then I had my son Damion I was so happy the my life and my sunshine my everything I was make sure everyone safe and make sure they had everything they need and more I could not get no one watch the kids at all it was hard to do everything by my self no help I al ways had Michael the kids dad by my side every cents I was 15 I was with him for 20 years he past way of cancer I was won't to die with him he was my ride to die I ask lot I wish it was me not him I know u not post to ask why after we lost there dad we lost grandbaby at the same time it took me to a dark place where I don't won't no one go to I try to kill my self 18 times we lost the apt and lost my car I was all most a alcohol i drink all the time try to cover up the pain the kids grow up with their separate ways it was me Damion my son there with me it was just us alone again I was raised keep each other safe and no matter what if we was mad or not we all make sure keep family together no matter what cause all we got at end of day is each other Damion had grow up really fast he got his first job he was so happy he was in high school he was a good kid in school I all ways told my kids that never started it don't take no s**t over no one he was every good football player in mecce middle school all way up in high school Damion is so good that he had people come watch him play college till he was in a accident and she said I do and he was walking through the shopping center and one of his friends from school I said I was going to pushing in that window how would you like it and he said you're not going to push me to take the window and this is sending you know that he did big old piece of glass come down and cut his leg he had to have 13 stitches in and out that he almost lost his leg so it scared in to play football he did not won't to play no more he got older he got married and moved out of town be gone from 8 years he had a beautiful girl Addie we all loved her very much they got separated move back home and got with another girl he was no good to get hit with her and he had a beautiful baby boy damion made over they had problems to separate to he had nervous breakdown and psychosis I worry about him all the time I worry about all of them when they are out her on road of mads I won't to called it j never have turn my back on them never will it took long time to look at other guy I started to see some one he beat me called me names for 10 years I thought I never get away I did I went to jail for 2 years I got out everyone changes I couldn't believe it how time went by fast that's why don't need to fuss over nothing life ro short know one know when it's going be me or anyone I never understood way we have to die I was been scared of dieing I don't even like to fight or anything one hit can kill u when I got out of jail rehab I run to man good-looking I know he was different he hit me up f*******: bsoon we know we started to date I fill in love been year now I don't know what I do if I use them I could not go on I could not go threw pain I if I use him I never thought I love again all pain I went threw my life is love u have to loved to go threw the pain