The lost wind

Realm of Wolf's: Kingdom of Willow, Ohhhh a slow gasp from the bottom of my lip oxygen slowly drifting from my mouth to my chest feeling the breeze pick up throw the window, a shallow chuckle comes from the the corner by the door. I can feel his breath as he chose what will, I hear him pulling his clothing , small gasp lead him to respond "don't worry there will be time later." Walking over to me with small movement he pets the blind fold that lays over my eyes, his words clear and firm with a sound the makes my eyes smile."Your chore list is on the table bring my coffee to me after you wake the kids, and no bitting" , as his fingers traces the different lines on my lips. The ropes are a little warm in place I final fells at rest just my luck it's time for him to untie me. My robe falls loosely on my skin and always leaves me feeling tinglingly when I stand up. He's already stepped out side to make a phone call when I get up to dress. Putting the ropes back in the bottom shelf of the dresser after making our bed I work on getting dressed the top shelf has a lock on it he likes to keep his underwear I wear 'safe' today it's locked. I grab my rainbow toe socks, old Black Vale Brides top that smells like old beer and laundry detergent the warm lavender cotton kind with black jeggings that have pockets. Heading off to the bathroom to freshen for the morning. I take a deep breath before heading to awaken our three children. Adeline is 9, Amber is 7, and Zander just turned 14 his temper been a little out of hand the last year. I say that because if he acts out at school anymore they forces the issue of a different school. Which to him would be like ice cream for breakfast seeing as he find a way to run in 8 hours. Waking them up comes easy it only takes a bucket of ice water and coming home to a wet bed once or four times for them to get the message of time for school is time for school. It's 6:30a.m. with our morning running smoothly I make my family chicken and waffles for breakfast. Pack the kids there lunch with a few small snacks for the day. Homework, backpack, brushed teeth a smooth morning. I send the kids out the door to Gaston.Gaston is our beta, this morning he is also the soccer dad meaning the 14 kids of Paku Ezekiel family from the four main house are his responsibility to drive and get to school. Our pack only has one school all 178 children attend to. Our tribe has 8 packs 6 of them have schools so at time some of the other children from our tribe join our school and at other's time some of our pack children join there schools. May it be for behavioral issues educational choices or any of the dozen orl so reasons you could choose. Two of the fourteen he'll be driving will be going Ariel pack for school and one of there members will drive them home. I grab for the coffee can and slowly start to make him a cup. He's sitting at his desk looking over paper work for the three day trip he'll be taking. A slight tap on the bum and I'm off to do the house keeping. With the first five items on the list complete I walked into the kitchen and catch a glimpse of the stove out of the corner of my eye the stove has a clock it's flashes rest, owww not now it's been three weeks why now... I start to reach for my phone to call out to him but it's to late. The mat by his desk has a odd smell of my droll, my tongue slowly moving I try to open my eyes but it's to much it's still hard to move. Once my eyes are open "Water".. calm and firm he tells me, with out thinking I slowly try to crawl to the water bowl buts it's to far my body already rolling, thrashing on the ground. He waits tell I settled then places me back on my mat by his desk, his feet softly rubbing my back.He must of stepped out for the bathroom when the phone rang. I don't know what it was but with the phone rang I knew it was the kids school, Adeline tends to get sick in the early spring ever year. My body already answered the phone and half way to the door when he places his hand over my head "Water, bed 3 you don't want to see me get to 7 today it's been long, I'll grab the kids pick up dinner, and grab your medicine while I'm in town. Would you like your lock?" I turn around my face less the an inch to the fabric used to cover his chest, I nod softly. Reaching in his pocket he pulls out a small lock kiss my forehead heading out the door. I go into our room place my bowl beside the cage under the bed, I pull the curtains over the trying to keep out the light I close and lock the bedroom door ,crawl into my cage putting the lock on. His old sweeter is all that's in the cage with me the lines of the cool metal sooth my mind as I bury my face in his sweeter. It's smells more like me at this point then him it's still calming before I knew it I'm passed back out. Half coma toast drooling and half awake trying to force my body to stay asleep. It's a little pass two and they won't be home tell 7. With no one home I let out a few screams not of pain not of joy just numb hollow screams. Sound just to make sure I still can. Before I knew it my mind is off my body is back to out of my ability to hold shaking. "102.7 WXBM Music in the fast lane fast lane" the radio from when I was little Marty and Linda are are talking about a wreak on 198 and recapping the morning weather, I can feel the rain drop from the window aborse into my skin my mom Driving with my brother in the front seat before I knew it he moved into my sit and I'm sitting behind him wait no I'm in the front we were done we were fighting for it wait in my sit behind the driver and the it's not raining at all. A large grasp with a small plea “-water... the throw up is next to cage makes me feel worst at less it's by my feet. I lap up as much water as I can before passing out. No dreams no random memories nothing just a lot of droll, I wake up once more and try to drink more but find its to hard to swallow try not to cry and just fall back to sleep... I hear the sound of his truck coming home. Zander came through the house first, followed by Amber over excited that they got pizza and chatting about her day. Paku came in with Adeline, the next two hours is for homework and chores there use to this pattern. I here our door unlock a small sigh come out when he looks down seeing puke, I turn around crawling to the front he walks over and sreechs my head. "It's okay your alright" he rubs my head for a minute before wiping up my yake. - " Are you ready for something to eat yet? " I softly nod my head crawl over to paw at the water bowl, he fills it with a water bottle, He watches me take a couple sip before walking to the kitchen grabbing some meat and veggies. It hurts to cough on the water my eyes feel crusty I start to paw at my sweeter while lapping at the water. -"Good girl, Don't fight" he puts the spoon in the cage I crawl to the back I paw at his shoe my voice to weak to wimmper he looks at me and growls a little... He filled my prescription while in town. I hide a little cage knowing he won't reach that far under the bed, one more growl and I'll be in deep trouble. He doesn't play when it comes time for doctor stuff, I crawl to the front and look up with my bottom lip sticking out and he squats down and feeds me the spoonful then softly points to the water. "Rest" he leaves the light on it's dim he had to put a dimmer on the light a long time ago. I take small bites of my food and try to paw my sweeter to keep myself entertain not wanting to go back to sleep but within 10 minutes already dozing off. Coming in at 11:20 ish he tells me our kids went to bed without a fight. Atkins just got back from a camping trip ,Adeline Immediately went to see her four cousin to his house next door he’ll watch her tomorrow. He softly belts my name I wimmper he quickly unlocks the cage and wipes the sweat from my face. My body not liking being back on my meds. Goes into a twiching fit. It's takes a few days for my body to readjust after being off for two months, I thought I could handle being off seizure medication. "I didn't mean to..." wimmpering softly about all I could mutter at the time. " No it's fine, you couldn't control something like this" I crawl out the cage and over next to his side before lapping up more water he left infront of me. He just sits there for a while before asking if I'm okay. I shake and yawn feeling restless wanting to play tried of being tired and sick. I try to stand up and he just looks at me with a sidewise smirk "No" I sit back down and he glears you're in trouble for fighting me on your medicine. I try to hide behind him, he already stopped me - "Excuse me? Do I look like I'm being cute right now?" I shake my head and sit back and look up at him. He walks over and grabs a pen and paper he places the pen in my mouth -"25 times I will not fight taking my medicine when I know it's good for me." He sits there and watches as I use my mouth to write the sentence. I try to write as neatly as possible a small amount of droll messes with a couple of them, He takes the sheet and places it in the file he keeps. -" Good girl all done, are you still feeling awake? " I nod before starting to bite at his hand. He plays hand for a minute before he walks over and grabs the leash off the wall. "You know what this is" dangling it in front of me I bite it and try to tug but softly to sore to. "Door" I walk over to the front door he opens it taking my hand while we walk. It's about a 5 minute walk to the woods around the property. He lets me walk in slights as he talks about the business of the day and things coming up in the week. We get to a spot that he normally puts my leash on my butt already shaking incontrollably. I don't even notice tell it so uncontrollable I'm barking and he trying to calm me down to put my leash on. "Oh who's a happy girl who's a happy girl who going for walkies who going for walkies?" Off on all fours I take off running before we hit a tree. I don't know what it is about this tree but I always have to pee on it, I turn back wiggle and look at him. " No leave it" he pulls on the leash and I pull back growling. "No" I pull on the leash "alright" I start to pull my jeans down enough not to get any pee on them and he stands beside me a pees as well I don't even notice the odd sounding growel coming between us arleady staring to walk the rock. We sit over at our rock for about a hour talking one of the members in our group runs by unnoticed just keeping an eye on the grounds. We start to slowly walk back I wimmper and look up at him. "It's a busy week and you didn't finish all your chores. But no I don't want to go back either." I paw at his pants leg as he takes my leash off. I take a shower when we get back to the house and clean up for bed. I tuck him in and crake the window a little for fresh air before curling up at his feet. He wake up with me sweating and my body twitching he comes over and pets me for a minute or two. He's the only one who can make me feel safe when this happens, my mind starts to go to a dark place telling myself I 'm awake I've know this room better then most places in this world. Just stop body f*****g stop fighting me, but even I know it just has to run it course. He goes and grabs my medicine and brings me water. When I'm able to I sit up and take my medicine to weak to refuse. He gives me a few pets and tells me I'm a good girl, I nozzle into his hair and lick his cheek to tell him thank you. He smiles softly and kisses my forehead. I start getting ready for the day I got a few of the chores done from yesterday. Before I make Amber and Zander there lunch and pack there snacks. Turning on a fresh pot of coffee, eggs toast and bacon are today's breakfast. Zander drooling over the smell of bacon. I can't have pork it cause a massive tension in my head that can send me into or make a seizure worst. Amber comes running through the house happy that they had pizza last night and today they get bacon. Adeline stays asleep next door not going to school today. We sit down for breakfast, I seem to be staring so hard at the bacon that he tell me I can have two pieces even though we both now I really shouldn't. I softly nimble on a piece while the kids clean there dishes and ours. Amber freaks out "Oh my I almost forgot my book for class." Runs into Zander and grabs his book on mythology, "Is it still okay for me to show my class? " Zander is oddly in a good mood makes a faint laugh "Ask before you go in my room you know it's not always 'clean', yes but you know that's my second oldest book if it gets damaged you don't want to be you." Paku places his hand on Zanders shoulder " I went over to the fruit bowl what's missing kid?" Zander pulls a rock out of his pocket, it's there own odd way of challenging each other to rock paper scissors. "Fight me for them old man. " He shakes his head 2-1 Zander the winner. " Take it easy on the turn before town or your weekend won't be for entertainment." Paku tells him as the three head out the door. I finished half of the chores before starting on a chefs cob salad and a cream of asparagus soup with artichoke on the side. Adeline's and Paku favorite soup, Atkins and Selena will eat almost anything they hate to cook. Lunch goes well, we leave Adeline with them and head back home. I sigh when we step inside the door, He reach's around me and ask what wrong. I smile and say nothing, he bites my ear -"talk". -"Not ready to have to go it feels like my time here gets shorter and shorter and my memories fade more along with our chances of ever finding peace. You will remember all the rules all the everything, I won't get to remember I won't get to be here to see our baby's grow any further and I don't want to complain but can't stand that our family has such a high price that tears us apart. Three weeks is all we have left tell I leave who knows how long this time it not like they hand me a guide. Make sure our baby’s grow strong. I already made the video for them to watch, it hurts only getting to know us for what feels like one deep pure breath of clean oxygen, I really don't want to complain about all this to you we both understood our jobs we both have things that must get done." He been avoiding talking about this like the plague it take more out of him then he'll admit to. I can already tell his whole body has already shifted, 39 years goes by in a blink of a eye. "- You still have a couple of weeks, you know I won't stop tell we brake it.You should understand by now your mine." He dose his best to reassure me we go sit out side and smoke for a the rest of the day he calls Gaston and ask him pick up Amber and Zander on his way back from town. He agrees and let's them stay with him for the night. Smoking takes some of the weight off, about the next month well have, with his business trip on Sunday and a three day pack conference. Our anniversary and my last full moon It going be a little crazy. I lean back against his knee taking a toke and reminisce of how we meet. Ezekiels father got a phone call while they were patrolling the border. A child and a man seen in a cave at the edge of the pack's territory. I was a few weeks from five, when they got to the cave Puka rescued me. His body shifted faster then any other , he saw my father pushing me to the ground my father was covered in blood. Paku reaction was clean concise pushed him to the ground and sat on his chest tell he submitted. Christen his father came over and dealt with my father me on the ground, Ezekiel take my hand in his hand took me to town. His breathing made me realx and calm down. The girls club house in town is were he took me first, he called for the packs healers to look me over and make sure I was alright. A few of the lady packed a couple of bags for me with clothing hygiene and a few other things they thought I might need or like. One lady was really excited she just finished working on a dress that was the perfect size for me. I hide behind Paku at first not sure what to do he looked at my face cupping the side with his thumb petting the bags and dark lines under my eyes. -"Try" he whispers to me, I walk over to the lady and she walks me over to a place to change. He orders a burrito and the lady's make me some bone broth soup and a sandwich in the time I'm getting dressed. I noticed the lady I was with wouldn't look me in my eyes I thought it made me feel worst. One of the ladies try to ask him if he like them to take me in. His look is still a story that gets told in the club house, She apologized ask if she could do anything else for him before leaving him alone. - "Come eat, you look nice in your dress." The ladies let us sit and eat, I noticed a flannel soft pastels rainbow baby doll sitting by the window. The lady grab it and brought it over to me, -"Here honey keep it, and walk to our pack Kya." I didn't know what Kya was at the time, later I would find out it what some packs would call Luna. Paku smiled understanding all to well, they say his smile melted all the ladies hearts when she said that. With him 6 years from taking over the pack it wasn't uncommon for him to already be seen as Paku, his dad encouraged it. I keep giving him a puzzled look at him burrito while he ate. When we wear done eating he grabbed the couple of bags and told one of the ladies to take him home. We rode in slights he watched me watching everything. One of his uncles come out and meet us outside. He tells the the lady thank you for ride and informs her about a few things. Paku take that as a opening to take me inside. He places the bags on the sofa and takes me around his home showing a few different things and talking softly I let out a big yawn he picks me up and carryed me to his bed tucked me in and pet my hair for a moment before stepping out. He grabs the bag and goes through them checking to see if there was anything that I might need. He wonders to take a shower in the family bathroom. When he comes out he greeted by his uncle. He tells him his father called and my father is being taken to his mother to be handle. Something woke me up and I ran out the bedroom door to find him. At that very moment his uncle was asking -"plan on keeping her, do ya?" I found him and sat down at his feet, unaware this conversation is happening. He pets my head, I look up a little my eyes somehow half closed. His Uncle damn near dies laugh Paku couldn't even respond to the question before it seemed to answer itself. His uncle felt like testing this. He starts to walk around the room unnoticed, then turns in a flash to punch Paku, I look up at that moment and punch him with all my might strength I didn't even know I was capable of punched him square in his nuts, he went down and I tried to hide behind Paku. His response was priceless -" Wanna try that again?" -" f**k why my nuts always with these damn females and nut shots" spitting as he got up, -" f**k remind me not to piss her off" Paku pets my head and tells me -" Good girl" like 5 or 6 times. A big yawn and smoking being blown in my face makes me look up at him almost forgetting that I'll be leaving him in three weeks, -"Would you like a glass of tea?" I ask him he smiles and nodded. I head off to the kitchen to take my medicine grab him a cup of tea with a shot of whiskey. I grab myself a glass of yummy spicy v8. The smell of bud felling halls of our home lightly, I head back out give him his glass and curl up in a chair next to him. -" I took my medicine, and started to reheat some of the pizza." He looks at me and points down to his feet. The next look on his face is one of my favorites, he already can tell imma say sitting in my chair. He looks back at me and looks down at his feet. I poke his arm, he trys to bite at my finger but wasn't quick enough, he points back to his feet and I smile mocking a little-"What? " pawing at the arm of the chair. He gives a long finger point playfully. ********Dear reader this book will be written in simple English, with basic Grammer. For those who speak the native dialect from the tale I speak of do not be offended I do not remember the language and my manners are a but broken. I will not make many side comments like this but will explain in later chapters why this side comment is most needed.***** --------+{End of chapter one}+---------