I am Broken

Chapter 20- Willow POV

              Jeremy?” were my eye deceiving me? “I am I here, in person” he moved towards me, but I stepped back, I wasn’t sure if I wanted him to be close to me, his eyes were the clear blue they once were and he no longer looked dishevelled and ill, but I suppose being stuck in a cell for over a year, it would do that to you. I turned and looked at Valick for his approval, his face grew a smile and I started to relax “he’s your home warming gift, I thought you could do with a friendly face, someone who is loyal to you and will help you unlock all your powers” 

               I still wasn’t convinced this was the right idea, the guy fooled me for years and then nearly forced me to marry him, how could I trust someone like that “I can’t trust you, I don’t want you here” I said bluntly “now now Willow, I did a lot to get him out of that hell hole they kept him in that’s no way to treat your new servant” my heart pained at the thought of having to spend any time with this man “I really don’t want him here” Varick’s eyes flashed with rage as he struck me down with the back of his hand, I clenched my cheek now red and swollen from the assault “why…why…why would you do that?” 

                He kneeled down next to me, his face still in raged but what his said was the opposite, “oh Willow, I am sorry please forgive me, but I will not have childish acting in my home and especially from my wife” his hand covered mine whist holding my cheek, “I’m not your wife…yet” more rage flashed in his eyes and I knew I had pushed a button, he held my chin and pulled me closer “yet, but you are my mate” he whispered, reminding me I was his, my body felt suddenly disgusted but It was only for a second when the door opened distracting us all.

            “Master, Willow needs her tonic” that’s the third time today, how strong do they want me to be, “yes she does, Larga I need to speak to you outside, Willow be good and drink your tonic and reminisce with Jeremy now” I nodded not wanting to receive any more of his violent outbursts. He quickly left with Larga, but I could still hear them speaking behind the door, I quickly placed my ear and listened in, “it’s not strong enough Larga, make it stronger she needs to be more obed….” 

             The conversation was cut off when I was pulled away from the door “what are you doing Willow its rude to listen to other people conversation” his reprimand made me laugh it was like a teacher telling off a student “you have to be joking me, he let you have your powers back?” I asked, his head lowered not knowing how to respond to me “he’s a fool then, go on tell me the real reason you’re here, did Alex send you?” he face contorted in confusion.

            “Why would he send me, Valick offered freedom from that cell, my powers back and to be close to you how could I refuse?” his explanation did hold value, if I was stuck down there, I would want out too but it still didn’t mean I would trust him “what made you leave Alex anyway, I thought you were besotted with him?” his question confused me and my head started to hurt as I thought back to that time, it was so cloudy and the harder I tried to clear it the more it hurt.

              I felt dizzy and unstable, my legs dropped from underneath me, I hit the floor and felt instantly sick, I heard people run to me but it was all blurry and I didn’t know who was in front of me, “drink this now, you will feel better” I didn’t want to feel like this anymore so I did what I was told, I knew instantly it was my tonic and the nausea started to feel better. “Willow are you okay?” I nodded lying back into the arms of someone, it started to feel comfortable here again in his arms, when was the last time I felt like this as I thought for a moment a flash of Alex and Jake appeared across my mind, I missed them?

               What was wrong with me, they did me wrong they took me away from the one I am meant for right? I looked up as my vison cleared and saw Valick’s worried eyes looking back at me, I was tired so tired. “I would like to go to bed this day has been too much for me” without another word I was lifted and placed on to my bed “everyone out!” he commanded, and no one dared argue, though I could see Jeremy thinking things over, he looked suspicious, and I was started to feel that too.   

           “Do you want me to stay” his words shocked me a little after his forcefulness earlier he was now asking for my permission, I wasn’t sure but I nodded my head as I slipped into bed taking off my cloths under the cover, “can you pass me some pj’s, I not ready for you to see me naked yet” he sighed, my guess he was hoping I would invite him to take me but I wasn’t sure that was the right thing to do yet, I don’t know why my head and my body were fighting, he was my mate right? I should want to be all over him, but I felt deep down I would regret it.

            After I had been passed a silky night dress, that really didn’t do much to cover me, I pulled the cover back and invited him in. He slipped down to his boxers and I wasn’t disappointed, though his body wasn’t covered in massive muscles, his shape and v down to his boxer line court my eye. “finished staring?” he chuckled; I hid back under the cover from embarrassment. I felt the bed dip as his body was now next to mine, pulling me down our faces were close and I felt this breath on my lips as they were pulled closer to his, this was right, wasn’t it?