Impossible Love

7. The Boyfriend

Jay’s POV

I knew Mira had started trusting me, she had started opening up to me, which I was so happy about. I had promised to be a good friend to her despite having feelings for her, and I was going to be one until she agreed to change to be my girlfriend.

She was going through some rough patch with her boyfriend, so I was going to be there for her. Our friendship had gone to a different level, we trusted each other, and we even exchanged phones and played games on either phone.

One day, I had her phone and her boyfriend kept calling her. I asked Mira if she would receive the call, but she refused. I let it go. But that guy kept calling one call after another. Annoyed, I knew something was wrong, but I didn’t know why she didn’t tell me.

“Mira, is everything okay with you two?” I decided to ask.

“Yeah, everything is okay.” I could tell she wasn’t telling me the truth.

“So what is with your guy then,” Did they fight or what? Why doesn’t she want to tell me?

“Give me that phone,” she told me. I could tell she was annoyed. I gave her the phone without a word. She opened the message folder on her phone, handing it back to me. She gave me a conversation to read. It was a conversation between her and a guy named Wren, her boyfriend.

“Hey hun,” Wren

“Yes beb,” Mira

“I have been calling you all day. Where were you?” Wren

“I thought I told you I would be busy today, Wren?” Mira

“Yes, but you could have at least texted me.” Wren

“I was really busy beb, I am sorry.” Mira

“I hate it when you do this,” Wren said. What a jerk. I scoffed at his acting like a child.

“Do what exactly, Wren?” I guess she got annoyed. I could have been annoyed too.

“You keep ignoring me. It’s as if I don’t exist anymore.” Now he’s annoying me too.

“Don’t start again, Wren, not today. I am very tired. I had a very busy day please.”

“Oh really, were you busy or were you with other men?” I was shocked at his thinking. Now I understand why she was ignoring his ass. I could have been mad as f**k.

“You know what Wren, goodnight.” Mira ended the conversation. The jerk kept writing a dozen other messages and calls, none stop.

I was so pissed. I didn’t understand how one could be this stupid and inconsiderate.

He was literally looking for a fight. He kept calling and sending her stupid messages every time she didn’t pick up his calls. I was infiltrated with the anger I would have put him in his place if not for Mira’s sake. At some point, I felt she loved him.

Now he was calling expecting to be given an audience just because he sent a message that he wanted to apologize. Deep down I wished she hadn't forgiven his ass. I hated him, I loved Mira. I didn’t want to see her hurt even a little.

When I looked at her, she had tears in her eyes, it was like she was afraid of something, or sad. I just hugged her without warning, with no care in the world if people were around us.

I whispered to her, it was going to be okay. I would make her forget that as****le forever. I wish I was in his shoes. I wouldn’t waste my time arguing with her, I would be cherishing her. I will treat you like a queen you are, just hung in there.

We were silent for a bit after I let her go from my embrace.

Mira’s POV

I had started trusting Jay. Deep in my heart, I felt I could trust her. We were growing closer with each passing day, and she was loosening her guard around me, which made me happy.

Honestly, I wanted us to be good friends, a character like her rarely comes your way. It was okay for her to have my phone. She had seen me play Candy Crush and she liked it.

We knew little about each other, but we were okay with the slow pace, although I am an open book, and I was letting her more into my life because my gut told me I could trust her.

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The next day at work was going to be a busy day for our department. We had auditors and I told my boyfriend, Wren, in advance that I wouldn’t be available. I knew if I didn’t let him know it would be a problem. We have been having problems lately. He was insecure about every little thing.

He accused me of cheating on him. Sometimes he makes a fuss because I don’t go to his place. Having that conversation to avoid all the arguments, I thought it was settled. I got to work early that day. We were glued in the office the whole day. I didn’t even have the chance to look at my phone. We had lunch at the office while still working.

By the time the auditors left, I was so beat that I went straight home without checking on my cousin and my friends. I felt sad, but I was very tired. When I got home, I got in the shower and felt much better. I lay in my bed to relax a bit before I headed down to have dinner with my family.

After lying down, it was when I remembered my phone, I fished it out of my handbag, and I saw the notifications. I had so many missed calls and text messages. I immediately knew who it was. I really hope he is not going to start a fight today. I am too tired for this.

Opening the notifications, I was right, all the calls were from nobody other than my boyfriend. I just ignored it, keeping some peace of mind before I faced his tantrums. Lying on my back, my mind found its way back to the hospital. I was thinking about my friends. I missed them today. I didn’t see them.

Jay, I missed how she makes me laugh, she makes everything seem so easy. I find myself thinking about her. Every time Wren annoys me and am at work, I find myself going to their office, she can cheer me up in a heart bit. I wonder how she does that. Thinking about her reminds me of Wren. I will have to find him even if I don’t want to.

Just before I got my phone, it buzzed. It was a text from him.

“Hey hun,” Wren

“Yes, beb,”

“I have been calling you all day. Where were you?”

“I thought I told you I would be busy today, Wren?” I rolled my eyes, this guy is going to kill me. For sure, I already told him I would be busy.

“Yes, but you could have at least texted.”

“I was really busy beb, I am sorry.”

“I hate it when you do this.”

“Do what exactly, Wren?” I was getting annoyed. This is becoming a trend, arguments all the time. Can’t I ever be happy? This guy is bent on making my life hard.

“You keep ignoring me, it’s as if I don’t exist anymore.” Did he just say that? I didn’t want to argue, so I let it slide.

“Don’t start again today, Wren. I am very tired. I had a very busy day please.”

“Oh really, were you busy or were you with other men?” There it is, the thing I was avoiding the most.

This is where he was heading. Why is he so insecure? I have never done anything but be the best girlfriend to him! Why does he keep thinking of me like that? Does he really think this low of me? There were so many questions without answers.

Not know what I will ever do right in his eyes. I felt defeated, his words lowered my self-esteem every time he said these kind of things to me.

“You know what Wren, goodnight.” I couldn’t take his insults anymore.

He was going to keep calling and texting, so I left my phone in my room in silent mode and I went downstairs to help my younger sis and mum make dinner.

My mood was so low I was having it rough with him. I was at crossroads not knowing what to do. I was getting tired of all this. He kept apologizing after saying hurtful things to me and promising to change, hoping he would change soon. Will he even change or its false hopes? Sometimes I feel like Wren doesn’t love me at all.

I joined Mum and I tried to be happy with them. At least with them, I felt safe and loved for real. Still, I couldn’t help but wonder if this is how relationships are supposed to be.

I'm young with no experience of relationships or love, but I know deep down love doesn’t feel like the way I am feeling right now with my boyfriend. Love doesn’t feel the way it makes me feel. This was way off.

I had a quick dinner and headed to bed. I needed to rest after a long day at work. Getting into my room, I checked my phone to see if anyone else had looked for me.

There was Army’s text and a couple more from Wren and missed calls too. I ignored him and checked what my cousin needed. She was only checking on me and saying goodnight. I replied to her text as I laid myself down to sleep.

My mind drifted its way to Jay. I wish we had exchanged numbers. Maybe I could have called, and she would give me one of her funny stories and feel better. She is charming and funny. I finally dozed off after tossing in bed for a while.

The following day at work, while I was chilling with Jay, we exchanged our phones to play games with each other. My phone kept ringing, and I knew it was Wren. After everything he said to me last night, I wasn’t in the mood to talk with him. I kept ignoring him and Jay kept checking if I wanted to take the call, but I didn’t say anything.

When she saw I was ignoring I guess she knew something was off. She stopped playing, and she turned and looked at me.

“Mira, is everything okay with you two?”

“Yeah, everything is okay.” I wasn’t telling her the truth. Yes, I trusted her but I was embarrassed.

“So what is with your guy then,” I knew she wouldn’t let it go. Maybe I should share with her because it is killing me inside.

“Give me that phone,” I told her. I have never opened up to anyone about my relationship. I didn’t want to be judged. I felt I should open up to her, so I took the step of trusting her completely.

I opened the conversation between me and Wren and handed it back to her. She started reading the conversations and, oddly, I was fine with it. I hoped she wouldn’t judge me, I wouldn’t take it from her too, I was already connected to her in a way I didn’t understand.

Watching her as she read through my messages, I could see her clenching her jaws, her eyes were flashing with anger. Although she could change that in a moment, she knows how to hide her emotions. Is she angry at me for taking all his crap, is she disappointed in me? I couldn’t help but think about the worst. I could feel tears starting to form in my eyes.

I didn’t know she had finished reading, and she was staring at me. Suddenly, she hugged me so tightly. I didn’t return her hug at first because she surprised me, but feeling her warm embrace made me weak, and I shed a few tears which I quickly wiped away.

I stayed in her embrace, not worrying about our surroundings. Her act warmed my heart. Well, I surprised myself because I am conscious of PDA, but here I was in her embrace. I heard her whisper into my ear, “It will be okay.” Her voice was so soft and sweet. After a while, she let me go.

I didn’t know why, but I felt like Jay was angry and the looks she was giving me. Was she concerned about me? I was lost thinking about her actions today. I felt much better when I saw her trying to smile. I was relieved that she didn’t judge me. Her opinion matters to me in a way. This is crazy Mira, you just met her.