The unwanted, And what she didn't know.(COMPLETED)

chapter 10

David

Xavier howled with happiness so it echoed in my head. damn .. I had fought against my own desires but keeping that wolf under control is anything but easy ..

She was standing there in a pair of tight jeans and a tight tank top. It was so hard to try to keep the sight from her.

She is so beautiful .. She really has curves in the right place. I saw that she got goosebumps I took my chance. "Are you freezing? Do you want a sweater? " I thought that if she was a little covered then maybe it would be a little easier to keep my eyes away from her .. Even though I usually get stuck with my eyes on her beautiful face …

"yes thank you .. I'm pretty cold .." she gasped. I ran in to Layla and pulled out a sweater for her. In fact .. one of the bigger ones I got ..

Layla look weird at me "is it to Jessi? then she will drown in that sweater. She has size Small and you are holding an Xtralarge .." I looked at Layla with concern "damn that's the point .." I pulled the door shut behind me and started walking back and forth, I had my fingers to my chin and thought hard"

Before I can say anything, Layla looked at me with a big smile "you like her"..

"like her? rather I CAN'T stay away .. it's like a freaking magnet .. I… I can barely look at her .. It feels like I'm scaring her to death if I Would even allow myself to do what my body screams at me, damn even Xavier feels the sparks... " I punched the wall and then leaned my forehead against it .. damn.. I felt the anxiety .. why couldn't I just be quiet ..

Layla was in shock .. "I have seen how you look at each other but sparks? how is it even possible .. I .. I have only heard that you can feel it with your mate .. She has not got her wolf yet .."

"I know .." I whispered

There was a knock on the door it was Jessi .. I turned against her still with the sweater in hand. I gave to her "here .." I went out and away to my old room ..

Layla

That can't be true, this is completely crazy! I wonder if she also has sparks ..

I can't ask her straight out either we have not even come to the part of being a werewolf .. That you have a soulmate also called mate and all what it means .. I look confused at David who stood with his forehead leaning against the wall, In one hand he had the shirt he came to pick up .. He looked sincerely tormented .. It knocked on the door. David stood up straight and looked at me with panic in his eyes. He swallowed hard and turned to the door, Jessi who came through the door. "here" he gave her the sweater and went out of the room fast..

"Did something just happen? " She looked confused .. but I must have looked confused too ..

"It's nothing serious. He's a little moody sometimes," I tried to explain away.

"Okay," she said shortly. Then she turned around and left the room ..

I need to mind link my mom I've never heard about anything like this....

David

I walked back and forth in my old room and thought .. while I was trying to talk to Xavier .. "you can't act stupid .. what if you scare her..show her respect please .. I want to be able to talk to her again " I mentally prayed on my bare knees ..

"I'm disappointed with you ... what do you really think of me? Of course I will show her respect! and I'm not the horny dog you seem to believe! I'm waiting for my mate and thats in wolf form! I think you're scared of yourself .." Xavier felt hurt by my behavior .. and really he's right I'm probably afraid of myself .. That I would go too far and that she would be afraid of me .. Not that I could ever hurt her.

But I've been so close to walk up to her and kiss her since she hugged me ..When Benjamin was sitting with her I was about to drop completely .. I was full of frustration that he touched her...

And these f*****g sparks .. My body .. I felt how I got goosebumps when I thought of my body against hers, her lips ..

"I told you so! calm down now because it's you who behaves like a horny dog! It's best you get rid of that one before she comes in and sees that you're having an erection. Humans… " Xavier sigh ..

I felt how I blushed .. damn.. I went into the bathroom and washed my face in the sink .. looked into the mirror and thought to myself that he's right..

I went out of the bathroom and met Jessi, she still hadn't put the sweater on .. Fuck...

I looked at her direction, but at the same time I didn't look at her but a little over her head .. I thought it might make it easier ..

She walked up to me.. I still had my eyes on the wall where she was standing but I felt her approaching...I hadn't thought about how short she is .. I am 190 cm and she can't possibly be longer than 165 cm.. I felt her standing in front of me .. I looked down and met her green eyes .. her gaze looked worried ..

"I'm sorry if I" she said and put her hand on my arm .. I felt an electric shock and backed away by reflex fro.. She looked at me wide-eyed "did you feel that too ?!" she asked in surprise.

Before I could answer she put her hand against my arm again, it felt like shocks all over my body. I looked into her eyes, our gaze became so intense that before I could react I had already bent myself down and kissed her .. when our lips met I was filled with electric shocks, fireworks and it struck sparks .. I opened my eyes in panic and pulled back. Jessi was in shock .. she didn't kiss me back .. it went so fast .. max 2 seconds .. I felt my knees weak and panicked .. I turned away and pulled my hand through my hair. I panicked, f**k what did I do ?!

Xavier muttered in my head, "stupid human.."

I turned back to her and said at the same time "I'm so sorry I ..." she had approached me and At the same time I turned around she put her arms around me and hugged me she held me I held her back we stood there for like a minute, I felt how the sparks filled my body. Before she let go and looked up at me.

She pulled me towards her and kissed me.

I kissed her back. We kissed each other more intensely, we moaned and pant, I felt my erection become harder, I felt how she smelled of desire.. I felt how every cell in my body screamed how I wanted her but I knew it was definitely not the right time .. if I was meant to have her it wouldn't be anything fast over whit. I pulled away from her and looked down at her. I could see how the desire burned in her eyes, her skin,she blushed and panted..

I looked down at her and smiled .. she still blushed but smiled back .. "Sorry .. I" she began to apologize .. I interrupted her by putting my finger against her lips.

"you have nothing to apologize for .. you haven't done anything wrong .. I .. I have to tell you about another werewolf thing .." She looked me deep in the eyes and I felt how I was pulled towards her again .. I had to back away from her .. I stood with my back against her "give me a few seconds first"..

Jessica

I didn't understand anything. what happened? .. And in addition to that He kissed me back .. He must also have felt the fireworks, the spark and the electric shocks. I have kissed two other guys in my life but nothing has felt like this .. it was magnetic .. I just couldn't stop .. he interrupted before we could go further ... I'm grateful for that .. He stood with his back against me with his hands on his hips and breathed in and out .. I felt how wet I was .. damn .. "ehm I'm just going to the bathroom" I said as I walked towards the bathroom .. I was standing looking at my mirror image. I washed my face with ice cold water to cool myself ..

When I came out again, David and Layla were standing at the bedside talking. They looked at me and turned to me.

I got out and sat down on the edge of the bed. David sat down on the bed on the other end so that there was space between us.

"so we need to talk about what's going on here" Layla said and pointed at us ..

I looked down at my feet and felt myself blush ..

"There's nothing to be ashamed of. It's a werewolf thing I thought I would have a little longer to explain to you .. This doesn't usually happen before you are 18 years old .. But I talked to Luna Grace and obviously sometimes it happens especially if one partner is a few years older .. David you're 21 so it probably depends on that and that Jessi is so close to her birthday .." Layla took a deep breath and then continued. Me and David sat silent. I was fully concentrated on Layla but felt that David occasionally looked in my direction .. I did my best not to look back. I was afraid to miss something that Layla said ..

"werewolves have something called a mate, it's like a soulmate, It's meant to be found. As a werewolf, you have a special bond with your Mate that no one else have .. I am mated with Jack, my mother and father are Mates. Jack and I haven't completed our mate ceremony yet. I don't know if you have seen that Alpha William and Luna Grace have a mark on their neck .. It's a bite, it's personal and it matches them to each other. When me and Jack finish our ceremony I will wear his bite mark and he will have mine .. As mates we getting benefits like the sparks, electric shocks and fireworks whenever we touch each other, we will even be able to communicate in wolf form…When we have completed the matr ceremony. I know there is a lot to take in but it is fate to be paired with your mate .. You can choose to deny your mate, it is called rejecting. The important thing to keep in mind is that you rarely get a second chance to find a mate. Usually the one who chose to reject goes without a mate for the rest of their life. There can be various reasons why you choose not to accept your mate but most often it's out of selfishness.. It's our moon goddess who pairs us with each other. I understand that this is a lot to take in .. but that explains why you feel like this .. " Layla took David's hand and met it up against mine. I let David take my hand in his and I squeezed back. I immediately felt the sparks strike when our skin touched. I looked him in the eyes and smiled while I felt how it was hot on my cheeks. I blushed again...

I thought about everything Layla said and I wondered to myself what I did to deserve such a beautiful mate, in addition to how beautiful he was, I have understood that he is a generous person with his heart in the right place. I was suddenly scared .. what if he doesn't want me .. I .. I am useless .. Im unwanted...I know nothing about being a werewolf and I will have two children to raise .. I have nothing to offer him.. I withdrew and staring into the air .. I felt my eyes burn.. "sorry" I quickly ran to the bathroom and locked the door I sat on the toilet and cried quietly.