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7. Unexpected Accurance

After that incident, we were about to leave, when my daughter suggested that we should eat lunch, since they were just talking about it previously. I can never say no to my daughter, so I agreed and now we are in this restaurant with an awkward atmosphere in the air.

My daughter is happy eating her happy meal, while sitting beside Tania, which made me jealous. But I could see that Tania is being attentive of Asmara, every time my daughter has a smudge on her face, Tania would always beat me at wiping it. It made me rally jealous; I don’t want them to get to close.

Still, we still didn’t looked eye to eye, nor speak together, my daughter might have sensed something but chose to say noting, and then the unexpected happened.

“Mommy? Can we play together with Aunt Tania?

“ I’m sorry baby, but I think that aunt Tania is Busy” I lied.

She pouted then motioned Tania to get closer at her, then whispered at Tania

“But, Mommy, she said she is not busy? So can we please go” she asked with those pleading eyes.

And that is the only moment I looked at Tania, starring daggers at her, she met my eyes, but quickly averted hers, then said nothing, she just focused her attention towards my daughter.

At the arcade, Asmara was holding Tania’s hand on her left, then my hand at her right, outside we looked like a family or a friends having a date.

“Mommy, let’s try that claw machine please?”

“Okay, let me do I, that looks easy enough” smugness in my voice, Asmara then asked Tania for upsies, which she took.

Entering the token at the machine, I started to select the little potato doll, since it looks too easy, but I dropped it, it happened a couple of times until I heard Tania stifle her laugh, I looked at her and challenged her.

“Do you think you can do it?” I asked anger and annoyance in my voice

“Sure I can, I have done this a hundred os times” she said, and handed Asmara

She then entered token, targeted the little potato that I was trying to target, then with slow and precise movement she got it.

“Mommy! Look she got it!” Asmara excitingly signed.

Tania then walked towards us, offering the doll to Asmara, my darling then took the doll and offer, herself at Tania to be carried, which made me jealous, I want my darling to just look at me.

After a long day of playing, Tania drove us home, she insisted on driving us, while we are at the car, we have this awkward silence; I am carrying Asmara, while Tania drove us home. I was peacefully looking at the window, when I noticed that Tania kept on glancing at me.

“What?” I asked annoyed

“Huh? Nothing”

“If you have something to say, just say it, and focus your eye on the road” with annoyance in my voice

“I, I have nothing to say, really, it’s just that you, you’ve changed” she said, trying to start a conversation

“Why? Is it a bad thing?” I asked annoyed, it’s like she’s saying that I don’t have the capacity or the ability to change.

“O, no, not really, it’s good actually, you look good, stunning even” she quickly defended, I just shrugged

“Stop talking, just drive, I want to go home” I countered denying the fact that she called me stunning, that was first, the first that someone called me stunning.

After a long day of playing at the arcade, we are finally home.

“Don’t, just don’t touch her, I can carry her on my own, thank you” I quickly shrugged her offered help

“I just want to offer a hand, you look like you need a hand” she defended

“I don’t need anyone else’s help, as a matter of fact, you can go home. The day is already gone, and you should also go home.” I tried to usher her to go home, because of the awkwardness, and I don’t want to have any kind of conversation with her involving the past, because I know that sooner or later we will have to talk, but as for now, I don’t want to.

“Mommy?” Asmara whispered, slowly waking up

“Yes baby?”

“Please, don’t let Aunt Tania, to go home, please? I still want to play with her” she pleaded her voice soft and went back to her sleep. That made me looked at Tania; she had this smile in her face, as if she won something.

“It’s alright, darling I won’t let her go home today, now sleep, okay? I hushed her

“So? Let’s go in?” she asked with a hint of victory in her voice, and I hate it.

I then lead the way, opening the door and turning the lights on.

“Just follow me, let’s go up, since we already had dinner” she is just following us like a lost dog, roaming her eyes at our two story humble house.

“Nice house, by the way” she tried to comment.

“I don’t need your, comment” I silenced her.

Motioning at the door in my right side “This will be your room” then walked away.

“Wait!” she stopped me on my tracks

“What?” I asked annoyed, I’m tired and I just want to lie in my bed.

“How about Asmara’s room?”

“You don’t have to know, just sleep, we are all tired okay?” I asked with a commanding voice

“O, Okay” she cowered, maybe with embarrassment or something else.

Walking up in our room, I opened the door, gently laying my darling in the bed, I changed my clothes at the bathroom, while at the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror, I did changed, not only physically but also emotionally and mentally, I am now a new person, far from the past, then why? Why did my heart pounded when I saw her again? I don’t want to fall in love again, especially to the same person as my past.

When I saw her at the mall, my heart instantly melted, she got hotter, like real hot and sexy, she also had this mature look on her, and I don’t want to admit it but I got turned on, after a long years of no physical contact, I was turned on just by the visual. On which it proves my point that I should try my best to avoid her at all cost.