Childish Games

Jetta◇◇◇ “We probably shouldn't be doing this…” There’s no probably. We definitely should not be doing this. “If Nicky finds out, she will kill me.” She had told me many times already that her big brother was off-limits. I understood. It's bad enough to know that people only want to hang out with you because you have money, but to have girls who only want to befriend you to get a chance with your older brother? Pathetic. “She’s the only fr-” I screamed in pleasure when he slipped his finger inside of me. Had it not been so cold outside, I'm sure I would have melted into a puddle. “Jesus, Jetta… for once in your life, just relax.” His breath was hot on my neck as he spoke. “Or tell me to stop, and I will.” He was erotically licking my ear, and I could not speak. Stop. Stop. STOP… my brain was screaming, but my mouth was silent. “Jetta… this was your idea… you can change your mind at any time.” I could barely hear what he was saying the way my ears were ringing. “I… mmmm.” I wanted to tell him to stop. I felt like an i***t. There we were outside under snow covered bleachers by the Stadium. My body was shivering so hard that he had to brace his free hand on my back to keep me from falling. And the shivers were not just because it was cold. “Jetta…” He asked again. “Ok… Ok. Stop.” he removed his finger as I had finally found my voice. “I’m so sorry… I didn't mean to l-” “Don’t apologize.” he backed away from me and looked at his finger long and hard before placing it in his mouth and savoring my juices off of it. “A girl's first time should be memorable anyway.” He waved and strutted away, leaving me along with my thoughts. What the f**k just happened? What the f**k was I doing. What the f**k was I thinking. Why the f**k did it feel so good…? I immediately felt sick to my stomach. I guess I just didn't think he would have said yes when I asked him to Make me a woman. And to be honest, I didn't even want to have s*x, but Nicky had just lost her virginity, and she made it seem like the best thing in the world. And then all her friends started chiming in with their first-time stories, too… I felt like I was the only girl in the school who had not had s*x yet. Let alone the only one who had not had s*x with Nick… besides his sister. Nick was a player. Nick was a prize. Nick was a card swiper… everyone knew that. That's why I figured why not just go the way of my peers and have him deflower me and get it over with. I thought I was ready… I really did. But once it came down to it, I was terrified. Having s*x right now? What the hell was I thinking? And with the older brother of my best friend nonetheless. Dear god, I dont even know if he's clean. He would have more venereal diseases than there were named for them. I mean, he had s*x with a lot of girls. Oh lord. And what if he didn't have a condom? What if… I can't be a teenage mom! My mother would literally kill me. Shed kill me and then bring me back so that I could take care of the baby. And what about Nick? There were literally lifetime movies about things like this. I could only imagine the headlines. “Star football player charged with statutory r**e swiping the v-card of his baby sister's best friend” Oh lord. Kill me now! But I had said no. I was still a virgin, and I still had my best friend… so why was I crying? ♧♧♧◇◇◇♧♧♧ Nick♧♧♧ Here, I thought I was just gonna be adding another notch to my belt when Bridgett asked me for a favor. I figured it would be an easy score. Plus, it wasn’t like I would have a multitude of naive girls beating down my doors when I went off to school... They would have too many guys to choose from. Here in my hometown, I was a God amongst peasants… and those were the words of the girls I had been with, not my own. We had money. A lot of money. And we did nothing to hide it. Not to mention being the best looking guy here… again, these are their words, not mine. I mean, I was as cocky as they came, but what could they expect? And I never discriminated. Ugly girls, nerdy girls, short, fat, tall, or skinny… Whatever blows my way. What can I say? I am a people pleaser. I flicked my cigarette to the ground as I made my way behind the school. She stood there with her hands in her pocket, kicking at the mound of dirty snow beneath her feet. Nothing about this is smart. And I knew that if this went wrong in any way, my life would be ruined forever. Just like every girl before her, I made it my plan to make sure she knew that this was not something that had to be done. That if, at any point, at any time, she wanted me to stop, I would. No questions asked. “You look cold.” Her nose and cheeks were red. “How about we warm things up a bit.” I wasn't gentle. That's not what this was. She was a quick f**k, and then id be off. As soon as my lips touched hers, I got an uneasy feeling. The girls I was usually with had some s****l experience. Or had seen enough porn to face it, with Jetta… I knew she was a virgin, but it seemed she had no idea what she was doing at all. She didn't move her mouth or her hands… She was silent. Then, when she did start talking, I thought it would be about her not wanting to do this at all, but what her real issue was… upsetting her best friend. “We probably shouldn't be doing this…” I kissed down her neck and started opening her jeans with my hands. “...If Nicky finds out, she will kill me.” Knowing my sister, this was no exaggeration, but I did not want to to think about my baby sister when I was practically violating her best friend. Violating… why would that be the place your mind goes to? I shook my doubt off and kept going. “She’s literally the only fr-” I slipped my finger past her folds, “Jesus, Jetta… for once in your life, just relax.” I whispered in her ear… “Or tell me to stop, and I will.” I had never licked a girl's ear before, but I loved the way her flesh tasted. I was already trolling myself to stop… which was so unlike me, but she didn't say anything. I placed a few more kisses on her neck, waiting for her to respond verbally… but she had begun to robotically f**k my hand, and I wasn't sure she would speak anymore. “Jetta…” I backed off with my finger still moving inside of her, “This was your idea… you can change your mind at any time.” I was a lot of things. But a predator was not one of them. “I… mmmm.” I, mmm, is not a stop… but there is a hesitation… maybe? And she was shaking, but we were outside, and there was literally snow on the ground. Still, I couldn't shake the ominous feeling as she shivered against me. “Jetta…” “Ok… Ok. Stop.” Oh, thank god. I thought I was gonna have to reject her. I immediately removed my finger from her. “I’m so sorry… I didn't mean to l-” “Don’t apologize.” Wanting to make sure she realized I was not upset about how this was ending, I placed my finger in my mouth and sucked it dry. “A girl's first time should be memorable anyway.” And then I waved and walked away, leaving her standing there in the cold. What the f**k was that about?