THE EXCONVICT BILLIONAIRE

CHAPTER ONE SHAWNTEL MY LIFE so f****d up......... Walang matinong patutunguhan.... .. Naisip ko minsan na tapusin na lamang ang buhay ko. Fucked. Yeah. I really want to end my life to escaped the pain and from the reality. But, I fight my depression. Sa pamamagitan ng magdalubhasa sa trabaho at sa ibang bagay na makakapag palimot ng problema. I am working in High Club that owned by unknown person. Walang nakaka alam kung sino ang nagmamay-ari . Mahigpit na ipinagbabawal ni manager X na pag uusapan ang mga bagay bagay na tungkol sa club na pinagtatrabahuan ko. Yeah. I am working in the club but does not it mean that I'm not virgin anymore. I care for my dignity even in that way. We just had few drinks with the customer, chat with them, entertain them and they can go. NO having s*x. But some of our customer tried to pay us for a night and we should not allowed it. I don't like it but it's will be our choice. Maliban nalang sa mga ibang kasamahan namin. They accept the offered. Huwag daw kasi tanggihan ang grasya. I never had a boyfriend because I have no times with those things and I am busy with own life. I don't want a boyfriend because they only hurt your feelings and when they get you, they will dumped you like trash. I know that because I am observant person. I'm vulnerable woman, so I am avoiding those things. Actually, I am already hurt. My life is already started as a mess when my mom left us. I have never felt happiness since i was kid. Kaya, pinili kong magpakalayo layo and live alone without my family. Even sometimes, I never felt the word family because they never treat me well. I runned away from our house because I can't take it anymore how my dad treat me. I am only child and I am not aslo closed with my cousins. They don't like me and I don't like them too. My mom left us when i was 5 years old. Even I was too young that time, nasaktan ako ng lubusan. Maybe, my mom didn't loved dad and me, that's why she left us. Sumama siya sa kanyang first love. According to my yaya, napilitan lamang si mommy magpakasal kay dadddy dahil arranged marriage sila. But my dad love her so much. Kaya simula sa pangyayaring iyon, naging miserable na din ang buhay niya. Nawalan na siya ng oras sa akin. Ang mga kasambahay nalang ang palagi kong nakakasama sa bahay. They are the one who take care of me after mom left us. Hanggang isang araw, isa isa na ring umaalis ang ang kasambahay namin. I asked them. Wala na daw silang natatanggap na sahod at so daddy na rin ang nag utos sa kanila na umalis nalang sa bahay namin. Sa murang edad ay natuto na ako sa mga gawaing bahay. I was six years old that time. Natuto na akong magluto ng sarili kong pagkain. Minsan, nasusunog at kadalasan naman ay maayos. Maglinis ng bahay at maglalaba ng mga damit ko. My dad destroyed his life. He was devastated and mess. Umuuwi siya tuwing gabi with different women. They f****d everywhere and I heard their moan. Sa tuwing may kasamang babae si dad ay hindi na ako lumalabas sa aking silid. Minsan, nagtitiis nalang ako sa gutom. He's always come home drunk and always hurting me. He don't want my presence. Ayaw niya akong nakikita dahil pinapa alala ko daw lahat sa kanya ang sakit. Sometimes I felt pity for him and sometimes I saw him crying while hugging the picture of my mom. I know that, his hurt but he don't need to hurt me at all. Kaya palagi niya ako sinasaktang gamit ang isang latigo. Habang tumatagal mas lalong lumalala ang mga ginagawa niya sa akin. Pinapaluhod niya ako sa asin at hindi pinapakain. Sobrang hirap ang dinanas ko mula sa kanya. Nagkaroon ako ng sama ng loob kay mommy. Dahil kung hindi siya umalis, kung hindi niya kami iniwan ay hindi maging masama si daddy. And I am not experiencing that kind of life. Eh di sana may masaya akong pamilya. That's why I always blamed my mom. I hate her so much until now. I was abuse from him , so, I decided to run away when I was 10 years old. Sa murang edad, namasukan ako sa mga mahihirap na trabaho upang matugunan ang pangngailangan ng aking sikmura. I hated my life since. I don't even know where my life is heading. What my future is. But I'm sure, it will be like this until the end of my life. So boring and full of sadness. I don't believe in happiness, love and family because those thing never proven. They are only made up things to fool people. Pero kahit ganun, patuloy parin ako sa buhay na meron ako. I don't like people to pity on me because I'm sick on it. Kailangan ko lang harapin ang katotohanan at labanan ang mga marami pang pagsubok na darating. Sa aking pagsisikap ay nakapagtapos ako highschool. I know my life is ruined. Minsan, naiisip kong may pagkakataon pa naman siguro to make my life better. Pero ano ba ang magandang patutunguhan ng buhay ko sa ganitong klaseng trabaho na meron ako. Diba? Makakabili ba ako ng sarili kong bahay sa tinatanggap kong sahod kada buwan. Tsk! It is a big "NO! Maliban nalang kung may isang himala at makakapag asawa ako ng bilyonaryo katulad ng mga istorya sa w*****d. O dika'y, I meet a fairy godmother that will grant my wishes. Pero wala sila sa totoong buhay because it's only a fairytale. Mga kathang isip lamang sila ng mga manunulat. Kaya malabong mangyari ang bagay na iyon. "Shawntel!! Wake up..! Shawntel!! Gising na.! Bumangon ka na kung mahal mo pa ang trabaho mo.!" Damn it. I hate it when someone is interrupting my sleep. But I have no choice kundi gumising. "Shawntel! Faster!" Carrie shout at my ear. Tinakpan ko ang aking mga tainga gamit ang dalawang unan. Nakakasira kasi ng eardrum ang boses niya eh. Sobrang tinis. "f**k Carrie, go away!! " I shouted at her back. Namewang lang siya sa harapan ko at tiningnan ako ng masama. "Tsk! Gaga! Manager X will get mad at us if we don't get there in time. " she said and laugh while she comb her hair. Carrie is my roommate. Isa lang ang pinagtatrabahuan naming dalawa. Malaking pabor sa akin na dalawa kami dito sa apartment. Dahil may kahati ako sa mga babayarin. Carrie is a pure Filipino while me is half Filipino and half Spanish. My mother is pure pinay and father is pure spanish. Namana ko ang aking mukha sa aking ina. We have the same figure and I hate it. But my eyes look like my father eyes. Lumaki ang aking mga mata ng mapagtanto ko ang sinabi ni Carrie. s**t! I am gonna late and another trouble again kapag mangyari iyon. "f**k you b***h, why you didn't wake up me early?! " Tumayo at kumaripas ng takbo patungo sa bathroom. Fucking s**t of paper.! " Kanina pa kita ginigising bruha ka. Sadyang tulog mantika ka lang talaga." She chuckled behind me. Shit konti nalang ang natitirang oras ko. I don't want to be late again. Ayaw kong masisira ang aking eardrum at mas lalong ayaw kong matanggal sa trabaho. Hinintay rin ako ni Carrie. Tss! Wag lang siyang magkakamaling iwan ako. Kahit matanda siya sa akin dalawang taon, hindi ako magdadalawang isip na kalbuhin siya. Carrie is 25 years old and I am 23 years old. Mas lamang ang tanggkad ko sa kanya. I'm just wearing fit black dress. I got tighter. Pss! Naver mind. Carrie helped me in putting make up. She was excellent in applying cosmetics. She put some lipstick on me. She just curled my hair a little. At bumagay naman sa akin. I grab my shoulder bag at sabay kaming lumabas ng apartment na inuupahan naming dalawa. Nang dumating kami sa High Club, sumalubong sa amin ang malakas na musika at hiyawan sa gitna dance floor. "Marami tayong makukuhang pera ngayong gabi. I love it." Carrie whispered to me and i smiled to her. Salamat at hindi kami late. I thought mawawalan na ako ng trabaho. I quickly went to the back where entertainers are. I saw them retouching their make up. Inilagay ko ang aking gamit sa sarili kong locker. "Your here, I taught you were late again." Manager X said while she have a cigarette between her dark lips. I just smiled at her. "People change." I said with wide smiled. Tinaasan lamang niya ako bg isang kilay. "Very well then. You have special customer tonight. He's waiting you at the table 12. At VIP section. He paid large amount so don't make a mess this time Shawntel Boselli." She told me with a serious look then she left the room. Manager X was nice but when it comes to work, she is very strick. "Hey good luck dear. I know you can do it." Emma said and she winked at me andi winked back to her. I fixed my self in front of mirror. I need to be more seductive so all customers so that, no one can't resist me. I smiled which is full of sadness and hatred. Nang makalabas ako sa fitting area namin. I was shocked. Dahil kung kanina ay marami na ang customer, dumoble pa ang bilang nila. I need to be good to my costumer and treat them well. I just going to chat with them and nothing more. I need to work it hard because we really need some bill to pay the apartment we are staying at. Nakita ko si Carrie na nakikipag tawanan sa kanyang customer. I know that, napipilitan lamang siyang tumawa. She also have own problem. Alam kong may pingdadaanan siya dahil open kami sa isa't isa. Pero alam kong may tinatago pa siya sa akin ngunit hindi na ko nagtangkang magtanong pa. I'd respect her privacy. I considered Carrie as a good friend of mine. Sa kanya ko pa lamang nasasabi ang bagay na hindi ko kayang sabihin sa iba. Habang papunta ako sa VIP room. Marami akong nakitang iba't ibang scenario sa bawat madadanan ko. Some of them are having make out. Habang papalapit ako sa table number 12. My heart start to beat rapidly. You know why? Because they don't look nice. I felt creepy. Marami sila and they all wear black suit. I just smiled at them even I am nervous. They stare at me like they want to kill me with no mercy. Napansin ko kaagad ang lalaking nakaupo sa sofa. I think siya ang boss ng mga lalaking ito. He called me by using his hand gestured. I went walked closer to him at sit beside him. Oh God, help me. My customer is look like murderer. Maybe, he is. Nag usap lang kami, nag inom ng konti at madali rin silang umalis. Pabor yon sa akin. Nang pabalik na ako fitting area, naramdaman ko bigla ang pagsakit ng aking ulo. Nahihilo. Two shot lang ang ininom kong alak pero bakit ganito na ang tama sa akin. Nagpaalam ako kaagad kay Manager X na uuwi ng maaga ngayong gabi.Because of my head ache. Bitbit ko aking bag palabas ng club. Sapo sapo ko parin ngayon ang aking ulo. It hurt too much and I really feel dizzy. Umiinom naman ako dati pero wala akong nararamdamang ganito katindi. Ngayon palang. Pero may simpatya na ako . Maybe, someone put something bad in my drink earlier. s**t. I need to be home now bago pa ako mawalan ng malay. Naghihintay ako ng taxi ng may biglang hummintong itim na van sa tapat ko. And i saw the men in black with black mask in their face. I was about to run but before i knew it, a hand cup my mount shut and a few seconds , there are darkness and my whole body feels numb. Fucked! Not now. I don't want to die in their hands. God help me, Kahit ngayon lang. "Take her in the van." Narinig Kong boses bago ako tuluyang nawalan ng malay.