Day 70: The fight
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As I promised,I stayed with him over the night...I talked to john before going to sleep to tell him that I was too tired and I'd sleep before he finished his work...he went with it easily...
~11 days later~
All this time here on Texas I was searching for a job...of course my dad provided me the cash to live here and all,but I wanted to be more independent...Anthony was searching too for the past few days...I finally found a job at a bar that was looking for a female singer...they interviewed me this morning and I took it...I was going to work 4 times a week...2 work days and the weekend...I hadn't tell john about me searching for a job,let alone finding one...but after the interview, I immediately called Anthony
"Good morning sunshine" he says as he picks it up
"Good morning ocean" I call him like that because of his ocean blue eyes
"Am I interrupting?" I ask
"Not really I'm on a break now" he answers
"Tell me about the job!" He demands looking forward to my answer
"Well...I took it!!" I say super excited
"Of course u did princess!" He replies happily
"Are u sure u don't want me to look for something better?? I know people and I could pull some strings!" He offers
"No it's ok! I love singing so I'm good..." I say to calm him
"Ok whatever u say boss" he replies
"U know your boyfriend came to my office earlier" he says and I turn white
"What did he want???" I ask nervous
" nothing he had some doubts about inflation..." He answers
"Oh come on! I died for a second!" I scold him and he laughs
"I wouldn't be so calm if it was something else..." he replies
"True...Anyway, gotta go...he thinks I'm in a doctor's appointment and I'm late to class..."
"Ok ok be careful...and don't let him touch u much..." He says jealously
"Seriously now??? U sleep with my mother..." I mention
"Ok u win!" He says and I smile...I try to hang up but I hear him say my name
"Alexa?"
"Yes?" He pauses for a couple of seconds
"Nothing it's not important..."
"Ok...if u say so..."
"Ok bye" he says and we hang up...I go to my lecture a little late and it's a miracle I found a seat close to my friends...of course, they know everything...from the job to me and Anthony...they start asking me about the job and after I tell them we start paying attention to the lecture
When we finish John comes close to us
"Hey babe everything ok??" He asks
"Yeah! Just a routine check-up..." I reply smiling to calm him
"I'm glad!" he says and kisses my head
"So...will u come sit with us?" He asks
"If the girls want to..." I turn to look at them
"Look,I don't wanna be rude,but I don't like your friends...so it's a no from me..."Kate says bluntly
"I have to agree with Kate!Your friends look at us a little weird..." Stella continues
"I don't mind..." Emma says
"Ok,but I wanna see u..." John says
"Me too,but I wanna be with my friends if u don't mind...if u want come with us.. .we always come to your crew" I say
"Fine...Stay with your friends...I'll come by your house later..." He says pissed and leaves
"Wow...pissed much?" Kate asks
"Yeah..." I reply as I watch him leaving and I sigh
"What's up with him today???he's moody..." Emma mentions
"I don't know...maybe he knows that's something's wrong between us..." I reply sadly
"Nah...I doubt it..." Stella says
"Can I ask you something without getting offended?" Kate asks
"Speak..." I tell her
"Why are u with him,since u don't feel anything about him??"she asks hesitantly
"It's not that I don't feel anything...I like him...I'm just not in love with him..." I admit...
"And again...why are u with him?" She asks again
"Because he's a good guy and I really need one in my life..." I say
"Anthony is a good guy too...I mean I think he is..." Stella mentions
"A good guy who will stay with me..." I continue
"what do you mean?" Emma asks
"I mean that me and Anthony won't last long...let's not forget the situation..."
"You can change that..." Emma continues
"I can't change our age gap tho..." I mention
"Oh come on! Now u have a problem??"Kate asks confused
"I don't,but he is 40 and I'm 18...when he'll be 60 I'll be 38..." I reply
"You're not the first one nor the last one who does that...he doesn't even look 40..." Emma says...
"Anyway...let's say u stay with John...what's the point if u don't love him??? U'll be miserable..." Stella says and I think about it...
"Yeah but I don't wanna hurt him..." I add
"U'll hurt him more if one day he realizes u don't feel anything for him..."
"I don't know...I have to think about it" I say, I take my purse and I get out...
I go to the balcony and I light a cigarette...I lean on a wall smoking and thinking...after I finish my cigarette I go back to the auditorium...the lecture has started so I go in my seat quietly
~In the afternoon ~
After our last lecture me and John leave heading to my house...on our way we don't speak at all...after some minutes we arrive and we get in...I pet my cats and give them food
"Want something to drink or eat?" I offer him heading to the kitchen
"No...I want us to talk" he says and my heart starts racing
"Fine...I'll drink a beer tho..." I say and I grab a beer from the fridge...I open it and I go to the living room
"What do u wanna talk about?" I ask him and I take a sip from my beer
"What was it that with my friends earlier?" He asks
"Nothing... We just didn't wanna come...we wanted to stay and talk..." I answer sitting on the couches arm
"u could come with us for a while...it wouldn't kill you..." He replies
"Yeah but I don't feel comfortable around them...they look at me weird..." I say and i take another sip
"No they don't..."
"Yes they do...ok yeah I'm not rich and from L.A or New York...I'm from Seattle and I'm proud of that..."
"anyway...can u at least try to spend some time with us too??" He asks...
"Ok I will..." I reply...
"Are u done now? I wanna tell u something..." I continue
"Yeah tell me!!" He replies and I take a strong sip
"I found a job" I say
"U what???" He asks confused
"I found a job..." I repeat
"Why??" He asks
"Because I wanna be a little independent and let my dad "breath" a little...he pays for everything and I don't want that..." I explain
"Don't be rediculous...u don't have to work..."
"I wanna work! I'll do it sooner or later anyway..." I say and I drink from my beer
"And what job is it?"
"They wanted a female singer in Joey's bar...and they interviewed me this morning and I took it..."
"Wait...so u weren't at the doctor?" He asks a little pissed
"No...I told u that to surprise you..."I answer
"Alexa...get it together...u said u were going to the doctor and I was anxious about that and now u tell me that u lied and that u found a job in a bar...are u serious??" he raises his voice
"First,keep it down...second,I found a job,I didn't kill anyone,so calm the f**k down..." I get up from the couche,raising my voice too in the end
"I don't want u to work..." He says with raised voice again
"Too bad,because i will...and what is that??? U are the son of a restaurant owner,but my dad is in Germany working his ass off for me to live here...I'm going to work,like it or not..." I yell
"and when are we gonna spend time together? I want u to be home after the lectures..." He yells too
"Your arguments are bullshit! I won't work every night and u can always come see me...also u can spend time with me at uni or when I dont work...so suck it up,because I'll start working and that's final...If u don't like it,the Door is right behind u...I won't except misogynistic arguments..." I yell back...after I finish my sentence he just opens the door and leaves,slamming the door hard...I open the door again
"Don't u ever slam my door like that again...u don't pay for it!!!" I yell at him while he leaves and then I close the door...all the presure starts bottling up and tears threaten to fall...I pick up my phone and I call Anthony
"Please come stay with me tonight..." I say with a broken voice when he picks it up...
"Are u ok??" He asks concerned
"No...please come here...i need u..." I reply
"Say no more..." He says and hangs up...I look at my beer and then I slam I on the wall...
"What the f**k is wrong with my life???" i ask myself and then I start crying
After a few moments Anthony arrives and knocks on the door
"It's open..." I say...he turns the door nob and gets in, only to find me sitting on the floor surrounded by broken glasses
"Babe??? What happened???" He asks as he runs towards me...he takes me on his arms and carries me to the couch...he sits and places me on his legs
"my life is a mess..." I say
"Why baby??" He asks concerned as he strokes my hair...
"I'm in a relationship with 2 different guys,the one of them is in a relationship with my mom and the other one is a misogynistic pig..." I answer
"What did he do???" he asks and wipes my almost dry tears...I explain to him what happened
"I see...his points are trash...don't mind him..." He says
"he should support me...he's my boyfriend..." I reply and I start crying again
"Look at me...I'm your boyfriend...I support u! I want u to feel free to do what u want...u hear me???" he says and takes my face in his hands...I look at him and then I hug him
"Thank you..." I say
"Don't...it's what I should do...and i do it...i want u to be happy with your choices...and if u're not,it's ok,we all do mistakes..." He replies
"My mom is so lucky to have u" I say
"Ok I think you're drunk...how many beers did u had in like,15 minutes??? " he asks as he carries me to my bed
"Not many...5?? 6 tops..." I answer
"Jeez...u should sleep..." He says as he puts me gently on my bed and then he pulls the covers on me
"Stay!" I beg
"I will,but first I have to clean the mess up" he replies
"Nooooo!!!!" I shout
"Ok Ok!" he says and gets under the covers too...I put my head on his chest,my arm around his waist and my leg on top of his...I smile and I sleep immediately as he strokes gently my hair with one hand and the other one is resting on my shoulder,since he has his arm wrapped around me
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