Impossible Love

3. The Meeting

Jay’s POV

One day, as usual, I got to work late. I’m just not a morning person, so most of the time I wake up late. We had a few reports to write, and we were done. Something was playing on TV in the waiting area of the outpatient department. I go to check and there is some court case going on.

I saw an extra seat next to Army, so I took it. We were exchanging comments here and there about the case that was going on. It was a live court hearing. I didn’t realize that her cousin had joined us. She was seated on the other side of Army. I must have been so lost in my head because I didn’t realize when Army had left either.

“Do you think this case is going to go through?” I asked, assuming Army was with me.

I didn’t notice when even Ally and Cody had left. When I didn't get a response, I looked up, and it dawned on me and Mira that we were all alone with other people, I guess patients. When our eyes met, we just stared at each other for a moment. My mind went into a trance. I didn't know how to react to this. I was shocked a bit. Maybe I should apologize to her.

“I - - - I’ ’m-- I’m sorry, I thought it was Army.” I apologized without thinking, stuttering. Why the f**k did I even apologize?

“Don’t mind, it’s okay, I’m good,” she said.

We sat there in awkward silence. I had no idea what to do. Maybe you should take this chance and talk to her dumbass, a voice in my head was screaming. I decided to break the silence.

“Do you think they will win this case?” I don’t even know why I was asking her about the case. Although it felt like she wasn’t going to engage in small talk. I asked her anyway.

“Mm, yeah I think so. Everything points to a win.” She replied and I was relieved.

“I would rather they won, it was unfair in the first place.” I continued with the small talk.

“Yeah, it seems they are going to redo the elections again.” She replied softly.

I was so happy she didn’t ignore me this time. We exchanged a few comments in the course of the case until it was over. It was a dull day so we weren’t that busy. That is why we had all the idle time. By the time the case was over, we had gained some comfort between us.

Honestly, I was thrilled when I finally chatted with her. We had a conversation for the first time, which was a big step for me. I liked her voice, so soft and sweet. She talks so eloquently and so fluently. I liked every bit of it.

From that day, we stopped ignoring each other, we exchanged small conversations occasionally, and we started warming up to each other as the days went by.

Mira now made visits to my office too. We could talk, the three of us, or sometimes even Army and Cody could join us at our office, or we go to their office. Mira joined our lunch gang. Now there were four of us.

Two weeks went by, and we had not exchanged our names yet, although I already knew hers.

One day as I was chilling alone in the office, Mira walked in. I didn’t know what she wanted, but the moment I saw her I stopped what I was doing and smiled at her.

“Hi, stranger?”

“Hello Mira,” I greeted her smiling. She looked at me shocked.

“Are you busy?” she asked.

“No, not for you dear, what’s up?”

“I didn’t catch your name,” she blushed.

“Yes, because I didn’t tell you,” I answered her, laughing. She was being funny. She could have asked my name directly.

“I can see you already have mine. Do you mind telling me yours?” She gave me one of her sweet smiles.

“Jaylin Fredricks at your service but you can call me Jay,” I said with a smile.

“Okay Jay, it’s my pleasure to officially meet you, stranger.” She said that, smiling and winking at me.

“The pleasure is all mine, pretty.” I beamed, grinning at her. I love that smile of hers.

The more time I spent with Mira, the more I learned about her, and the more I was intrigued. Now that I was able to be close to her, I realized Mira looked really young. I wonder how old she is. I am almost sure I won’t like her age.

Age difference has always been a problem for me, especially when my girlfriend is younger than me and also when the age gap is large. Don’t ask me why I’m even talking about a girlfriend, it’s just but a wish.

All this while, I was just checking Mira out. After we started talking, it made it easier for me to get close to her, but it was hard for me to not like her even more. You have a crush on her. I was having inner fights as I didn’t want to accept it. After all, I had sworn I wouldn’t date someone younger than me because I had seen what Ratty had gone through at the hands of those young girls.

This Mira girl was driving me crazy. I was trying so hard not to fall for her, knowing all the trouble of falling in love with a young girl, and making things worse, I was 100 percent sure she was straight. What was I going to do?

The more time I spent with her, the more intrigued I got by her. It was as if she had a charm that was working very well on me. My senses were at a standstill.

As much as I wanted to stay away from Mira, the more I got pulled towards her. She was an absolute beauty and it is so hard to stay away from such beauty. Just accept that you already want her. But after a while of inner fights, I accepted I liked her, and now I have to go after her because all I wanted was to call her mine.

I decided to use our closeness to my advantage to woo her. I was going to go slow with her, knowing she is probably straight and most probably it would be the first time a woman goes after her, it might freak her out and she might make a run for it, which we both know at this point I wouldn’t like.

Making up my mind to stay her friend, for her to trust me. I had already become close with Mira, we were free with each other, and she was opening up to me more. Finally, I got my answer when she talked about her boyfriend. I knew it, Mira is as straight as they come.

I was in a dilemma because I didn’t know how I would get her to accept to be my girlfriend. I had never gone after a straight woman before or these young girls because they are complicated, but here I was. I wanted Mira and was going after her no matter what.

Mira is intelligent and, above all, she is so beautiful. I liked her more than I wanted to accept.

One time I was with her alone in our office and decided to find out more about her. All I knew was she was younger than me, but I really wanted to know exactly how young she was.

“Mira?” I called her name to get her attention because she was so glued to her phone.

“Yes, what’s up Jay?”

“Can I ask you a personal question?” I spoke softly. I didn’t want her to think much about it.

“Yeah, sure,”

“How old are you?” she looked at me curiously, but she still answered.

“I’m 19,” she looked curious. “Why do you ask?” she stared at me.

“Nothing, I was just curious. You are so young.” Although I was shocked, I said that smiling. I knew she was young, but she was so young, I knew I wouldn’t like it.

“How about you Jay, how old are you?” I was taken aback by her question. I wasn’t expecting that. Now I wish I hadn’t started this conversation.

“I’m too old,” I said, laughing, trying to brush it off. If I tell her, she will think I am too old for her.

“Tell me, how old is too old?” she sends me one of her dashing smiles. God, I love the way she smiles, those lips! I couldn’t help staring at her pink lips.

“I’m 28, it makes me elderly,” I said, laughing again. She just chuckled, nodding her head in disagreement, but she didn’t say anything. I just smiled at her.

As we were chatting I realized she kept staring at her phone. She frowned once in a while. I wanted to know what the problem was.

“Hi, are you okay?” I asked her, concerned.

“Yeah, I’m fine.” She didn’t seem fine to me.

“You know you can tell me anything, right?”

“It’s nothing really, I’m okay.” She sounded uneasy.

“Is it your boyfriend?” I didn’t want to ask her directly about him.

“Yeah, he’s on my nerves, but it’s nothing.” I take it she didn't want to talk about it and I let it go. I needed to go slow with her on this if I ever wanted her to trust me enough to open up about him.