I'm Good at Running Away

Another day, another chance. Should I try again? Or should I just let this one go? I don't know what to do, if only someone could help me make sense of all this. I received a call from my father. He informed me that my husband-to-be had just fled the country. Fled! After all the preparations for our meeting tonight, he just decided to leave. He could've just told my family that he did not want to, by any chance, participate to this marriage that our grandparents had planned since the ice age. He didn't even know that it was me he was going to marry, until last week. As always, I tried to compose myself and decided to go on with my day as if nothing had happened. It'll be embarrassing if my friends and family think that I am affected by what my runaway groom did. Nate or Nathaniel Schmidt, you will regret this day. "Earth to Savannah, Earth to Savannah!" I took a deep breath and turned around. My best friend, Vanessa, was looking at me intently. "I'm listening". I quickly sipped my wine to hide my thoughts. "Really, so what was I saying again?" she grinned. Remember Savannah! "That I should focus on self-development and don't think about following where Nate currently is. Please girl, I won't, and I am not that desperate." I quietly looked at my phone when Vanessa replied, "Just want to be sure, because I know you and the things you will do." That was before my mind screamed. I wished it was true, but the reality is, I want to know where Nate is because I have been that desperate ever since high school. bg He is my one and only true love, and it's just so pathetic that he does not feel the same way about me because he is in love with someone else - Ava, Vanessa's cousin. "You know what, let's party tonight. I heard that there's a new open club downtown. What do you think?" "I'm all good Vanessa, I'd just rather stay in my office all week and finish all my pending business deals." I opened my laptop and started typing. I heard Vanessa sigh, and that indicated that I had won the conversation. "You know, you can always tell Nate what you really feel. After all, you two particularly grew up together. Anyway, I have to go. Will I see you next week at the reunion?" I just nodded and on she went. Telling Nate how I truly feel is like accepting that I will never win the battle. My phone buzzed, an unknown number sent me a photo and then my heart stopped. With my own eyes, I saw the man that I had loved since childhood, who was now married to someone else. The same day, he decided to leave the country and let me face our loved ones by myself. Do I have to keep going? Or am I only wasting my time?