until you ruin me

Gemma "Mom, I told you, I don't want to go to the ball, when are u going to let me do things my way?huh?". I let out a sigh. My mom wants me to get married but I am not ready. Oh and f**k having a boyfriend. I don't look like the kind to get overhauls for a guy..Honestly, I went past that stage. Oh and trust me I wouldn't want a guy to just f**k me and leave me just like that. And when I tell this to my mom she says I'm getting old am like what old? What do u mean? And that's how I am in this situation right now.... "Honey, see, all I want is to make you happy, I want u my dear" She pauses and I tilt my head up to raise a family with a good man. And Cassian, he is the rightful man for u baby girl. He is from a line of old money, and can never be worried about being poor" Mom says with a worried expression. I understand her concerns but getting me married is not a good excuse for her to give saying she is fixing my life...and as many times I've thought about it it freaks the hell ot of me ..children are fine...but "the deed" that scares me...what if he has a big thing..and giving birth too...am too delicate to handle that pain I swear I might pass out for days Ooh and u might wonder about my dad That man doesn't say anything. At first meeting u might think, oh maybe he is mute, but he is not mute, he talks very well and I have a good relationship with him as much as my siblings. And he is picky when it comes to speaking..Mom or me n my sibling, if not then business otherwise give up..he is no hope and about my marriage..he won't alter a word..he hates the De Veros..in fact they donthv a really good reputation with each other....to b3 more specific the older DE Vero is the one who he doesn't like and that is why my mom is getting me with the younger one The Gentleman Sweetheart Man And whatsoever she calls him My mom and his mom are friends End of story which reminds me... "Mom, what is Dad so happy about(happy is a big word to use on him thou)he bought me an emerald necklace this week?" Her face lights up..it always like that when it's about him" oh he closed a deal with the Harper company "she pauses" oh I know what you trying to do, u can't outsmart me baby girl am you mom, your going to the ball..." "bu-" she cuts inside said what I sad" U know what I might as well play along I have a plan I smirk" Well dear mommy I was gonna say I need a dress duh I can't go wearing an old gown" "Gemma, I know what you're doing, don't f**k this up, baby" The week passes like a tornado and mom..she has been busy looking for a perfect dress for the occasion which she is praying is going to stun DEAR CASSIAN DE VERO the second heir to the famous De Vero empire and she things to say I need to be able help to make you feel the emerald jewelry will give a crazy clean and rich...and now Well I'm stuck with 2 make-up artists trying to get me ready for the disaster I'm about to cause My dad knows I don't have good intentions but he is taking me regardless Poor Reginald Carvelli Allesandro This is freaking boring, I have a lot of other important work to do and my stupid brother had to make me come here for what, this, fancy show off. I'll kill that i***t and why the hell did he wait for me to come back.... "Mr De Vero" I hear someone call from behind and as I turn my eye catch something gritty..her stunning navy blue dress, her mesmerizing beauty I can't even start explaining...truly I've never seen anyone like her" Sir" a mole voice from behind calls me again..AGAIN..but I'm too disturbed..I can hardly make out the words. I've never seen any woman like this.. "Mr grumpy" Cassian's voice cuts in my thoughts"Yes" I turn to look at him . Apart from my mom who makes me happy, he is the other side of my happiness. Otherwise, the ruthless Ness in me will always be the way in my I can never escape my dark reality and nor can ig ever escape me and I can't say I hate it..it makes me feel happy..Content." yes dearest brother " I smirk "you seem to like what your looking at"he pauses then says"Quieres hacerlo tuyo?" he smiles "you might as well get me out of that situation" I stare at him in question" I happen to know her quite well, she is the daughter of MR Carvelli, the owner of H.C jewelry collection company, quite a nice match for you dear brother" he pauses to leave a glass in a waiters platter " Her mother is quite good friends with Mami .. I'll leave the other information for later" As much as I want to claim her..I hate that idea..I hate these thoughts invading my mind....and I must make sure they don't get to my already bruised heart As much as I fear for myself ..i might put her in danger..she might be my weakness and I don't f*****g want that but I might as well claim her I'll for sure make her mine..But I don't trust myself..I might do something wrong... She is my forbidden desire. My dearest belle "Oh s**t!" Now my dress is ruined "sorry" the woman who pumped on me says with pleading eyes" It's okay" I correct my voice to sound polite enough " I'll go clean this up, excuse me"I make my way to the washroom As I start walking I noticed there is a man who was looking at me he kind of looks like cassian, but i might say defineyly not his masculinity I don't know how to describe him it's his infamously dangerous brother that who everyone acts like he doesn't exist when he isn't around apart from when you decided to show himself and have women flying all over around him and he doesn't seem a bit interested how amazing.l enter the ladies' room and there's no one at all i hate being in places with strangers. They make me feel insecure. Sprinkle my dress with some water and then I hear heavy footsteps in the hallway, there's nothing but I have a dark feeling about it though I brush it away. Two magnificently dressed women Enter and remake their makeup then exit the room after exchanging a few polite words. the door opens but I don't look as I'm busy on my phone I don't know listen Anyone until" That can ruin your eyes" not bothered by the intruder I am about to answer when it hits me, the voice is not a woman, it's deep masculine, it belongs to a man. The first thing I notice when I look up are those gray sinful eyes, trapping me right there and holding my gaze softly but brutally at the same time." Surprised?" he says again. This time with a dark humor. My heart starts thundering and I start getting embarrassed, what if he can hear it?. I have never been so embarrassed in my life, let alone in a closed space with a male stranger and not this kind of good-looking man. He fans me with his breath, spicy chocolate-like, dangerously hypnotizing my weak mind. "I'm sorry I surprised you, belle"