For Him

Ezra I remember that day as vividly as if it were yesterday: Seth and I were at the park two blocks away from our houses- us being neighbours. We were waiting for our friends so we all could play tag, kids right. He looked nice that day, I was starting to question why I didn't like girls the way Seth or any of the other boys did. I didn't know the term then, but Seth looked really 'cute' to me. We waited for a little while and our friends Paige and Sage came running up to us. They're are twin boys, but their mother had really wanted little girls and when they were born, she used the names that she had chosen for her girls anyway. I don't know how things escalated but I was dared to dress as a girl for Halloween the next day, my birthday. I told my mom about the dare and she went crazy. By the next night she had it all planned out. She decided on a short dress that matched my height at the time. It was black and fit my girlish curves perfectly. She did my hair and makeup and helped strap up the gold high heels that she had bought for me. We waited patiently that night for Seth to come pick me up, my mom buzzing with excitement. Then the bell rang, and I got to open it, my mom right on my heels. Seth's reaction was a loud intake of breath and staring contest with my image. When he had snapped out of his daze, he smiled a wide toothy grin and chuckled a little. "You're cute." My mom squealed in the background and started cooing about her 'princess'. I didn't pay attention however, because Seth's words kept bouncing around my head. It was a night of many revelations. I realized that I liked the feel of soft cloth against my skin and that I wanted my best friend pushing me down and taking me to the heights of euphoria. That was almost three years ago, and Seth is happily oblivious to my feelings, asshole. I grew my platinum blonde hair out until my waist, but my height is stuck at 5'6. My mom and I bonded a lot and we started doing 'girl' things after I came out as gay and told her about how I wanted to dress. Anyway, today is the beginning of our Junior year of Trinity High School. Normally, a new beginning brings new opportunities, tragedies and love.