CHAPTER 1 - GORDON'S WORLD
-Gordon's world -
Hillview High had a way of going silent right before something bad happened. I'd learned to listen
for it — the shuffle of papers stopping, the low murmur of the class dying out, thirty pairs of eyes
finding one thing at once. Today, that one thing was me.
"Dan Gordon," Mrs. Joy said, holding up the test she'd just finished marking. "One hundred
percent. Nobody in eleven years of teaching this subject has managed that on my end-of-term
paper."
A ripple went through the room — half impressed, half annoyed, the usual mix I'd gotten used to. I
kept my face flat. Reactions invited questions, and questions were something I'd trained myself out
of a long time ago.
"Come by my office after the bell," she added. "I have something for you."
I nodded once and went back to my notes, aware of Mira three seats over already whispering to the
girl beside her. By lunch, half the grade would know. By tomorrow, it wouldn't matter — nothing
that happened in this school ever followed me past the front gate, because nothing was allowed to.
My father made sure of that.
I should explain who I am, since I never do it out loud if I can help it.
Dan Gordon. Eighteen. Currently drowning in the middle of grade eleven. My father runs half the
shipping trade in this city and, unofficially, considerably more than that. People don't gossip about
our family, not because they respect us, but because the two or three who tried are the kind of story
parents tell their children as a warning rather than a memory. I've lived my whole life inside that
silence. It made me watchful. It didn't make me cruel — I want to be clear about that, because most
people expect it. I keep to myself, I don't start fights, and if you leave me alone, I'll extend you the
same courtesy. It's the version of kindness available to someone raised the way I was.
After the bell, I found Mrs. Joy's office at the end of the staff corridor, door already open.
"Shut it behind you," she said, not looking up from her desk. "I don't need the whole hallway
hearing this."
I did, and took the seat across from her, the polished wood of her desk between us like a second,
smaller silence.
"You're not going to like this conversation," she said, setting down her pen. "But you're the only
student in this school sharp enough to actually understand it, so I'm trusting you with it."
That got my attention in a way the test score hadn't. "Understand what?"
She slid an envelope across the desk — unmarked, sealed, heavier than a letter had any right to be.
"Two weeks ago, a man came to my house. He didn't give a name. He knew things about my
family he shouldn't have known — where my sister works, what school my nephew attends. He
wanted me to start reporting on you. Grades, moods, who you talk to, whether your father's driver
ever changes his route."
The room went very still, the kind of stillness I recognized from home.
"I said no," she went on, "which is either the bravest or the stupidest thing I've done in my life, and
I haven't decided which yet. I'm telling you because you deserve to know someone is watching you
closely enough to threaten a teacher over it, and because after this, I don't think it's safe for me to
stay in this position. I've already written my resignation. I wanted you to hear the truth before the
rumors got there first."
I stared at the envelope without touching it. "Why not go to the police?"
"With what proof? A man with no name and no face?" Her laugh had no humor in it. "Your father
has enemies with more patience than that, Dan. Men who don't threaten you directly because they
know exactly what would happen to them if they did. They go around you instead. Through the
people closest to you." She nodded at the envelope. "Everything I could find out from my end is in
there. Names, half of them guesses. Take it home. Give it to whoever you trust most. Not me —
not anymore. I'm done being useful to either side of this."
I didn't say anything for a long moment. Outside, the bell rang for the next period, muffled through
the door, a world still moving normally for everyone who wasn't sitting in this chair.
"Thank you," I said finally, because it was true, and because I didn't know what else there was to
say to a woman who had just put her career on the altar for a warning I hadn't asked for.
"Don't thank me. Just be careful." She stood, already gathering her things like she couldn't wait to
be done with the room. "And Dan — whatever you do, don't tell your father I'm the one who told
you. For my sister's sake, if not mine."
I left with the envelope inside my jacket, heavier against my ribs than its weight should have
allowed. I didn't open it in the hallway. I didn't open it in class, where I sat through the rest of the
day answering questions on autopilot while my mind ran through every face I'd passed that
morning, wondering which of them had been sent to watch me.
By the time our driver picked me up, my hands weren't quite steady, and I'd learned enough,
growing up in this house, to know exactly what that meant.
Home was the usual procession — the gate guards nodding as the car passed, the staff greeting me
by name, my nanny already waiting with a plate of my favorite meal like she could sense, the way
she always could, that something in me needed steadying. I ate because refusing would have
worried her more than the truth would have, and I still wasn't ready to say the truth out loud.
"Your father wants you upstairs," she said, once I'd finished. "He says it's important."
I found him where I always found him — in the tall chair facing the window, back to the door, the
city laid out below him like something he was still deciding whether to keep. I didn't sit. He didn't
ask me to.
"How was school," he said. Not a question. Never a question, with him — more like a formality he
performed out of habit.
"Fine," I said, and then, because the envelope was still burning a hole against my ribs and I'd
decided somewhere on the drive home that I wasn't going to carry this alone: "Someone's watching
me. At school. A teacher was threatened into reporting on me and refused. She thinks it's
connected to you."
For the first time in longer than I could remember, my father turned his chair fully around to look
at me.
"Show me," he said.
I handed him the envelope. He didn't open it either — not yet. He just held it, turning it over once
in his hands, his jaw working the way it did when he was recalculating something faster than he
wanted anyone to see.
"Pack your things tonight," he said finally. "We're leaving the country tomorrow. You'll finish the
year somewhere else."
"Because of this?" I nodded at the envelope.
"Because of this," he agreed. Then, quieter, in a voice I'd only heard him use maybe twice in my
life: "And because I should have moved you somewhere safer a long time ago."
He didn't explain further. He never did. But as I turned to leave, he said one more thing, almost too
low to catch —
"Whoever sent that man to your teacher's house isn't finished, Dan. He was just getting started."
I stood in the doorway a moment longer than I needed to, the weight of that sentence settling over
me the way the city's lights were settling over the window behind my father's chair — beautiful
from a distance, and impossible to read up close.
I had no idea, standing there, how far this was going to follow me. Or that the flight leaving
tomorrow wasn't taking me away from the danger at all.
It was flying me straight toward it.