That was when I finally made the deal with him, my league or ally.
"What if I find you lied to me?"
" What is it about?"
"Your Virginity. it doesn't make sense to hear that the marriage's woman has no s****l intercourse."
I found it hard, yet that was almost impossible, as a married couple for two years had never done it indeed.
"I think you can guess it if you're knowledgeable."
"Though if he was me, I could do it as well. For those men in the world, s****l intercourse is an easy activity to do even if I am not with you."
I smirked in pain since he belittled me continuously. Yet, I could stand to piss that off.
"May I not be that ugly!"
"I think so!"
"So what?" He took a seat on the sofa, and I tended to finish wiping my tears down to the end. "Do you want to pull back that promise from us?"
"Since when did I tell you the deal?"
"Don't joke around!" The Voice of me began louder than before. He could not stop making me out of emotion.
"I tell you the truth. Why don't you try killing him by yourself?"
"If I can do this behave, I won't take these foot of mine here you are,"
"You are a coward!"
I became silent at his words. Indeed, what he was talking about was no doubt in fact. "Well, it's gonna be better if you get along with me!"
"When?!"
"Now,"
"Where?!"
"To end, the promise is going on fast."
He got up from sitting, looking at me, who was still standing with a sharp gaze I would never like to see in life.
I turned my gaze next to the other man where I was. He seemed to tell me anything his head had said was exactly true.
I somehow expected that what I was doing would not make me regret it in the end.
"We are going over there."
"Sorry, I couldn't think of your words."
"Of course, we will go to see both yours and mine getting along."
The pain was already gone for a while, pulling back out of my heart unless my mind controlled the hatred which had been blowing up.
I might be getting ahead of myself, otherwise I perhaps thought back to the intention of mine to kill the man who had betrayed me as long as marriage.
*****
In order to assure Mr. Cesar Wang about the intention of mine to, I agree with following him to go ahead of where my husband was.
The car I used stopped by the building of a gallery and I found him, the person I had loved for the whole of my life, entering its door and so did Mr Wang's fiance.
My gaze turned to her blushing face, similar to me back then while I was getting along with him. Perhaps she got goosebumps as well. If it was me at his side, I would be happier than she felt.
I took my foot stepping ahead of the gallery and I figured out Mr Wang stood next to me. Both of us looked at the same point, it was the two of them walking in their hands holding each other.
I got my emotions out of control.
"I expect you to bring us a gun in your hand."
"So you are in doubt?"
"I don't mean to doubt you. I merely want to make sure this heart of mine,"
"This ally of yours will never betray anyone, just like your husband has already done."
I turned my eyes to the man next to me while his words had me feeling touched about not ever getting any concerns from anyone in my world recently.
*****
I settled my foot in a certain place. I was by myself, and had no one else either or anything else. That was an empty room with even a lamp that couldn't seem to shine on me.
Kraak!
I felt my ears hear the voice of the door opening up. I tried to figure out obviously what I had heard before by turning my body around.
"Zoe!" The voice I continuously longed for sounded through my ears. How could I like the man who would certainly never bring his heart into me?
I raised my hand up to him who had his gorgeous name in my heart, Miller distantly.
"Are you willing to end it?" I nodded my head once I looked at his beautiful eyes. I liked them even more than either of his whole physical body.
"Alright, I see… It turned out you couldn't stand by what I'd done to you,"
"Don't set your foot close to me!"
"No, I do not."
"If you insist on it, I will shoot you to death!"
"Just do… now! I would like to be pleased with a lot of sins I did to you, Zoe!"
"I told you not to close!"
"Zoe!"
"Miller!"
"It is the first time you called my name. After so long you kept getting away from me,"
"I hate you… I hate you more than you think."
"I got it and you have the right to kill me to death!"
Miller reached for my wrist with a gun Mr Wang had brought. He took it through his forehead expecting me to shoot him to death.
"What… What on earth am I supposed to do for you to get into me?" The shout of mine echoed in the room over there. I took my hand away from his face and threw the gun hurriedly as well.
"It turns out what I have guessed was the truth. You are more coward than I thought before."
Kraak!
I was startled when the gun I had just thrown was taken by Mr Wang.
"Mr Wang!" That was what I called him.
"Cesar!" That was different from what Miller called him. Perhaps, either Mr Wang or Miller had known each other before.
"I remember it for the reason you came to my house back then, you expect me to do what you can't do, don't you?" Mr Wang was really out of line. He took the gun with him and took his hand over to Miller.
"No, Sir. I will keep the promise out, but now I expect nothing from you."
"No, it is not about your expectations, Ms Zoe. Merely, I have an excuse to dump him to hell since he had done the f**k to my fiance."
I was in shock when I realized Mr Wang pulled the gun and I hurriedly hugged Miller.
"No, please… stop it!"
Door!
However, the man remained to shoot us though nothing happened due to the gun, which no longer had bullets.
"See! Even your Miller lets you keep protecting him, besides getting you to stay away from him. I guess he was the person who most expected you to die."
Indeed, I got to know more about the fact that Miller wished me to disappear from his life for good. However, I was in bold who would never be able to let him go on my side.
"Cesar, you got it right and Zoe, I really expect you to go to death as it truth,"
"Miller!"
"I can't help myself." I saw the tears of Miller rolling down his face. He tended to cover it by using his hands. After a while, he began to open those hands and took them over both my shoulders. "Zoe, I can't stand by. If I even try my best to only get along with you, these feelings of mine are unease. I don't hate you after all, it's just myself to have such a kind of cringe to see your face. I don't know what I will do, since everything is through you bothering me a lot. I either wanna die or disappear from you, but my mother, father and even Hanna, my younger sister, somehow hope to keep you safe. Otherwise, I'm gonna be labeled as a criminal. It burdens me, you get me in depression a lot. You would never like to feel this terrible situation of mine after all, Zoe. You never know that. In fact, I used to commit suicide. I wish either you or I would die. So just go… I wish you to leave my life."
I merely closed those lips of mine, seeing how much he got pained because of my appearance. It couldn't be helped to let him settle his foot hurriedly to stay away from where I was at the end.
"I apologize,"
"No need to because of the fact I am the one who hurt you a lot, so, let me take out these sins of mine towards you to hell, Zoe."
"What? What are you talking about?" He surprised me by opening the window and sitting on the edge of it.
"Looks like he's gonna be crazy!" I guessed Mr Wang set footing to go. His voice sounded away from me.
Kraak!
I bet another door had opened.
"No!" The scream of a woman was heard a lot. "Miller, No..!"
"What's going on?"
The woman dashed hastily through me, who was still standing up.
"Miller!"
"Miller!"
I would never have thought even a bit before of the person I loved for the whole of my life, that in fact he was really going to die rather than stay with me.
"Miller!"
At the end, he really pushed his body out of the room and turned it down so fast without even blinking at my eyes. Back then, Miller was really not alive anymore in my world.