To The Alpha who Broke My Heart

Five

Chapter Five: The high before the Low

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My wolf was already getting high on the intoxicating scent of our mate.

I could not wait to go up to him and throw my arms around him, then let him twirl me around as I blissfully giggle like a little silly girl in love. I could already feel my insides bubbling in anticipation. I felt excited for whatever reason. I'd not exactly had the most successful day at the hospital, most of my patients were giving me a headache as usual, but I did not know exactly how real that was until I stepped out of the hospital with a bounce in my step and I felt something shoot through my head. It was pain. Intense pain. So intense that it left me crouching down. It was so sudden and unexpected. But the minute I saw my mate I made sure that I had my back straightened.

"Hey my love." I greeted him with a big smile and wrapped my arms around his neck and he scooped me up into his arms and twirled me around; a greeting that I'm so familiar with but it always gets me blushing like crazy.

"Well look at you, fabulous as always, my gorgeous wife." He complimented and again my grin was up to my ears. I was smiling so hard that I was scared I would actually strain my muscles.

"Well, you sure do know how to make a lady blush. Where are my babies. I miss them." I told him because I could smell their scent on him and he actually looked at me, confused.

"Oh wow, looks like these days those boys have replaced me." He teased and I looked at him with a silly smile and told him,

"No one could ever replace you, you know. If you're going to have ten, then you're going to be competing with ten." I reminded him and he just smiled at me and shook his head.

"Well, that is something I'm willing to settle for then." He proceeded to rub my belly as though I was already carrying another baby.

"I'm just not ready." I told him and he quickly hooked my arm inside his and he walked us towards the car.

Again. It struck me, that pain, the headache, it ripped through my head and I found myself unable to stop myself from groaning in pain.

"What's wrong, love?" He asked me, a look of concern plastered on his face and I quickly shook my head, telling him not to worry.

"I have a slight headache, what can I say? Wolf patients are the worst, but you know, I just need to lie down for a little bit. It will subside." I told him as he started the car and I quickly leaned into his strong arm. "Just need to close my eyes for a little bit." I'd never experienced such a pain.

I didn't know exactly what to expect, but I thought it was something I contacted while I was in the forest. I knew going to the river was a bad idea. There's always a bad omen surrounding that area, something that tells me that I should not be there. But what could I do? I had a mother-in-law to impress, and by wolf rights, my wolf mother is not a very easy woman to please already. If I had to not take her instructions, she was already going to make sure that the whole world knows it and she was going to go crying out to her son about how disobedient I am and how undeserving of being a luna I am because I cannot recognise her as an elder. I did not want any of that, so if I had to suffer these headaches I was going to have to for the rest of my life, or at least until she's at peace enough with me to make peace with me being her luna and stops acting like the big wicked witch that she is.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He asked me again and I just quickly nodded my head, that alone taking so much effort for my body. It felt like it was collapsing and falling apart.

"I will be fine, let's just go back. I miss my babies," I told him once again.

I just needed to see them and to hold them. Perhaps being within their energy will heal me. Babies had such an effect, especially on me. I always loved my babies because I always wanted to have them and I couldn't have had them with a much better man. He was a great father and I was so deeply in love with him.

I did not foresee anything wrong happening. In fact, I was so happy that I suffered in that headache with a smile on my face. Yes, I felt the pain pinching in, forcing me to tug my face and pull it in all sorts of twisted directions, but the most prominent expression on my face was a smile. I was smiling because I knew my anniversary was coming up and I just could not believe that it would be five years already. Half a decade. Could you believe that I was once a rogue with no purpose? All I knew was crime and I was sick and tired of that life. I never thought that I'd be rescued from it, but here I was now, a respectable doctor, a Luna and the wife of the most powerful Alpha in the North, in all three realms.

I could not believe it, and that is something I needed to cherish every single second, every single day.

I looked at him as he drove, how masculine he was, how much he made me feel safe, how protected I was within his presence. He held my heart securely. With him, I knew that I would never suffer heartbreak. That is at least what I told myself all the time.

I knew that I wanted this fantasy to be around for as long as possible, and that's exactly why I always indulge myself in his presence. I always made sure to get as much as I can from being around him.

We made jokes the whole way. He loved teasing me. Oh, I remember how scrawny and slightly I was getting here and that somehow he'd kept all those pictures. Our very first interaction had been filmed, In fact. I had no idea until on our third wedding anniversary when he showed it to me. Goodness gracious me! I did not want to look at her.

That girl. Oh she was in a bad place, a very bad one. And not because she had been kept in a prison for two weeks, but because she just looked ragged. I was now a queen of some sort. At least, that's how I regarded myself, and I did not want to see myself in my shaggy, shabby state now that I had found a much more prominent level in life.