The Rogue Alpha's Bastard

Road to Recovery!

    Heading towards my room I notice how sore I really am. Zane has his arm around my waist the entire time not taking his eyes off me. Once we get there, I open the door and Zane looks surprised. I wriggle out of his grasp, go to my bed. I start to fold my stuff, but the boys stop me. They do it for me and Zane starts to realize how I was really living.

    Danny gathers up all my stuff clothes, and all. It fits into a grocery store bag. Zane is quietly looking around… Once we are done, he leads me back to his room. He opens the closet “I cleaned out half of it for your stuff but… um, I guess we’ll need to get you some more clothes and others?”

    I shyly smile at him but hang up my few old, ratty clothes. Zane helps me back to the bed. Danny hands me my iPod and some old, cheap headphones. I hug Danny before he takes his leave. Zane looks at me solemnly  “You don’t have much do you?”

    “I wasn’t allowed new things. Danny had to get permission for the dress I wore to the dance…”

    “I didn’t realize my father was so strict! This seems cruel to do to someone, for any reason.”

    “How can I expect to be accepted by the pack… When my own father didn’t even want me”

    “That must be difficult to deal with... But regardless that’s no excuse to do this to someone. You’ve been a loyal member to the pack for 20 years. I would have thought he would lightened up?”

    “Would you have changed things if I weren’t your mate?”

    The question seemed to take Zane aback for a moment. He thought about it for a and replied “I-I don’t know... maybe? I don’t think people should treat others poorly for no reason… So, I think yes I would have.” He didn’t seem too sure of himself. 

    What I had thought that if I weren’t his mate I would be in the same position as I was always in. It stings a little to know what had to happen for anyone besides my mom and Danny, to care about me.

    I try to lighten the mood and I put my earphone in one ear and the other in Zane's.

   “Here, music always makes me feel better and we shouldn’t have a sad Alpha.”

    I put on some music and I scooch over on the bed and pat for Zane to come sit. He takes a seat and the music begins and my mood is instantly lifted. A few pop songs play but then my rock music starts, and I get really into it. Breaking Benjamin and three days grace are my favorite bands.

    Zane looks at me in shock “I didn’t think women liked rock music?”

    “Anyone can like rock Zane, not just men. I love it! They sing about their feelings and real pain they have been through. Even though the music is sad or angry... It makes me feel calm”

    “Well I guess I'll have to take you to their concerts sometime!”

    “OMG really?! You’d do that!!”

    Zane laughs and smiles widely at my outburst “HAHA, I didn’t think you could be so excited about that... It’s cute! I want to see you this excited all the time. If it makes you happy, then we will go all the time every time the come near!”

    He stares into my eye and I want to kiss him so badly. My wolf is purring, and I was leaning in… When I got scared and stopped. I look down sheepishly at the bed he shoves my shoulder lightly. We spend the day listening to music in bed together.

    We take small walks to get food after everyone’s done. I didn’t want to be near anyone but Zane, Danny and my mother. My mother checks in quickly on me throughout the day but leaves very shortly after each visit. I can tell she cares… But all she does is work then sleep. I wish my mother would be her old self when I was young. We used to do so much together.

    The night comes and I fall asleep instantly when Zane’s around. I seem to be having nightmare every night though. This night I see flashed of fire, a town burning, warring wolves and in each one the astral wolf I’ve seen before stands next to me. Being plague by these nightmares every night, you’d think make me sad and scared; I’m not though. I feel uneasy I feel like it a sign but for what? I don’t know.

    The next day Zane had to return to his Alpha work. He hasn’t been keeping up with it with duties while taking care of me. Danny joins me in the room to keep me company. We watch all the new Disney movies I wasn’t allowed to before. I am blown away at the animation and the songs!

    Zane came to the room late in the evening. He walked in with his arms behind his back. I was suspicious when he came up to me. He told me to close my eye and hold out my hands? I reluctantly comply and… He brought me a gift! The gift was place in my hand; I excitedly opened it! I cry at the sight of a phone? I have never had one before!

    “For me? I… I can’t accept this!”

    “Yes, you can! I already put in all the numbers you need! Now I can text you during the day to make sure you’re okay!”

    “Well... I can’t even-”

    “Oh, and I forgot!” He pulled out a brand-new pair of high-end headphones and a pair of earphones.

    “These are for you to replace the earphones you have… They are, uh, old. I bought you both because I wasn’t sure which you’ll prefer.”

    “I can’t thank you enough Zane! I’ll repay you once I can!”

    “No, they are a gift no need to repay me… But if you want to repay me? Maybe a kiss would be a start!”

    He puckered at me jokingly. I’ve barely touched him let alone kiss him. I quickly peck him on the cheek; he is totally shocked! Zane blinks in surprise while I go and start to play with my new phone. He jumps on the bed and pulls me into a bear hug. I hate how much I love this, but I can’t help it!    

    The next few days I start to feel better and better. I started texting Danny and Zane all day. I am pretty sure I’m annoying them… Sending them weird pictures I found online. People call them Me-me's? Danny had to tell me to pronounce that. I discover new games and apps. I kept sending the two weird pictures I took with funny filters.

    Danny, keeps me updated on the day to day of the pack without me. I am so happy to hear Rachel has had to take over cooking with Mary. The other omegas had to clean everything. They don’t even do it well!

    At nights Zane and I watch movies until I fall asleep. Zane goes to sleep on the couch without fuss. I feel bad but he’s so big! I worry I will get crushed in my sleep if I let him join! A few more days pass. It's been almost two weeks since the incident when I get a text from the Doctor to come visit her as soon as I can.

    I walk down to the doctor's office myself and she starts he examination of me. “Well, your healing was slower than I liked but you seem to be okay now. I need you to start eating more food to increase your caloric intake; your weight is still too low. Maybe going for some runs to help stretch your wolf would benefit the small amount of healing left. Overall? I’m giving you a clean bill of health! Though take it slow with getting back into the swing of things. Just in case.”

    I am so excited to get back to my normal routine... Oh, I don’t have my normal routine anymore. I don’t know what I am going to do now. I text Zane on my way back to the room. I can’t help but wonder what will happen now? The nightmares haven’t stopped and though my life has improved with Zane around I feel concerned. If I am healthy, I’ll be presented and have to become Luna!? I keep feeling something pulling me a away from the pack… I think I’m just scared?