Mr. Blue and Me

Rise and Shine

"I'm pregnant..." I blurt looking him straight to his eyes...

"What??"He asks

"What part didn't u understand,exactly?"I ask ironically

"No...i understood it...but...how? we use protection..." He explains

"yeah...sometimes they just don't work John..." I say

"And now what?" he asks

"What do u mean? after we make sure everything is ok with Anthony and he's out of the woods,I'll schedule an abortion..." I answer completely normal

"What????" John and the girls ask at the same time

"I'm not gonna keep it...I have a future...I'm not gonna ruin it..." I explain

"Alexa please...let's think this through...it's our baby...u can't just kill it..." He says

"I'm not gonna raise a child...and sure as hell I'm not gonna give birth...I don't even know why I'm discussing that..." I reply

"Alexa...it's a baby...u can't think like it's something without life...it's growing inside u as we speak..." Stella says

"I don't care...it's my body and I'm gonna do whatever the hell I want..."I hiss

"Yeah but it's my baby too...I have a say to that..." John says with a raised voice

"John...we're not ready to be parents...we're barely dating...we might break up before this baby is even born,for all we know..." I say

"Wow...I didn't know u had that possibility on your mind..." He says a little hurt

"Oh come on John...she's right...u don't know what's going to happen...life is tough..." Kate explains

"Relationships end at some point and it hurts like a motherfucker...especially when a child is in the middle...can u imagine how hard it might be?? His/her parents got married just because they were expecting a child and broke up a few months or years after it was born...really smooth..." I continue

"Can u at least think about it first??Please..." he begs

"Ugh...fine" I say just to get rid of him...

"I'll go call my mom again..." I say and I go outside...

After 3 hours we're still sitting at the waiting area. ..John left an hour ago,but the girls stayed and my mom hasn't contacted yet...

"u can go if u want to...I'll be fine..."I say to them

"Are u kidding...of course we're not leaving u here alone..." Emma replies

"It's pretty late..." I mention

"We don't care...u're not going to go through this alone..."Kate insists

"Thank u...really...I'm so messed up right now..." I admit

"We understand...we can't possibly know what u're going through right now...please tho...answer me one question...I know it's not the perfect time...but who is the father?" Stella asks

"True...I'm dying to know..."Kate agrees

"John..." I answer

"How do u know that?" Emma asks

"I got pregnant 2 weeks ago...that week I didn't have s*x with Anthony..." I admit

"How come?" Kate asks

"well..the time we were spending that week was limited and we didn't want to waste it having sex...so we were just cuddling watching TV..." I explain

"Since when is having s*x "wasted time" for u?" Kate asks confused

"Since I met Anthony...I'm not a s*x addict Kate...and don't get me wrong,I love having s*x with Anthony,but just sitting with him is nice...He's smart and I like talking to him..." I explain again smiling

"Ok...this is serious..."Kate comments

"U love him,don't ya?" Stella asks

"Yeah...I think I do..." I admit smiling brightly

"Miss Cara?" I hear a voice and I turn..I see the doctor and I get up

"Yes?"

"Well,Mr. Blue is out of the OR...everything went great...we were able to stop the bleeding and fix his ribs..." The doctor says proudly and I let a breath I was holding

"Thank u so much...he means so much to me.. .I mean...to my mom..." I say

"I can tell...He's in a room now resting..." he tells me

"Can I see him???" I ask eagerly

"U're not family..." He starts

"Please...just for a moment...I'm sitting here all this time waiting for good news...I really need to see him and my mom isn't picking up..."I say with a broken voice and he gives in

"Ok...just a little...he needs rest..." He warns me

"Yeah yeah!!!" I agree and he takes me to his room.. .when I get in and I see him laying there on his back,with his hands on either side of his body,a tube in his mouth and in his arm,a gauze around his head and a plaster around his ribs I can't help but leave my tears to fall,putting my hand on my mouth

"He's sleeping but he might hear u...we don't know when he's gonna wake up..." The doctor informs me

"He will,though huh?" I ask

"We don't know how his brain will react...the head trauma was severe...but we're hopeful..."He admits

"Oh my god..."I say and I go closer to his bed as my whole body shakes...I sit on a chair beside his bed and with my quivering hand I take his gently...the doctor leaves and we're left alone

"Baby...I'm so sorry...I know I shouldn't have told u about that while u were driving...It was stupid...I am stupid for giving in...Please wake up...Don't leave me..."I say and then I kiss his hand...

After some minutes I go outside to tell the girls to leave and after they leave I go again in his room...I stay there staring at him without leaving his hand...I finally fall asleep with my head on the bed...

The next morning I wake up only to find him still asleep...I get up,kiss him gently on his nose and go out to get coffee...I go to the cafeteria,grab a coffee and when I return I see my mom coming in from the entrance...I go close to her pissed

"Alexa?What are u doing here?" She asks confused

"What am I doing here???? I'm doing your goddamn job...u should be here...!!!" I yell at her

"I came as soon as I could. .."She says trying to defend herself

"Yeah???Didn't u see my 30 phone calls???"I continue to yell

"I had fallen asleep...I took some sleeping pills,because I don't sleep well lately and I was ignoring the phone until I fell asleep..." She explains...I'm about to explode

"U're so careless.....U hear the phone ringing like crazy and u just ignore it???Thank god I was talking to him when the accident happened..." I say as my eyes fill with tears again

"Now that u remind me...why were u talking to him and why did he crush??"She asks

"Are u serious??????? He is my professor...and since he is YOUR partner I called him to tell him to arrange a private lesson,because I have trouble with the subject...he must have lost control or something..." I answer and my tears start falling

"Well is he ok?" she asks

"We don't know yet...they fixed the bleeding and his ribs,but they don't know when he's gonna wake up..." I answer

"Oh my...I can't believe u're the reason he's here now..." She says...I look at her with a look that would kill her if it was possible

"I can't believe u just said that...like I wasn't feeling guilty already" I reply shouting

"Good,because it's your fault!!!" She replies looking at me angrily

"God! U show up 10 hours later and u have the nerve to start pointing fingers???? U don't deserve him!!!! I thought he was trash...but now I know better..." I say with hatred and she immediately slaps me making everyone around us to gasp

"Well. ..u just proved my theory..." I say when i realize what she did and I leave...I go to his room and after a few seconds she comes in

"Oh, u found it???" I ask sarcastically

"Get out..." She demands calmly

"no...u get out...I've been here all night!" I say

"Get out now! I'll call security..." She threatens me and I get up

"U're so ungrateful...u should be thanking me for staying by his side..." I tell her and I get out

~2 days later~

Day 3...I can't believe he hasn't waken up yet...the doctors say that everything looks good and that they don't know why he isn't up yet...they run tests all day,but everything is clear...There's still tension between me and John,but I couldn't care less...He's trying to change my mind about the abortion but he fails miserably... me and my mom don't talk but we change shifts these 2 days...I haven't slept much tho...When I fall asleep I have nightmares. ..my stomach is killing me and I have nausea almost all day...It's so frustrating...now it's morning and I'm sitting outside smoking when my mom calls me...

"Speak" I say when I pick it up

"He woke up..." she says but she doesn't sound that happy

"What? When?" I throw my cigarette away and I run to his room

"a few minutes ago...he's asking for u..." She says

"Really?" I ask playing dumb

"Yeah so if u could..."She says but I walk in the room

"Hurry up..." She continues her sentence when she sees me and she hangs up...I see Anthony looking at me with tired eyes...Oh god...I thought I'd never see these ocean blue eyes again...

"Rise and shine..." I say as I go closer

"Hey Alexa..." He says trying to hide his smile

"How u're feeling?"I ask as I sit on the edge of the bed

"My head hurts a little and the plaster bothers me,but ok..."He answers

"I'm glad u're ok..." I reply and I smile

"The doctor told me what happened...thank u for calling the police..." He says

"Don't mention it!I heard the crash...it would be mean and stupid not to inform anyone..." I reply

"Yeah...they also told me u spent 3 days here..." He mentions

"Yeah...I was feeling way too guilty not to stay here..." I admit

"Don't blame yourself...I shouldn't have picked up the phone..."He says to defend me

"One time...one time she called him and he had a crush...this is not a coincidence..." my mom says and I instantly look down ready to cry...Anthony grabs my hand weakly

"Anna, please...Accidents happen all the time...it's not her fault and u know that... u just want someone to blame...and that someone is me...it was careless of me to pick up the phone while I was driving..." He defends me once again and I smile

"Thank u..." I say and he smiles weakly

"Can I have some water?"He asks

"I'll go get u..."my mom says and leaves...the doctor leaves too and we are alone

"I missed u so much..." I admit as I start crying

"shh I'm here now!! Are u ok??" he asks me concerned

"Yeah I'm fine...I'm so sorry!!! I shouldn't have told u about my pregnancy...it wasn't the right time!!!" I continue sobbing...

"Hey...don't be sorry,I pushed u...!!! please calm down!!! Tell me...how far are u?" He asks

"2 weeks...and 3 days..." I say as I take deep breaths to calm down

"ok we have time...we'll figure it all out..." He says and strokes my hand

"I'm having an abortion, Anthony...I won't keep it..." I admit

"No...u don't have to do this..." He says

"Yes, I do...I don't want to have a family with John..." I say

"It's his,huh?" He asks

"Yeah...the week I got pregnant we didn't have s*x so It's him...If it was yours I would keep it..." I reply

"U can't be serious...u're gonna have an abortion just because it's Johns? Come on Alexa...u're better than that..."

"I don't want to marry him and also I don't want kids at this point..."

"Pfff fine...what does John say?"

"He tries to change my mind..."

"U're definitely done now,if he wants it and u don't..."

"Possibly..." I say and my mom walks in...

"Well Alexa u can leave now...I got this..." She says as she helps him drink some water

"No,let her stay..." Anthony says after he drinks a little

"No...it's ok...I'll leave...I need rest now that u're ok...I'll come back tomorrow..." I say and I leave the room...