Him

Chapter 3

I'm about two hours away from Blue moon pack and about two to three hours away from 'him'. Images of him still run through my head, His scruffy brown hair. the colour of his brown hazel eyes, on rare occasions i seen his abs. He was fit and he knew he was. I had to shake my head at even thinking of him. He is the reason i've left the pack. That i've left my home and everything i know. Time was precious the further away i got, but the ache in my heart grew. every second that passed.

'See you again by Wiz Khalifa' started playing from my phone. I'm a huge fan of fast and the furious and this song i love it. To be honest i'm a movie freak, give me some popcorn and hot chocolate any time.

I glanced at my phone attached to the air vent. It lit up 'LUCY CALLING '. Argh i really don't wanna speak to her just now. She will have so many questions. I'm not even in the right mind frame to talk just now. I pressed the button on the side of the phone to silence it. I'm sure she will call me again.

I wasn't to far now from my destination the only place i knew i could go to. MY uncle Theo's. He was the alpha of the Riverbed pack. He lived across country in Aviemore. If you haven't guessed yet i'm Scottish. Shadow crest pack is back in Ardlui we lived close to the water and there was loads of trees circling around the pack house as well as other member houses. My house was about 30 minutes from the pack house. So there was enough distance that i didn't have to bump into Josh everyday apart from high school or college.

Being surrounded by trees was greet for us wolves. It gave us freedom to run in wolf form without humans seeing us and especially when shifting back to human form we'd come back naked. My uncles pack was smaller with a river nearby so the name of the pack co-sides with it. But the views were amazing.

I've not been here in years. Just after my parents were killed, me and Antony came back here for a while to grieve. But then we had to return, my brother had to take over as beta. You see my dad was born in the Riverbed Pack. Theo is his older brother, he took over the pack when their dad was to old to carry on running it. Dad met mum at one of the mate dance parties for all those un-mated and had a chance to find theirs. I remember the stories they use to tell us about how they met and their first date.

Dad made the choice to join the Shadow crest pack to be with mum. He became good friends with the alpha which let him to become beta. That's how Josh and Antony became best friends. We were always almost everyday around each other without fail. I tried so hard to stay away from him but sometimes is was merely impossible. I swear sometimes he kept a look out for me coming to purposely hurt me physically and mentally bringing  me down. It was like he hated to see me happy. Others started to follow his suit.

Blinking my eyes to bring me back from those memories i noticed my phone ringing again, rolled my eyes and answered as i knew she wouldn't give up easily.

"Hey Lucy" I say little high pinch, so she doesn't think anything is wrong. I had obviously been crying so my voice was strained.

"Don't you hey Lucy me. where are you?.. Josh is going nuts here. He has destroyed the pack house. He's threaten everyone to find you and bring you back. What happened?"  I could tell she worried and scared. When Josh lost his temper everyone ran scared keeping out his way no one knew how bad his temper would get until they see him. Then they all run.

"I'm ok Lucy. I can't talk right now i'm driving and i'm sure that asshole will be fine soon enough... Have you seen Antony yet?" Trying to change the subject. as i really don't fancy talking Josh's mental state right now.

"Where you heading to i'll meet you and i've not seen your brother yet last time i seen him he was trying to calm Josh down"Sounds about right. Antony always putting people before himself.

"I can't meet you just now i'm a bit busy. Find Ant though he has something important for you. Make sure he is alone when you do though" I sighed god help them is Josh overhears they know where i am.

"Ok but why do i need to see him alo.." I cut her off, as i know i'll just get another question after question.

"Because i don't want Josh finding out, please Lucy just find him i gotta go" With that i ended the call sighing a huff out.

I drove up the long road with pine trees lining the road, they stood so high. The road lend me up to Riverbed pack. As i approached I tooted twice to indicated i was outside My uncle and aunt knew i was on my way. I parked the car and turned of the engine then hopped out the car to greet my uncle. He wrapped me in his arms tightly.

"It's been to long"He then kissed my forehead stepping back. My aunt then came running over from the front door to me giving me a tight hug too "My darling, how was your drive up?" pulling back she gave me a kiss on the forehead too.

"It was ok, pretty long though..I..I'm actually a bit tired" I could feel my eyes getting heavy and i could use a nap about now. I hadn't slept well in days. Worrying about how my plan was going to work. Was i going to be able to leave or make that incredible big jump. My body felt like it was starting to shut down a bit.

"Let's get you inside and you can take a nap before dinner" My aunt smile.

I nodded in agreement, I grabbed my bags from the car Uncle theo helped me and i heard someone else running over to help. I remember his face but not his name.

"Hey thanks for helping" I smile at him.

"James" He said giving me his hand to shake like he knew i couldn't remember him. I smiled in return letting him help me with my bags.

I followed my aunt and uncle into the pack house Jame followed behind me. My aunt disappeared into the kitchen. Guessing she was going to start dinner. Uncle Theo and James took my bags up the stairs and i followed them. They took a right down the long hallway to the end bedroom. It was the room i stayed in last time. It had a queen size bed with my favour colour bed sheets. Deep purple shade. There was a walk in closet and a double doors that opening onto my open private baloney. I loved it here wish i never went back to shadow crest back then i had no choice my brother began my parent in away.

Uncle theo and James put down my bags inside my closet for me to fix later. Uncle told me to get some rest and they will see me at dinner time. Once they had left I stood looking out the double doors to the view outside. My thoughts had taken over me for a moment. 

'Paige we are free, He can't hurt us here no one can'

'I know, but why do i feel like this, why do i feel like i should be back there even though he doesn't want me'

' He's our mate, your going to have all these feels about him. I feel them too. But we did this for us, we needed to leave to stop him from hurting us anymore'

She was right i know she was. I always had doubts. I use to think he'd come around and actually want both of us. There was time he was nice to us not always it was very rare but sometimes when it was just us two he wasn't mean he didn't put me down. He actually showed he did care about me but it was brief. That only happened once in a blue moon and then like a switch he'd be back to being a d**k again as soon as other members of the pack had enter. I tried giving him the benefit of the doubt being a alpha came with challenges but it gave him no right to keep knocking me back down again.

Shaking the memory from my head. I grabbed my phone from my pocket quickly texted me Antony i was ok. I noticed i had alot the notifications. From Antony checking up on me to Lucy trying to find out where i was. No doubt she was pissed with me aswell. Then i had some from him too. I couldn't bring myself to look at them so i put my phone on silent. I popped it down on the bed side table then got into bed. Rolled over onto my side and pull the covers up and let sleep take me.