BLAMELESS SORROWS

26. Scared!

Axel's Point of View.

(flashback continues)

The doctor make grandpa quickly lay her down in the bed and check what is wrong, by checking her eyes, hand and mouth.

While all of us including grandpa and Uncle Jo look at him treating her with anxiety clear in all of our eyes

Doctor: Don't worry too much, nothing is wrong with her. She just has a bit of a fever too and faint mainly because she was too stressed out. And also the fact that, her stressed suddenly vanish affect her mental state.

We all nod, was she that scared when I was hurt, to the point that it can make her unconscious this way, had I knew I will have act better and never told her that I was sick.

Grandpa: When will she wake up?

Doctor: Anytime now, in case of such shock the patient does not remain unconscious for long. But even if they do, that is fine too. Cause they are just sleeping by then.

We all heave a sigh of relief hearing that.

Doctor: Then, I'll take my leave now.

Uncle Jo: Let me lead the way.

And with that Uncle Jo and the doctor went away, but that is of course after prescription of the same cold medicine that I have to take.

Grandpa sit by our bed and smooth out Tilbe's flying hair.

Axel: Iam sorry grandpa, I knew I shouldn't have let Tilbe out in the rain, let alone letting myself getting sick.

Grandpa looked up at me and sigh hearing what I said.

Grandpa: You should be sorry that beside knowing the fact that you can get sick, you went out in the rain and nothing else.

Axel: But Tilbe is like this because of me.

He hold my hand and tell me slowly and patiently.

Tilbe: Then you are like this because of her, if what you are saying is true.

I shake my head quickly in denial but remember I just disagree with my own point.

Grandpa: Remember Axel, both you and Tilbe are so so so precious to me. And either one of you being sick or unwell make me so scared too like Tilbe felt. Tilbe is by no means more precious than you are, and you have to remember that too. As a brother and sister, you two have to take care of each other, but getting sick like this and getting hurt like this so she can be fine is not okay, alright?

I nod my head slowly although I know for a fact that, I won't listen to him anyway and will do it again if I have to.

Grandpa: I know you will not listen to me and do it all over again if such situation arise again. So, my only advice is, know that you are precious too and you getting hurt will hurt her too. So, you must take care of yourself with your best as well, so that Tilbe and all of us can be at peace alright.

I smile at grandpa and nod my head, this time in total agreement.

Iam precious too and I have to take care of myself so that my love one, who I want to protect are at peace!

Grandpa: Okay then, you rest for a bit. I'll take Tilbe to her room and see to it that your food are prepared, so that you can take your medicine.

And he was about to lift Tilbe up but I stop him.

Axel: Grandpa, can Tilbe just stay here with me please?

He shrug at my question, and nod in a yes.

Grandpa: Sure, why not. Then I will be downstairs, call me if you feel unwell or anything like that, okay?

I nod my head when he said that, while he pat my head one more time.

Grandpa: Get well soon my boy, don't make your old man worry like this.

He went out with that while I smile at how much they care and love me. I really did found myself a second family.

But that is a thought I can think of in other times, right now I have something else to take care of.

Axel: You can open your eyes now, Tilbe. Grandpa is gone.

I saw her waking when grandpa was talking to me and quickly shutting her eyes again. And she also squirm about when grandpa was about to take her.

Tilbe: Hehe, hello Axel.

And she cutely open her one eye and look around the room for anyone else, and seeing as no one is there, she open both of her eyes. I chuckle at her antics.

Axel: Hello little one. How are you feeling now, any pain anywhere?

She shake her head in a no, while I check her temparature and it has went down. My temparature has also went down drastically, after I took the medicine the doctor has for me before which is different from the one I have to take after eating something.

Axel: By your hiding from grandpa, Iam guessing he has not scold you yet?

She nod her head in a yes excitedly. While I sigh in disbelieve.

Tilbe: When we went out, I was busy scolding him for not picking up my calls quicker, so he does not get a chance to scold me and later I fell asleep so he does not have a chance there too.

I gape at her in disbelieve, she was the one who scold grandpa when I thought she will be the one getting scolded!

Tilbe: Well now, he will have to scold me as I have no more excuse. Or shall I just act asleep whenever he is here?

I was about to answer but grandpa walk in just then with a tray of food in his hand while uncle Jo follow with a bottle of water and cups in his hand.

And seeing this Tilbe quickly fell back down and act asleep.

While all three of us look at her blatant act in complete disbelieve. Iam literally speechless by her guts.

Grandpa shake his head speechless by the act he just saw while placing the tray in the table.

Grandpa: Tilbe wake up, I won't scold you. So get up to eat, and then medicine.

When he said that, Tilbe answered but her eyes still closed.

Tilbe: You are sure, you won't scold me right?

Grandpa chuckled at her antics and pick her up, making her squeal in surprise.

Grandpa: Yes I won't, but don't you have to say sorry to Axel for making him sick while forcing him to play in the rain?

She nod her head in a yes and cutely hold her ears with both her hands and said.

Tilbe: Iam sorry Axel and I swear I won't force you to play in the rain again.

I nod my head with a smile

Axel: All forgiven, and Iam sorry for making you so scared.

She nod her head while a pout follows.

Tilbe: You are also not allowed to scare me like this again.

I nodded in a yes agreeing with her, while Uncle Jo at the mean time come pull the small table by the bed and arrange all the necessary things.

Grandpa: But Tilbe, why were you that scared? Didn't Axel tell you he is alright?

I also look at her, pique with interest by the question.

Tilbe: Mom and dad also said they were alright with blood all over them but later they went away leaving me behind didn't they? I don't want Axel to leave too.

And she take the spoon and eat the porridge as if she is talking about nothing important. While all three of us look at her concerned.

Grandpa: Tilbe, remember your mommy and daddy have gone to a better place when they won't be in pain anymore. And they did not leave you, they just went a bit quicker and is waiting for you there, to come to them much much later on. Besides they are always looking out for you from where they are alright?

She sit there and said nothing for a while. Actually Tilbe parents died in a car crash, where Tilbe also was in there. So I guess to pacify her they told her everything was alright when it was not, and they were probably hurt and bleeding like Tilbe said.

Tilbe: Well then, I don't want Axel to go to a better place before me while I have to wait for a long time to go there, I want all of us to go together so that no one has to wait and be sad.

And now her mood become all sullen and once again teary. So I quickly chime in, willing to comfort her as quick as I can.

Axel: Then I won't go, I will always be with Tilbe and won't ever go to the better place before Tilbe. We will go together like you wished.

She smile as she heard that, while I did too. It was a simple promise which I can never choose either to break or fulfill but for now, that small smile was worth enough for the words to be spoken.

She then come out of Grandpa's arm and come to me asking for a hug which I happily gave.

Flashback over.

I chuckled thinking back to those memories, I still remember us having that warm porridge with a smile on our face, chit chatting about everything and nothing.

I remember that day sleeping peacefully with Grandpa narrating a story about his youth while Tilbe listened with interest.

Just as I was chuckling while reminiscing the past, I saw Tilbe trudging in, her mood quite sullen.

Axel: Little gift, is something wrong?

She sit down with a plop in the couch where I was sitting and lay her head on me.

Tilbe: Ax, please massage my head for me. It hurts and it's spinning.

I spring up alert while adjusting her position so that she can be a little more comfortable.

And I slowly start to massage her head while she sigh in relief.

Axel: Is it hurting a lot, shall we call for a doctor?

When I said that she nod her head in a no.

Tilbe: It will be fine, I just need a little bit of rest i think.

I look at her suspiciously, she look quite weak and pale now that I look at it.

Axel: I think it will be better if we call for a doctor or we go to one.

Tilbe: Let's just rest for a bit and if it get worse, let's go then.

I sigh to that but give in, massaging her head softly.

Tilbe: I miss grandpa and Uncle Jo, I wish they would come back quickly.

Axel: Grandpa will be back next week and even Uncle Jo must be coming back soon.

She hmm a bit relaxing a little and then shortly afterwards, gradually fall asleep making me stop my massaging and letting her rest peacefully.