Will you break down my walls to find me?

Date: 12/07/2021 Ah, here comes the rain along with his roaring friend and here I am standing in between a crowd where people were rushing to find shelter from the rain....... I thought to myself 'oh looks like the rain is indeed my friend who helps me hide my tears'. I laughed like crazy for a minute. As people passed by I noticed some were staring at me thinking I was crazy or was it my breast. It was the usual. I thought to myself. I was the shy type 16 year old girl who was wearing a plane white see through shirt, which was drenched from the rain and everyone around me just stared at my breast. Of course I could tell, they had a lustful look in their eyes, but I ignored those stares cause my mind was already in a chaos with the betrayal from the one whom I thought was my world. Hah. How stupid I was to believe his words without even a hint of suspicion. Maybe I was the foolish one to fall for his mere charming words when all my friends said 'he is just trying to get inside your pants' and he was a big time player. But I was the type to ignore people's opinion and my friends were right from the beginning. He got what he wanted. I never even felt a hint of suspicion while he was also two timing with me with my own so called 'best friend' Lily. Just when I thought i had found the perfect guy to be with, I got deceived on and the worst was that he used to do it in the same bed where we used to sleep together. Realising that I felt disgusted at myself. I felt like a thousand insects were crawling all over my body. I lost everything'that day' my boyfriend and my one and only best friend who knew everything about me!!! I was lonely and scared to see my friends from my college. My thoughts were going crazy, what would they say about me. A girl who got cheated? A slut who knew what type of guy she was dating? A pathetic girl? ............ Maybe I was the type who gets trampled upon by anyone, who gets used or something like that. I wasn't only one who got cheated by that dork! There were in fact a lot more than you can imagine. But i wasn't entirely to be blamed. He said the words I longed to hear from someone ....words like beautiful, attractive etc etc.....and after hearing those words what can I do!? Cause of that the moment I hear those I would just melt away and it wasn't my fault that I was falling for him and it JUST wasn't his seductive words. It was also his sparkling blue eyes which looked like a blue diamond and was the most beautiful eyes I had ever lay upon, also his brown hair and the perfect jaw line that a girl could ever dream of. Getting drenched in the rain, on top of that those stares just like a look from a vicious animal. I made a vow that day, that I would never fall for someone again. LATER did I know how useless my vows would be the moment I laid my eyes upon him.....................