If only the wedding was mine.

Did you ever wait for my return?, Have you ever hoped I'll come back to you again?, Or… Were you waiting for me but I came too late? All this I asked myself as I watched them walk down the aisle. I looked straight to his face and I saw an eye longing for someone but ..was it for me? Was it for someone else? . Then I lost it ,I could no longer hold my tears up within the mask on my face so I made it obvious that I was crying. My hands were shaking, nothing more than a sobbing sound coming from me.A lot of people looked back at me with a stare almost telling me “you are disturbing” so I couldn't wait for questions,I just answered..”their love looks so real so I got emotional”. Many of them smiled at me and I thought;if only they knew the smile had left my eyes , maybe they wouldn't have smiled. If only they know what's going on_ just if only they know. I pulled my head down as I knew not what to do ,and the tears? They kept flowing without a pause. Just then I felt a stare , who is it this time.. wasn't my answer enough to not look back again? I managed to raise my head and I beheld her looking at me,an old woman, probably in her 70th .Her eyes were different from others, she looked at me like I could hear her clearly asking me “are you okay”,I could hear it all through her eyes. So I stared at her,looking at ourselves? I didn't think of it to be uncomfortable .I knew she's different from others just staring at me,her eyes could say it all..”what's wrong my dear?” I made my way out of the venue, not going somewhere exactly but just to breathe from nature. I managed to sit on a pavement as I trembled of what would happen to me.With tears in my eyes I remembered the old woman’s look which almost gave me a hope I never ever thought of.Was she able to see through my soul? Did she know everything that happened?Is she an angel?. Just me thinking about this and I heard a voice right behind me as I sat down there alone with my tears. “What's the matter ?”, She asked just as I saw in her eyes.She didn't sound like a total angel but that voice? , the tone?, was all my heart needed.I didn't know her, she didn't know me but i felt like my mother just came to me.Now it came to me that I needed something. She came, sat by my side and pulled my head to her shoulder with her right hand _i knew this is what I needed, how was she able to know? I got what I needed then what's next? ..I wailed like a child who lost a candy.She didn't say a word to me but I could feel all the words she wanted to say. I closed my eyes because I didn't want to see what I can't unsee .. just tears flowing down. Only if the wedding was for me…