CHAPTER 49
Getting back to my life was a miserable illusion for me. I imagined it. Nothing would ever be the same because I knew the truth. He loved me. He wouldn’t betray me. Although we were not a real couple. Despite our games, despite our constant joke about ourselves and our relationship. As much as I had stubbornly insisted that I wouldn’t have tolerated any question or claim, my heart belonged to him, rebelling against my own will.
In the following days I did nothing more than fantasise about what my life with him would have been like. If we hadn’t gone to that party. If I had talked to him, demanding an explanation.
I realized that the result of my behaviour would be to further wear my relationship with Geoff out. I wished I was stronger, able to control myself. I couldn’t. I wa
