Lust (A shameless love)

I was hoping today would not be like other days , since I was tired. He walked in leisurely , with a pig bottle of alcohol in his hands. Smiling greatly at what ever it was that was amusing him . he never smiles at me, never!. He just walks in f**k me until I can't walk , call the doctor to nurse me back to life and then leave. He never cared about what my body goes through. All he does is to come in ,f**k me back to a mess, after the doctor has confirmed to him that I was fit and okay. I was scared lying there naked and cold . Scared to look at him or even hold his gaze , I turned my attention to the moonlight that shined greatly into the room. wishing and praying that he would spare me tonight. As my body needed a break from this constant love making. I felt like God himself has left me to my fate, when I saw him taking his cloth off. I couldn't help but appreciate the magnificent sight of him taking of his shirt. His biceps and extraordinary Eight packs were in full view. I swallowed hard at the sight of his nakedness shyly averting my gaze . since today was the only time I have ever seen him or any other man naked . “stand up” he said. I obeyed hoping that , if I did he would let me be. But fate has other plans for me tonight. “Came here” I dropped down from the bed and stood before him, afraid and shaking like a leave. As he never talks to me during our encounters. “I am very hungry Anna” he said as he brushed my n*****s with his fingers cupping them roughly Making me to jump slightly . “I need to get inside you but before that I need to eat you since I missed lunch and dinner because of you” he murmured quietly into my ears as he moved pass me to the bed. I remained routed to the spot , shocked , not knowing what to do or say. As he once told me if I ever disobey or go against him he would throw me in the dark dungeons of his palace .so that I could share the place with all the creatures down there. “Don't just stand there . Came and sit on my face I need to feed ” I turned around nervously, afraid to look him in the eye. “sit on my face”; I replayed it in my head a thousands times. What if he can't breathe , die or something worse happens to him and they blame me for it. I couldn't move , since I didn't know what to do and how to sit on his face. He have never asked this of me before. He usually came in ask me to take my clothes of and lay back whiles he thrust into me mercilessly as if I was his enemy on the battlefield. we don't kiss , neither do we share any intimate moments . He barely looks at me whilst poundings into me with his eyes shut. I have thought myself to understand in this Five months of marriage to him, that he only wants me for s*x and nothing more. To make this less painful for me, I always strip naked, lying on the bed before he comes in, as to make the episodes move faster. So I can have some time to cry myself to sleep since he never stays , after our love making. I would say I am more than confused today about his behavior. And since I was scared and didn't know what to do. I stood there wishing for the earth to open up and swallow me. Hoping for the worse.