The Babymaker

Chapter Nine

I already planned not to go out of the room, I haven’t eaten breakfast yet since I already woke up late around 10am. I feel bad because I didn’t help Nanay Lydia on the chores and also I feel ashamed to go down because I haven’t apologize to Sir Renz when I just walked out and left him last night. Hayy.

Damn that stupid feeling, I felt something different.

I already thought about not leaving the room the whole day but when the clock strikes noon, Nanay Lydia knocked on my room. I wanted to pretend asleep but the door is not locked and Nanay Lydia peeked thru it. She saw me seating in the bed facing the laptop that Jonas left. I even don’t know what I will do to this one. I feel uncomfortable opening the laptop even I can just ignore that folder.

I smiled awkwardly at Nanay Lydia when I met her gaze.

“I thought you’re still asleep, you already skipped breakfast. Let’s go down, Renz is waiting for you in the dining.” I froze, he’s waiting for me?

I can still remember he’s mad at me last night, why would he wait for me? Why would he want to eat lunch with me? He might get mad at me again.

I just nodded at Nanay Lydia, I thought I can avoid him today.

But why am I even avoiding him? This is irritating. I scratched my head, how will I make my work done if just looking at him I already felt nervous? Especially when I’m looking in his eyes, I’m afraid of him.

I stood up from the bed. I’ll just think about my problem later on, and also this laptop of Jonas adds up with my problem. Geez! I just turn off and close this laptop without thinking because of my surprise. Maybe I broke this. But I was thinking that I need it, to learn, it’s something to do with my work here yet I don’t have any idea regarding that.

Oh my!

I’m keep jumping in front the bed to loosen up and to shake off the dirty idea in my mind. Jonas told me not to hustle up on this, that things will just come. What he mean by that?

I slowly walked out of the room and in slow pace I walked down to the dining. What for I’m slowing down if we will meet each other anyways, even it took me time walking? Haist!

I peeked in the dining area first, he’s already there seated in the middle while Nanay Lydia serving the foods. I took a deep breath.

What’s my problem? Nothing happened last night and nothing to think about that much.

Relax Apple.

Nanay Lydia saw me and made a gesture for me to sit down. He also notice what Nanay did and looked back to see me. He’s face is very serious once again.

I gulped.

I carefully went inside the dining. “Good mor—I mean—Good afternoon S-sir Renz.”

He glared at me. Oh! He’s the first man glared at me that still looks so good that doesn’t make him look so gay doing it. “I thought you don’t have plans to wake up. What time did you sleep?” he looked at me.

I’m just standing near me. I gasped in surprise with his question. Is he trying to insult me or he’s concern?

“Why you’re not sitting yet?” Because I feel uncomfortable or awkward? Nanay Lydia looked at me widen her eyes that’s why I quickly took a seat on his left side. He might get angry again.

“Nay, aren’t you joining us?” I whispered to Nay Lydia but she just shook her head. I pouted, too bad, is this how rich people eat even you eat alone you won’t ask someone to eat with you? Well, he’s not actually eating alone. I’m going to eat with him.

It’s embarrassing, I’m not also visitor here just like them I work for Monteverde but I’m eating with him or with them.

I’m just eat silently to avoid his wrath, we just see each other every time of the meal then if he’s not mad, there’s not talk going to happen between us.

That’s how our routine works, we will just see each other in the dining. He will just locked himself in his own room and so am I, but sometimes I helped Nanay Lydia with the chores, just what I said I’m not a visitor here, but there’s nothing to do much because the whole place is clean and organize. Nanay Lydia made sure of that everyday.

I walked out of my room with a close eyes and my face is turning red. I can’t do this. I can’t do that.

Yes! I tried to use Jonas’s laptop. I decided to open it again and tried to watch the unnecessary video in his laptop. I’m still just watching for a few minutes but I can’t continue it anymore. I stopped and walked out of my room.

Oh my!

I was fanning myself when Renz walked out from his own room. Oh my geez! I felt my body getting hotter when I saw him. He’s only wearing a fitted white sleeveless tee which made enhance his muscular body and show off his biceps. Even his chest is broad. Oh no! I can’t think properly.

I quickly look away when I notice he’s looking at me.

This is terrible. I’ve been looking at him and he caught me again.

I heard his footstep coming near at me so I step backward to avoid him.

“You’re red. What happened to you?” he asked me when he stopped near me.

“A-ah.. I-I…A-ah S-sir.” I don’t know what to say. What should I say? Should I say I’m watching that unnecessary video? That’s stupid. He might laughed or mocked at me when I said that because it’s normal to them. “A-ah…” I looked around. “It just h-hot, Sir.” I reasoned out but it’s really hot. I felt hot. I even fanned myself harder using my hand.

He lifts his right eyebrow, he doubts but he just decided to nod. “Do you want to watch a movie?”

I felt my jaw dropped. Wait. I’ll just get my jack back.

“W-what?” I might hear it wrong.

He inhaled deeply and looked at me again. “I said, if you want to watch a movie? I’m planning to watch in the entertainment room, you might want to join me.”

Am I not really hearing it wrong? He’s talking to me and he’s asking me to join him watching movie? Is he really Renz?

“Sir, are you really asking me?” I can’t help but to ask because I can’t really believe it.

His forehead automatically creased. He’s mad again. “If you don’t like then fine!” he angrily turned around and walked away.

What! I’m just ensuring if he’s really asking me, he easily gets mad. He’s different with Jonas. Jonas loves teasing around.

“N-no sir. I’ll join you.” I followed him downstairs. It’s better to watch movie with him than watching the videos in the laptop.

It creep me out.

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We went inside the entertainment room. I’m just standing near the sofa while he’s fixing the tv and dvd player. I’m watching every move he makes. When he turned on the tv, when he clicked the buttons on the dvd player, every moved I’m watching. The way he stood up… I turned red.  His butt looks so good.

Seriously Apple, you’re actually thinking about that?

I felt my face turned redder when he looked back at me. Geez! He caught me looking at his butt. I quickly looked away and I noticed how his eyebrows creased. Well, when does he didn’t?

“Why you’re still standing there?” I quickly sit down in the huge sofa but I think this is a sofabed, the one you may apart to become a bed.

Then he squatted in front of the dvd player that made his butt emphasize once again. Oh my! Why I keep looking and thinking about his butt?

He looked at me again.

Please stop looking back at me at this kind of situation!

I looked away again… I looked around the room as if I’m observing around. I looked at the wall clock, it’s already 10pm. Nanay Lydia might asleep already because she wake up early every morning.

“What do you like to watch?”

Is he asking me? Does my opinion matters now?

“W-whatever you like.” I answered. I don’t have any idea with the current movies. It been years when the last time I enter a movie house or mall. I only headed to wet markets. My workmates were asking me to go in cinema or mall but I always refuse because I need to save.

He just nodded and decided what to watch.

I felt uncomfortable when he sits beside me. Why am I feeling nervous?  

I inhale a bit. Focus Apple. Eyes on the television.

I’m surprised when the movie played, A Walk to Remember. Seriously? I know this movie because I already read the book by Nicholas Sparks but I haven’t watched the movie yet. He’s watching this kind of movies?

I looked at him, his forehead wrinkled even he’s looking at the tv screen.

He looked at me. “What?”

I shook my head. I heard him took a deep breath.

“My wife loves this movie, she even cried and I don’t get it.” That’s all he said and pay back his attention to the movie and so I.

Wow. He really did explained even I’m not asking him.

We finished watching the movie without talking to each other, my focus is all in the movie so I don’t know if Renz even watched it. I’m crying while the movie credits are flashing in the screen. Renz stood up and stretch a bit before he took the remote and stopped the movie.

“Why are you crying?” he asked, he even looks mad.

I creased my forehead. He’s annoying, can’t me appreciate a good movie? It’s heartwarming yet a very sad story. I actually hope that Landon and Jamie end up together. I wish Jamie didn’t die in the movie. I felt like crying more. It’s so tragic. Why life can be so dramatic? I cried even I already read this, it’s still different if you can see the emotions of the actors.

I felt Renz sat beside me again. I’m surprise when I felt his warm arms on my shoulder and locked me in a hug. Is this real? I just find myself stopped from crying when I felt his warm arms and body around me. I even felt him caressing my head.

“Sshh… Stop crying already. It just a movie.” He even said while continuously caressing my head. His voice is sweet and gentle this time, even much tender than the first time he spoke with me near the shore. My tears totally stopped already. I even forget the tragic movie I watched and all I am thinking is him.

I rose up my head to look at him. I’m staring at his deep dark eyes that also staring back at me. I felt his hand brushing of the tears in my cheeks. Why am I feeling different?

“Sshh.” He whispered again. I swallowed. I’m currently feeling something I never felt even before. Why I suddenly feel hot all over while I feel his breathe on my nose? Why his face is so near on mine?

I’m watching how his eyes moved, his deep black eyes staring at me down to my nose then stop in my lips. I swallowed and so he.

Suddenly, I felt his warm lips on mine. I’m shock. I don’t know what to do, what should I do if someone is kissing me?

I’ve been out of my mind when the kiss goes deeper. I found myself kissing him back even I don’t know how to kiss. I’m just following his moves. His hand is moving into my jaws while his kissed goes deeper and deeper. Even my hands move on its own going to his back nape crawling up to his hair.

I felt his tongue playing my lower lip, I don’t know what does it means but I just opened my mouth more and I felt his tongue playing inside my mouth.

We’re both almost out of breath when we stopped kissing. We stayed in our position while he put his forehead on mine while just staring at each other then down to my lips. His thumb brushed my lower lip.

“Let’s go upstairs.” He’s breathing fast. I don’t know but I just nodded. What does he mean anyway? I just felt him kiss me again and carried me. I’m surprised he’s carrying me while continuously kissing me. His kisses makes me lose my senses.

I don’t know… I don’t know what I’m doing.

Shit!

We reached the room I’m saying.

I noticed he’s looking at the bed, his forehead creased. That’s why I looked at what he’s staring. Oh s**t! I forgot to turn off the laptop, I left the video on pause and left it in bed.

Why didn’t you turn low batt?!

“I—“ That’s so much humiliating. I was about to explain when he stopped me. He stopped me by kissing me again.

“You naughty girl” then he playfully chuckled while still kissing me and exploring his hand on my body. I don’t know what I am doing but I’m just following hi. I follow what he’s actually doing and what my body telling me to do.

I can’t remember how he manages to undress me. Is it on our way up here?

My jaw dropped when I saw him naked in front of me. If his face were perfect so is his body, same goes to his pride. His physical appearance is definitely perfect. I felt conscious about my body. How my body does looks like? Thanks God its dark in here aside from the laptop that has been ignored and the lampshade that I didn’t notice that is open. I’m so engross with the kiss that I have ignore the surroundings.

 What am I thinking? I never felt this even before. The craving feelings that I never felt even before.

I almost screamed and cried in pain when I felt him enter me. A lot of people said that its hurts but later on it will subside but nobody told me that it hurts so much.

“Oh fvck!” I heard him murmured while slowly entering me. He tried to slow down to ease the pain when he saw me crying. He even kissed me again, I don’t know but my attention totally divert to his kisses than made me forget how painful it is. When the pain totally subsides, I felt him go faster inside me until I felt different. I suddenly feel pleasure inside me. I don’t know, I can’t think straight anymore until I feel sudden peak.

I just end filling the room with my groans and moans.

All I know I did something wrong yet feel so right.