BLAMELESS SORROWS

72. March

Axel's Point of View.

I rush out and went to where Tilbe is.

I rush towards her and quickly went and hug her.

And true to my expectation, she look lost and pained all over.

She look at me as I hug her in my arms and hiccups as she sob and more.

Axel: Hey little gift, if you cry like this all day and night. Then how can grandpa be in peace, he won't ever be able to cross the river hearing your loud cries. You don't want that do you?

It's a legend of Iklu that when someone dies, he or she have to cross a river that seperate our living world and the heaven. But if someone could not be able to cross the river then he will be stuck in between forver, and that will be a t*****e to the soul who will never be able to enjoy peace.

Tilbe: Ax, it hurt so much. Grandpa won't respond to me no matter how much I call him and he don't wake up to comfort me no matter how much I cry.

I kiss the crown of her head softly while she continue to cries.

Axel: Little one, grandpa can't do that anymore now. But he surely is watching over you and he will be so sad and hurt that you are crying this much and hurting yourself like this.

Her cries dies down a bit, as she calm down a bit in my arms.

Axel: Little gift, we have to let grandpa goes in peace right? He have done so much for us, and now he need to rest. Isn't it our duty to send him off with all the blessings and prayers that he need?

Little gift hesitate for a bit but nontheless nod slightly agreeing with me.

Axel: I know you are sad and I know this is more than painful, but we have to let it go now. We will keep grandpa by our heart all the time and he will live through us. But for now, let's let grandpa reat peacefully alright?

She nod once again.

Axel: And for us to do that, you have to calm down okay.

She just stay still as I said that while I apt her back slowly while she hiccup here and there. She need to be calm and have to stop crying even if its just for a bit, cause I know her health will give out any minute now.

I look at grandpa sleeping by the huge bed peacefully. All kinds of flowers by his side as he is covered by a colourful red shawl. For some reason, he look so good at that moment. The experience of his life and all the wisdom and kindness he have seems to be covering him whole even at such a moment.

Grandpa, look for the first time Iam out in the open on front of so many people.

Iam doing great right?

Or am I even doing the right thing?

I just wanted to protect Tilbe so bad, that I don't even know when I agree with Karina and rush out.

I don't even remember any fear or doubt as I said yes and ran out, cause the only thing I heard was Tilbe's painful cries.

But now that the cries have gone down a bit and the loud noise have cleared, Iam too scared to even look at anyone besides you grandpa.

Please look over me grandpa, for Iam so afraid and scare and afraid of everything.

As I said that, I realise the little hiccups I keep on hearing have cease for. but now. So I look down at the tiny body in my arms and I saw Tilbe sleeping away. Although she does not look peaceful at all, rather she seems to be knock out by the tiredness both physically and mentally.

I pat her head softly while slowly lifting her up in my arm. I know the person next to us is looking at us curiously but I dare not look up, and I also know he is Vann. But despite knowing that I can't hurt him now, I still don't want to see his face. So I quickly mumble some few words and went away.

Axel: Please watch over here for me, I will take Tilbe to rest just for a bit.

He said a small yes as I said that, while I lift Tilbe gently in my arms and went inside. But just before I went in, Uncle Jo came..

Uncle Jo: I see you are out. But we will talk about it later, both of you rest for a while and don't worry about anything out here I will take care of it.

With that he kiss Tilbe on her forehead softly and pat my back and went away while I went inside, glad that Uncle Jo is here.

I went to Tilbe's room and lay her down softly on her bed.

I was about to retract my hand but she whine loudly and quickly get hold of my hand while snuggling into it and went back to sleeping peacefully.

Not willing to disturb her sleep, and wanting for her to sleep as much as possible I sit back quitely and pat her back softly while she seems to be sleeping peacefully at least for now.

While I sigh to myself and think of everything that has happen just a while back.

A few minutes back.

Karina: Please let me help you, cause only you can calm down Tilbe and comfort her. She really need you.

Axel: How can you do it?

I ask urgently, I know this is dangerous. No, I knew it was much more than dangerous.

But damn, my heart can't bear to listen to Tilbe's cries and do nothing anymore.

I know Uncle Jo is very busy at the moment cause he need to attend to all the guest and also do all the needful preparation for the funeral. So it will be hard for him to just stay seated with Little gift.

And Vann is there with Tilbe but I guess he couldn't help it.

So I can only hope I can be of some comfort to her.

Karina: Do you trust me?

I know she have the ability to take away powers form before and besides Tilbe have once hinted at this when she talk about it.

So I nod my head.

Karina: You are not asking me what I will do with your Tama when I take it away?

Because I know she can't used it now. She said so, and it was the truth.

She chuckled to herself though.

Karina: Oh, wait you were there with us when I was talking with Tilbe before.

How did she know that? Did she saw me while listening, but both times I was hidden.

Karina: I can feel your Tama and even the eye of the truth. So whenever you are near, I will know.

So, she also knows that I have the eye of the truth huh? Well what's the surprise in it, she know I have the Tama so why won't she know the eye of truth.

Karina: But since you have the eye of the truth, I guess the job of trusting is much more easier and simpler now.

Well at least there is one good thing about me.

Axel: So can you just take it away from me now, or do I need to do something?

She shake her head in a no when I said that.

Karina: People tend to get very tired or even lose consciousness when I take away their ability because their physically strength also grow accustomed to their ability strength. But in your case you won't feel that much, cause you have two ability. And since you never use the Tama, you won't feel that much weakend. But be on alert just in case.

I nod in understanding as she said that, although I can do nothing about it even if I know what might happen.

Axel: But before we went through with anything, are you sure nothing will happen to you when you take my Tama?

I mean it is not really a pleasant thing to have to begin with but its scaring nature might hurt her as well.

Karina: Thanks for the concern but nothing will happen to me. And since I can't use the Tama, kudos to our plan we have nothing to worry about.

I sigh in relieve as she said taht.

Karina: But besides that, there are certain limits. I can keep the Tama in me for a limited amount of time, probably around seventy two hours at most, and by then I have to give it back. Cause if I don't the Tama will forcefully went back to you and I will be pretty badly hurt.

I nod as she said that.

Then the most time I can take is about forty eight hours, or two days. I can't take more time than that, we cannot take chances.

Axel: I have one more request.

She nod, asking me to keep talking.

Axel: Can you please not go out as much as possible when you are with the Tama. I mean it can cause danger anytime even if you cannot use it now.

I mean I didn't know I had a Tama in me, and yet somehow I use it. I mean if I can use it with such circumstances, then most probably she can too. And I dont wish to wish that guilt I have to anyone else.

Karina: It won't be a problem but if you have any problem with it, then for now sure. I will stay put in this room, so after you are done, please come and find me quickly.