I am Broken

Chapter 19- Alex POV

*present day*                                               After the pain of separation had finally stopped, I lay still in my bed, Marco had brought me up here after the doctors had knocked me out, the pain was too much to be awake for. I looked around the room to find him asleep in the chair next to me, I don’t know what I would do without him, he was a loyal friend and the best Bata anyone could ask for but I was envious, he had everything he wanted right now but then I mentally hit myself, ‘he’s been through just as much pain as we have Alex, stop wallowing in self-pity, it doesn’t suit you’ Axel was right, I was happy to show emotion, it makes you who you are but I am a leader and I was proactive, I had to get out of bed and fight for what is right.                                         At least the drugged-out sleep didn’t give my horrific dreams that had invaded my sleep since she had gone, and now that she was marked, I can’t help but feel this was becoming more and more true, I can’t lose her, we can’t lose her. My mind went to Jake and thought how he was going through the same thing, since knowing we share something so beautiful, I can’t help want to be closer to him, there was no romantic feeling but feeling that a brother or a twin would have, you can’t live without them.                                       What a wicked game to make me feel this way. My stirring had woken Marco up from his sleep, I felt bad he didn’t get much sleep as it was and now, he was having to take care of me, he was quickly at my side helping me up “hay man, how are you feeling?” his face also looked pained, I knew this was hard on him to, hard on everyone, we were all connected to Willow, she was the Luna and now she was pulled from us in the most vicious way.                         “s**t man, like someone has ripped my heart away” his head dropped, I knew he know that feeling when we lost my sister, his eyes met mine again “we need to find Jake, we need all the help we can get, I will not lose my brother, no matter what’s happened, he was once our brother too” I grabbed his hand “myself and Axel agree, he will stand up to Marcus and free Willow from his clutches” well I hoped, he said he could not go against him, the servant could not fight the master but I just hoped he was strong enough.                         “Do you have a way of contacting him, our link was severed when he died?” I was stupid enough to not even get his phone number, in the supernatural world we often forget about modem technology “I didn’t get his number but maybe Darcy, has it?” I asked him and before I finished my sentence, he was out the door, I knew he was looking for her. I decided in the time I had to take a shower, it had been a while and I was starting to smell.                                    It was refreshing and warm as I let the water wash over me, unfortunately none of my troubles went with it, nothing was washed away, ‘at least we smell better, I need a run soon Alex, I hate being cooped up in your head’ he was right, I had been selfish staying human for so long, I was just afraid I wouldn’t turn back ‘I’m sorry for being selfish Axel, I’m just worried, wolfs take it harder than humans’ I explained to him hoping he would understand my meaning.                 ‘I get that Alex, I really do but I haven’t lost hope and I’m glad you haven’t either and that makes the pain easier, if there was no hope, we would have gone feral a long time ago’  I was glad my wolf was more level headed than I was but we had been through pain before and almost lost ourselves in it and when we pulled ourselves back to sanity he was changed, more mature and saw things in a different light, like he had been touched by the goddess herself, and since meeting Darcy that was most likely true.                ‘Once we have been in touch with Jake, we will go for a run but with Marco, you may try something’ he growled but said no other argument, he knew in himself he would do anything to bring her back, I stepped out of the shower, hearing the commotion in my room, I ran out in my towel. “What the hell is going on!” I was surprised to see it was Lucas “I’m sorry Alpha but I tried to link you” I had cut of my link when it all happened, I didn’t want my people feeling my pain they had been through too much already “its Jake!”                 “What have they contacted him?” I asked, “no he’s here, they all are included Marcus” “WHAT!” I growled; Axel wasted no time ripping from within me, we crashed through the house not caring about anything broken, I was going to rip Marcus head clean off! My body crashed through the door, there were already wolves ready to pounce but I knew they would give me the honour, I saw him, our eyes met, Marcus! I growled so much the ground shook.               I pounced towards him, to my surprise he did not move, he’d almost accepted his fate but something else shocked me more, Jake transformed, his wolf as big as mine he growls taking a defensive stance in front of Marcus, once a servant always a servant!! My anger fuelled me, I no longer cared he was my fated brother and attacked, no one was going to stand in my way, our wolfs wrestled, teeth glaring, snipping and biting at each other, our growls and howls could be heard for miles as our fighting continued.                “ENOUGH!” A booming voice came from behind me, my thoughts went back to the fight but now I was unable to move and suddenly forced to change back, “what the hell is going on!! Who stopped me!” we were thrown some shorts before someone started to speak “I stopped this because there is clearly a reason if why they are here, hear them out Alex” I turned to see Darcy, I soon realised it was her that stopped us, she was the only one with enough power.               “Speak then before I rip your heads off” Jake stepped forward to speak “the only reason I stopped you from ripping his head off is the fact he is the only one that know where she is” then it hit me, Willow was not with them “what the hell is going on and where is she!!” I shouted “she has been taken by Valick the demon king, he took her as his mate, and I fear once it is fully completed she will be darkness itself”               “Are you kidding me! Even you her mate as well could not protect her!” I screamed at him, he failed me again and again!! “this is hard for me too Alex but like you I have a pack to protect as well and now I am half way across the world away from her, don’t you think I would do everything, like come here and beg!” he was right, I was being too harsh, he was now a wolf he would feel the bond just as badly as I would and now he had to leave her to get help, it takes its toll, even being away from his pack.                “I’m sorry Jake, I’m angry and it’s not helping, but if you think I’m going to trust this demon you have another thing coming” Marcus stepped forward “look I know you hate me, and this is my fault, I let my body be used and I’m sorry but I’m here to help, I will lead you to them” I laughed “how can I trust you?” I asked, he stepped forwards once more “I will make a blood bond, if I don’t not keep what is promised I will die a painful death”                         "Are you sure Marcus?” Darcy asked, there was no denying this is something she could do “yes, I started this mess by saving my father and now I will help end it” he was right he was going to help us end it, and I hope he gives his life for it, I may look calm but I was still angry and ready for blood to spill, this time I would not give up, I will not fail.