The s*x Addicts Widow

Reunited and it feels.....

Victoria

I peek out the kitchen window. Phone in hand. Damn it. Keith's still there. I hate calling Kade for help, but Keith just creeps me the f**k out. I don't like being around him, I know given the chance, he'll force himself on me, again. The first time was 17 years ago, I was young and drunk, unaware of what he was doing until it was too late. I don't believe Kade knows that fun fact about how I met Luke.

Over the years hes made comments, and since Luke died, they've become cruder..he says creepy things and honestly I don't know what they entail but he makes my skin crawl.

I peek between the curtains again and see he's rolled the window down. I can see his broken nose and black eyes, courtesy of Kade this morning. Keith must of went to the Dr for her has a splint on his nose. God I wish I could of witnessed Kade beating the s**t out of him. Two seconds too late, the story of my life.

I can hear Kades truck pull onto the street, relief washing through me. Don't get me wrong I don't need a knight in shining armor. I learned a long time ago that there were no prince charmings in the real world. I just don't know what Keith is capable of, well I mean I do, but hes bigger now.

Peeking again I see that he's parked between Keith's car and my house. Physically putting himself between us. He doesn't know the extent of Keith's and my history, but he knows I hate the guy and he won't leave me alone. And amazingly enough that's more than enough for Kade to step in. Luke would make it out to be my fault whenever Keith was around, even accusing me of cheating with him multiple times. Gross, just f*****g gross!

I watch Kade get out of his truck, I can see his shirt stretch over his strong back muscles, his jeans hugging him in all the right places. Kade is nothing short of a Greek God. Perfectly sculpted from hard work. Not to mention the fact that he can fix anything is enough to get my panties wet. Kade has been there for me everyday since Luke died. He's great with my kids, being a strong male figure for my boys and teaching my daughters to stand up for themselves and not take any s**t from the boys. He really is the whole package. I just can't do another relationship. I can't. Luke and I would have celebrated our 17th anniversary this year meaning more than half my life was spent with him. I'm single now for the first time since I was 18. Not to mention he left me with 5 kids! I'm too busy for a relationship. I feel bad cuz I know that's what Kade wants, and he deserves it. I just …can't.

I noticed the passenger door of his truck open and another man steps out. That must be the new guy Kade was talking about. He has his back to me but I can tell he's built. He looks familiar but I can't place him, a weird tingling in my gut tells me I know him. But from here I really can't tell.

I watch as he rounds the truck coming to Kades side, they exchange words, they both cross the street headed towards Keith's car.

They approach his window and Kade leans in saying something to Keith. f**k I wish I could hear from here! The other guy stands there leaning on the driver's side backdoor of the car, he's very intimidating. Too bad his hat is hiding his face. Suddenly Kade lunges into the car window, grabbing Keith's shirt. I can hear him yelling but I can't understand what he's saying. The other guy puts his hand on Kades shoulder pulling him back from the window. He then turns and punches Keith in the face. Bet that hurt! Kade is holding him back as Keith's car suddenly takes off.

Thank God that's over.

I make my way to the front door, opening it as Kade and the other man turn around and start walking back across the street.

When Kade notices me standing in the doorway he starts jogging across my lawn and up the steps. He engulfs me in a massive bear hug.

“ Hey sweetheart” he whispers, his lips brushing my ear, melting away the tension in my body.

“Hey” I say into his neck and he picks me up, wrapping my legs around his waist.

The other man clears his throat.

Kade puts me down.

“Allow me to introduce you to your other knight in shining armor. This is…”

“Jude.” I cut him off as I see the man's face clearly for the first time.

It's been almost seven years since the last time I saw Jude. We worked together during one of the darkest times in my marriage. Jude was my best friend. He was always there to help me find my smile. We never talked about having deeper feelings, and we did pretty good to ignore the s****l tension or joke it away. but I know when I told him I was pregnant...again, I lost him that day. we weren't the same after that and as my pregnancy progressed the farther apart we became. When I went on my maternity leave we were barely speaking. when I returned to work he had quit. He hadn't even told me he was not going to be there when I got back. Then one day when my daughter was about 5 months old he text me out of the blue, told me he was getting married and going to be a dad. It hurt, but I knew I had no claim on him. s**t I was married and just had my 5th child. What right did I have to be upset that he was moving on. It wasmt long after I noticed he had blocked me on all social media. I took the hint and let it go, let him go.

Judes hair is longer than I've ever seen it before. He's always been a hat guy, but his hairs never hung over his ears. I've always loved his beard, it too is longer thannim use too. His cheeks are kind of sunk in, like he's not eating enough. Those green eyes are as mesmerizing as ever but they're darker and the spark isn't as bright as it use to be. The dark circles under his eyes tell me his not sleeping well. Overall, he doesn't look like he's living a happily ever after. If anything I'm reminded of the Jude I met on my first day at The Warehouse so many years ago.

“Hey V. It's good to see you again. You look great.” Jude doesn't look at me.

“Wait,” Kades says, looking between us, ”You know each other?” concern and confusion so clear on his face.

“We use too” I state as I turn around and head for my room, I was expecting this. I need a cigarette and a joint.

I never thought I'd see him again. Yet here he is, standing on my door step. He looked scared as s**t when we made eye contact. That makes me feel better. I'm not mad at him, I was never mad at him. I did what I had to do and he did what he had to do. We were friends, best friends, but still just friends. Friends come and go. He wasn't the first or last one to disappear from my life. He just caught me completely off guard, that's why I'm freaking out.

Yeah...that's why