Ally and Karma

When she has a crush

Karma

Oh my God I'm having a panic attack right now. Who the f**k comes late like that then acts like they own the place. I don't even know what I said to her, I don't even think I greeted her for f**k sake. All I had to do was repeat exactly what I practiced but I don't think I even said anything I wanted to. I probably sounded like a major b***h. To top it all off I really thought she was hitting on me when she asked for my number then I went and embarrassed myself. I mean did I even want her to hit on me on the first place, what was I going to say if she did. I’m not really sure I would have refused if she had asked me out and that says a lot about me than it says about her.

I let out a groan on my hands that are currently covering my face, possibly ruining my makeup. I will be thinking about this for the longest time and I'm already tired.

"ohh I know that groan what happened" Hope asks making herself comfortable on the chair on the other side of my desk. She's the only person I'd consider to be my best friend excluding my sister. She's also one of the most beautiful people I've ever met. Her curly hair is always so shiny and well kept her makeup light and classy and she always wears clothes that perfectly suit her in colours that make her brown skin glow. If she wasn't married to the loves of her life I'd have shot my shot a long time ago but I don't think her husbands would appreciate me doing that.

She places her leg on top of the other while flipping her bouncy curls out of her face. She gives me a stare that says she’s not backing down until I tell her what’s up

"Nothing. I finally started the process of fixing my house and the person I hired showed up late." I busy myself fixing files that don’t need to be fixed avoiding eye contact because one look at my face she’ll know, she always knows.

"That's not a good sign, did you tell him off"

"Her. And yes I think I did and I might have embarrassed myself in the process" I let out another groan"I'm so stupid sometimes"

“Silly of me to assume a man would rule you up like this” she shakes her head "Karma please, you're the smartest person I know but maybe she makes you stupid I know my husbands do" she stares into an empty space her eyes twinkling mischievously. She is definitely reminiscing right now.

Oh to be in love.

I throw a pencil at her hitting one of her boobs because I'm bitter like that. "Stop that"

She grins widely "I was totally thinking about last night did you see I can't walk straight"

"eww now I'm thinking about what you were doing last night"

She throws her head back letting out a throaty laugh that fills the room and I can't help but join in.

"You need to get laid my dear friend. It's probably the reason why you're a mess over this contractor woman" she wingles her eyebrows at me.

"I have a lot of work to do Hope I don't have time for hookups"

“Baby girl listen” she says with her most serious voice “There is never a time to be a w***e. f**k everyone you want to f**k otherwise you’ll always ask yourself the what’s ifs questions and those are the worst” she clicks her tongue to make her point.

“I don’t think I’ll be considered a w***e just because I slept with Ally” I say instead of diving into the last part of what she said because as far as I know Hope fell in love with her partners when they were all young. They had all her firsts and she had all theirs which is something I envied about them. Their relationship is so cute just like their three little baby girls.

I didn’t lose my virginity until I was 21 which was a big deal to my parents. We celebrated that I was able to protect my virtue by hosting a party and everyone who was invited looked at me like I had two heads instead of one. I begged my parents to not make a big deal out of it but was not successful. They wanted to show everyone that they taught me well and I followed tradition which lets be honest was not the reason I was still a virgin. I simply didn’t find someone worthy to have s*x with and I hate that I couldn’t communicate this to them since it has put a lot of pressure on my sister.

“Look karma you’ve been stressed a lot lately it will be good to wind down a bit. Get your p***y licked”

“Oh my god please get out” she starts laughing again but gets out and leaves me in peace before I can stab her tit with another pencil. My ears are hot as I try to fan myself. Hope always says things that make me so embarrassed just for her entertainment.

My phone chimes signaling a text and I know who’s it from without even looking.

Mom: Sawubona ntombazane yami. It’s your mom. I miss you and your sister. I told your dad we should come and visit to make sure you’re okay but he refused.

My mom has always called me her girl when she greets me it has always made me feel so loved and happy that I belonged to someone.But right now I’m glad dad refused her I don’t want them to come back and meddle on the plans that I have for the house. Even though it doesn’t belong to them anymore they would definitely try to control everything. And the fact that she always announces who it is before saying what she wants to say always gets me, like do you think I don’t have your number saved mom. Pfff.

Me: hey mom. Please don’t worry about us you’re supposed to be resting and enjoying each other’s company. We miss you guys but we’re fine.

My parents out on their retirement vacation which is long overdue. They deserve to have fun after working for so long to provide for us. They were both heart surgeons who have saved the lives of many people which has always made me want to work hard to make them proud. Being an accountant sure made them proud but I know they would have been happy with me doing whatever I wanted to do. They are not the type to want ‘what’s best for their children’ even if it made them miserable.

Mom: okay my love. Your dad is being grumpy again, will you please tell him it’s not okay for him to walk around naked in every beach we go to. *eye roll emoji*

I let out a giggle. I bet dad is doing it on purpose just to get a reaction out of mom. I think the guy is a masochist.

Dad: Did your mom tell you she made me sleep on a couch today. . . Women.

Me: Dad you can’t go around naked.

Dad: why not!! I’m on a vacation. He sends a bunch of laughing stickers and emoji’s.

Dad: Miss you kiddos. Gotta go show your mom I still got game.

Me : Gross!! Don’t ever text like that again Gorgie will disown you. Love you guys.

Dad: What!! I was talking about apologizing *winking emoji* love you too sweetheart.

I get back to work trying to catch up with everything I missed in the morning, luckily I don’t have any meetings to tend to today. By the time I’m done with everything I’m exhausted and want to go lie down after a long ass shower. I pack my things in my bag ready to go when a knock sounds at my door then Hopes pokes her head inside.

“Hey so I was thinking I should go check out how far are you with your house renovations”

“I mean sure but nothing has been done yet so. . .”

“I don’t mind” Hopes says. Way too excited that I agreed which only means one thing.

“You have ulterior motives don’t you” I fold my arms giving her a good ol’ eye squint

“What!! I just want to see this girl who’s got you all crazed up” she waves her hands around animatedly.

“I am not crazed up, it’s just been a long time since I’ve found someone I find attractive to and who I’m interested in”

“Interested in f*****g you mean”

“Not everything is about s*x Hope. Unlike you I haven’t found someone to spend the rest of my life with or in your case someones” I roll my eyes.

“Yeah yeah we’re taking your car”

When we arrive at my house there are two trucks parked outside and all the sudden I’m supper nervous.

“Please don’t embarrass me”

“Oh shut it, with the way you’re fidgeting you’ll embarrass yourself hunny” she rolls her eyes at me “now let’s get out we’ve been sitting in a parked car they’re going to think it’s weird or worse that I’m weird”

Hope doesn’t wait up for me. She goes out greeting the two guys outside them walking inside like a woman on a mission. I scramble to keep up also greeting the two guys. When I find her in a kitchen she is smiling like a Chestier cat and Ally and some woman are moving up the stairs. I knew when I started this I’ll have to give up my privacy but I hadn’t anticipated it will be this soon. Finding people doing as they please in your house is kinda unsettling.

“So I met your crush” Hope looks up the stairs making sure no one can hear us “ she is hot”

I can’t help but whisper back “I know”

“You definitely have to f**k, she’d rip you apart”

“Okay enough of that. You saw what you wanted to see now you can leave”

“No way I’m leaving it’ll be suspicious” she sits down making her self at home “where’s Gordie, how’s she handling all this ruckus” she gestures to the measuring thingies laying around.

“She locked herself in her room as soon as Ally walked inside the house. She leaves for school next week and I think the nerves are getting to her a bit” I say pouring us glasses of cold drink.

“She’ll be fine I’ll go check her out before I leave” she takes her glass draining it in gulps.

I also hope Gordie we’ll be fine. Leaving your friends and having to make new ones is not easy but at least she’s not moving too far. She promised to come back on long weekends if she’s not busy. We are close since our parents had demanding schedules we kinda had to hangout together a lot and Gordie is not a complicated person which makes her a person you always want to stay with all the time. Of course she can be a little brat but that’s okay I can be too much too.

Hope doesn’t stay for long after checking up on Gordie, they are very close actually and like to gang up on me. When everyone has left Ally lingers behind touching things unnecessarily.

I flush when we make eye contact because I don’t what to make of it. When I’m done cleaning up the kitchen and pretending like she isn’t there she finally gives up saying goodbye and leaves. Gordie eats in her room not in a mood for company which suits me well because I have work to do. After working on the files I brought home I am tired and ready for today to end. I take a long ass shower before going to bed but I fail miserably to fall a sleep. I toss and turn for a while my thoughts full of Ally.

I think about her sexy grin, her hands that are rough and calloused. Before I know it my own hand slides down my stomach on top of the silk pyjamas that I’m wearing. My other hand runs on top of my breasts making me flush with heat. I let my fingers play with my n*****s, pinching and twisting.

I fumble to reach for my companion for the past months. I take my toy turning it on to the lowest level then proceed to slowly move it down to my p***y. When it comes in contact with my c**t I let out a small moan. I increase the speed which makes me turn so that my face is buried in my pillow to muffle my moans.

My climax builds up from deep down as I imagine Ally thrusting her fingers in me while sucking on my c**t. Her head buried between my legs as I squeeze her with my thighs. I let out a choking sound feeling my orgasm buildup.

Yes. Yes. Yes.

Then it stops.

No. No. No

“Did this fucken piece s**t just die on me”

It been a while since I last used it so I guess it’s not charged. s**t now how will I finish.I can’t finish without help. I bury my head in my pillow letting out an “aahhh”

“Karma. Are you still awake” Gordie voice drifts inside my room making scramble to pull up my pyjama shorts and fling the damn vibrator under the bed.

“Uhm..yeah come in” she walks in a stuffed animal in her hand.

“Sorry I couldn’t sleep” she pushes her self inside the covers while I try to calm my heart.

“It’s fine. Are you okay”

“I’m..well, I’m actually not okay. I don’t want to leave you and my friends. I don’t know anyone in Cape Town Karma. What if I don’t make new friends and I’m lonely and depressed by the end of the first semester?”

“Gordie listen change is not easy but you have to welcome it. Take it as a challenge that you don’t have to win and won’t lose. Embrace it and you’ll pull through. We will chat and have video calls as much as you want okay?”

“Yeah I guess”

“Just be careful and don’t hang out with people who are not giving you good vibes. I’ll miss you so much”

We’re both quiet for a while finally realising how real this is but Gordie changes the subject before we can both start sobbing

“You can get yourself a girlfriend then it’s been like years”

“No it has not! I dated Sam last summer”

“She was so horrible she doesn’t count, she made me lend her money and never paid me back” she huffs “who borrows money from a kid anyway”

We both laugh and continue talking until we are too tired to keep our eyes opened and nodding off.

The last thing I think about is not my sister though it’s definitely someone I have no business thinking about.