Lost Hope

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My class ended without resolving my conflicting thoughts on reincarnation. I am wondering if ,maybe I am having past life dreams. well more like night mares. I’ve think I could look up if the main characters in my dream is real. The library could have all the answers needed.

I made it home to eat pb&j again. The full moon is coming up meaning I am cramming all the calories I can, so running won't be as hard. The shift takes a lot of energy and food is energy meaning I'll be eating everything I can for the next couple weeks.

Since I haven’t met my mate yet I don’t have to worry about going into heat yet. I’m taught about this basic biological fact like every other pup, but because I am an oddity I’ve never experienced this. I think it will hurt, but my twin had said her mate is what made the whole experience bearable. She had her first set of pups before we graduated high school.

After completing my homework and getting as much sleep as possible I headed into work early in the morning. I haven't gotten very far when Megan and her stupid crew finds me. There was no way she didn't go searching me out today.

I am annoyed that she found me this early in the morning. I still had multiple floors to clean and her beatings would leave me unconscious or unable to move for days.

They make sure to not leave marks where the Dean can see, leading to multiple meetings discussing me cutting corners on work. I am under Luna's command to not speak of the abuse to anyone including the Dean. This means I can't get the medical care I have often needed.

I've become a pro at setting my bones before my wolf healing can cause an improper set.

That would be disastrous to any wolf.

I am contemplating if I should choose now to stand up for myself, because the truth was she would beat me no matter what. This was a past time. A game.

I decide now might as well be the time to stand up for myself, even if she has her crew with her.

“Hey guys, look, it's the reject” Megan said.

“Hey guys, look it's the b*****.” It’s a quick answer. Probably could have handled that better or at least threw in a few more taunts. Although petty, I can’t physically take her out without getting suspended. Her eyebrows have raised up at me right now like oh no you didn’t. She does not appreciate the comment and the beating begins.

Her foot hit my ribs first.

Normally she doesn’t kick this hard. I really must have made her mad.

The ribs have broken and breathing is already a struggle, as the crew joins in the beat down. The ribs were already a tender location from the past beatings, so this all really sucked.

I can’t breathe.

It’s like I’m under water with fireworks erupting around me. The sparks all follow the tunnel closing in on my vision quickly.

I’ve never particularly been scared she would kill me, but now I know she might have. I can’t get medical care, my wolf can only heal so fast, and the beating is dragging on forever. My wolf is screaming in my head repeatedly. Death might be the easy way out here. Kinda wish it would happen. Without my mate life was pointless anyway.