The Rogue Alpha's Bastard

Ready to fight!

    I walked to the room sending a text to Zane about the doctor’s appointment. Before I could send the text, he was already at the door looking for me. He turns around at the sounds of my footsteps.

    “Your healthy again! Why didn’t you tell me you went to the doctors!”

    He grabs me lifting me into a hug, spinning around. He seems overjoyed at this news. He throws me over his shoulder and jokingly drops me on the bed. I giggle at his antics. He is adorable when he gets like that. I still wonder what will happen now though…

     “Zane... What happens now?”

    “What do you mean?”

    “Like what do I do now? I used to do all the work, but I was hurt so I could not. Now I am not. Do I go back to that? What will I do with myself now during the days?”

    “No, you won’t have to that ever again! You can do whatever you like now learn skills, help with alpha duties. You’re Luna of this pack!”

    Luna… I knew being his mate would mean that, but he hasn’t really brought it up. I kind of like the idea of being able to help the pack in other way. Maybe by overhauling the attitudes of the members making them more accepting. No one should go through the pain I had too.

    As I start to think, I realize I will have to go back out and see the others. Panic sets in and my breathing quickens. My heart racing, vision blurs and I start to zone out of the world. Zane is quick to notice and holds me tight in his arms “Shh, baby what's wrong?”

    “I, they, others will...” Things get dizzy and I can’t think straight

    “No, one will hurt you again. I promised you that, remember? You’re my mate and my Luna, the pack WILL treat you with respect or they can go through me.”

    “But how can I... I feel so scared at the thought of leaving the room. Last time I saw other members I fainted! How can I be Luna? I'll weaken us as a pack… Oh my Goddess I bring the whole back down with me!”

    Zane just holds me closer, stroking my hair as I start to cry “You aren’t weak Roxara. Danny told me everything. What you used to be like, how you handled yourself with dignity. The abuse you took all while you kept going. A weak person doesn’t do that. I think there’s a fighter inside waiting to get out.”

    A fighter? That’s it! If I can get training as a pack warrior, I can protect myself! When I was young I never dreamed of being a Luna or being a princess of a kingdom like the other girls. I dreamed of being a warrior! Fighting for the pack and the weak! Maybe if I can be trained, I won’t be weak and scared anymore.

    I jump out of his embrace and run to the balcony. Zane is quick to follow behind. I point towards the training grounds “I want to train! To be a pack Warrior!”

    Zane seems less than thrilled with the idea “baby no! You just healed… Why do you want to fight anyways? You have me to protect you! Besides, you can help me with the business stuff, like marketing or-”

    “You can’t always be by my side… I think I’ll feel better if I knew how to fight. I tried that night to fight off... The other wolves but I couldn’t protect myself! Please I want to be able to protect myself… I want to be strong for you!”

    Zane sighs, looking at me with discontent. He looks out, mind linking someone? Then turns to me with a half-smile “If that’s what you want… But It will private lessons with a trainer. The one I just chose, and you mustn’t strain yourself I don’t want you hurt”

    I squeal with excitement, jumping up and down! I thank him a million times.; flinging my arms around him. Sparks are sent through my body at his touch! He laughs telling me we will have to go out and get me some training clothes.

    “A shopping trip? To the mall?! Like the mall, mall?!”

    “Yes, that mall, haha!”

    “AH WAIT! How can I pay for it I don’t have money?”

    “Oh, that? Don’t worry, I’ll be paying for everything and before you say it! There’s no buts! I think you deserve a little or a lot of spoiling”

    “Well… Okay but can Danny come? He has to come! He has great fashion sense!”

    Zane looks nervous to let another male come to watch me try clothes. I giggle at him “Zane Danny’s gay.”

    “Oh, well that makes me feel a little better, having him in the room with you alone all the time.”

    I text Danny about the trip to the mall immediately. He is excited! He is so bored nobody in this pack reads anymore; the library is dead all the time. I texted my mom wants too to see if she wants to join but unsurprisingly declines... as usual.

    Zane get read and pulls the car around to the front; we hop in. I look around in awe! This car is so nice! Zane watches me and laughs “It’s nice right, very expensive too.”

    Danny laughs and says “Trust me dude, she’d do that in my lemon of a car”

    I blush, Zane must be so used to all these nice things. I never got anything like this. I like it but It hurts a little to realize how badly I was treated compared to the others. Zane grabs my hand when he sees my shoulders slump. His hands are so big they engulf mine.

    We get out of the pack’s grounds going to the open roads when he gives Danny a look. Danny sit back and put his belt on. What is going on? Zane shifts the gears and we shoot down the road! I am terrified at first but, some side of me is excited.

    Rocks howls in enjoyment which I let slip out and suddenly my arms are in the air. The boys laugh at me and in no time, we arrive at the mall. It’s huge! I unbuckle and get out bouncing like a child with glee.

    Zane takes my hand and we all walk in together. I don’t even know where to start. Zane leads me into a women’s clothing store. I pick out a few things plain t shirts and some jeans. Like real jeans! I go to the change room and start trying on the clothes. When I come out Zane is standing there with a mountain of clothes!

    “You can get whatever she wants money is no issue. Try these on!”

    We spend the whole day shopping. Poor Danny keeps having to makes trips to the car to put away the bags! I try to tell Zane this is too much but he’s not having it. We get things I never thought I would have, boots, multiple pairs of shoes, and BIG COMFY HOODIES! I throw one of the hoodies on immediately and it swallows me whole.

    I was entertaining myself by swinging the overhanging parts of the sleeves. I stop when I see a gaming store my eyes widen, and I smack Zane’s arm with a sleeve “Can we look in there please I’ve never seen a gaming store!”

    “Anything baby, go in have fun get whatever you want. We can play together later. It’ll be like a date!”

    I squeal and run in the workers had to explain all the games to me. we were in there longer than any store! I love this! I didn’t think this day could get any better but then Zane says we have one last stop. We stop at a salon “Why are we here?”

    “I noticed you really… have never gotten a haircut before.”

    I go to protest but Danny steps in “Girl your hair needs help accept it.”

I sigh, they’re right my hair is a little unruly at times I have so much of it. I sit in the stylist’s chair and pick out a medium length with side bangs! Then I whisper in her ear someone and she nods in agreement. When done I go out to show the guys. I have my usual black hair but with a new cut and the ends are white.

    Zane looks at me mouth wide open “Woah! You're -you’re STUNNING! I mean you already were I just never thought you could look better!”

    I laugh, we pay and leave. It’s pretty close to being night everything is closing. We head home and it takes an hour with all us to fill the closet up with the new clothes. Then another hour to set up the new games. The boys fighting over how to set it up properly. My money’s on Danny being right he is the I.T guy after all.

    Ignoring them and step out to the balcony. I feel the crisp night air hit my skin. Its winter and there's a light snow everywhere. I feel Rocks get excited and I agree with her I think it time for a run! Zane comes out and ask what I am thinking of. We agree to go for a run together. I am excited to see his wolf.