Bedroom Negotiations

Negotiations 01

"Oh, yes... Please, faster."

He is so unbelievable. Wala siyang kapaguran. Tuwing gabi na lang, may naririnig akong umuungol sa kabilang kuwarto. Obviously, my housemate is having a good time with his flavor of the week. I'm pretty sure it's a different woman than the previous one. Lagi naman gano'n at sa totoo lang, nasanay na ako sa sexcapades niya tuwing linggo.

There were times that they'd just barged in, kissing while I was having my best time in the living room reading my favorite book. Hindi na napansin ang presensiya ko sa sobrang kasabikan nila. Ang siste, palihim na lang akong umaalis para pumasok sa lungga ko.

Kanina nga lang, parang kakasara pa lang ng pinto pero iyon na agad ang naririnig ko. I can't picture the lustrous event happening in that room. They're obviously doing it now but the door just closed like five minutes ago! All I can say was wow, that fast.

Napairap ako roon nang may naisip.

Knowing my housemate as the notorious playboy, they probably had foreplay on the way to the apartment. Baka hindi pa sila nakakapasok, half-naked na silang dalawa! So they could get in the business the moment they entered his room. Good thing I haven't seen him and his woman where they're both naked before they could even reach the room.

Dahil kung oo, siguro nabaliw na ako kakaisip!

Napapikit ako nang mariin. Nang iminulat ko iyon, ang blankong screen ng laptop ko ang bumungad sa akin.

Blank. Not even a word was there to start my goal for today. To write.

"Cole, please... Oh, I'm near... I'm coming, baby. Please, f uck me more..."

Oh my f ucking god. What the hell. Spare my ears from your horniness, please.

And I'm so stupid to think that they're helping me write my on-progress erotic novel. I am a wanna-be-writer who's honestly, curious about hookup culture. Nagsimula iyon nang makilala ko si Cole, my landlord. Marahil dahil sa naririnig ko sa kanila ng partner niya, naging kuryuso ako kung paano nga ba ang pakiramdam no'n.

For every time I heard them, they sounded so... satisfied.

From their lusty groans and moans, how his woman shout his name maybe, because of the pleasure, and how she cried when she reached the peak. Those made me curious. Gano'n ba talaga iyon kasarap?

I can't deny that sometimes, I flapped. But it is just nothing. It felt good but not to the point where my legs shake due to immense pleasure. Hindi iyon katulad ng naririnig ko sa babaeng kasiping niya.

It was filled with satisfaction. Unlike when I do it, pakiramdam ko ay kulang.

Napailing ako at tinampal ang sariling pisngi.

What am I thinking? Nahihibang na ba ako? Why would I compare the pleasure I gave to myself to anyone who has someone to satisfy her needs?

Oh, god. I'm not thinking straight. Tuwing ganito na wala akong maisulat, tapos 'eto pa ang maririnig ko, nawawala talaga ako sa tamang pag-iisip.

Sometimes, I wanted to knock on his door and complain about it. Hindi dahil sa ingay, 'kundi dahil may pagkakataon na naiinis ako sa inggit na nararamdaman. Knowing they both enjoy so much doing it, swallows me in vain.

Gusto ko rin. But definitely not with Cole.

Tuwing naiisip iyon, inaatake ako ng iba't ibang emosyon. Like I can always try to do it, right? I'm a woman and it's actually easy to have someone do it with me unlike with men. Pero nagtatalo rin ang puso't isipan ko.

Part of me says no. Not because I believe in saving myself for the one, but because of fear.

Besides, it would be just one night. Paano kung hindi ko pala nagustuhan? Pero hindi ko rin malalaman kung gusto ko nga ba o hindi kung hindi ko susubukan.

Muli akong napapikit doon lalo at mas lumakas pa ang mga ungol nila. I could hear Cole's deep groans and honestly, it turned me on. Hindi ako natutuwa sa mga naiisip ko. Mahigit isang taon na akong hindi nagagalak sa mga tagpo na naglilipana sa loob ko. Sometimes I'd just lean on the thin wall that separates my room and his to listen to them — more like to his grunts and shamelessly touch myself whenever I felt the bliss of hearing his manly moans.

Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi at mas lalong idiniin ang mga hita.

For god's sake, Alex! Stop being a pervert!

"Alex, you are not a pervert," I said out loud, even typed those words on my monitor.

Mas napaisip ako roon. I twisted my lips as I looked at the words. Something is wrong. Muli ko iyon binura. That's when I realized that it should be written in the past tense.

I am not a pervert. I wasn't a pervert until Cole.

Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas at sa wakas, nawala na rin ang ingay. Narinig ko ang pagbukas at sara ng pinto sa kabila. Kasunod no'n ay ang pagkatok niya sa akin.

Dinaluhan ko iyon. Bumungad sa akin si Cole na may ngisi sa kaniyang labi.

"Again, I'm sorry. We were loud and for that, we are sorry."

Cole scratches his nape. He is topless. I felt like my eyes twinkled seeing his hard-earned six-pack waving at me. Cole is definitely in love with working out for his body is godlike. He was lean but had muscles in the right places. He is tall, white-skinned, and he smiles a lot. Something I liked about him is he always says sorry after the deed.

Kasi alam niyang maingay sila lalo na ang babae niya. Hindi naman ako nagre reklamo. I don't remember complaining because, in the first place, he has informed me that they can be wild sometimes.

Ngumiti lang ako at tinuon ang tingin sa kaniya. He reeks of s*x.

"Okay lang. Hindi na naman bago sa 'kin ang kaingayan niyo."

He smirked playfully. Bahagya niyang sinilip ang silid ko.

"So, may naisulat ka ba? If not, I can... You know, help you. Kung gusto mo lang."

Napairap ako roon sa sinabi niya.

"Kakatapos lang ng session mo, lumalandi ka na agad."

The thing I also like about Cole, he explicitly express his desires to bang me. Nagsimula iyon nang nalaman niyang nagsusulat ako ng mga nobelang may pantasya. He wanted to know that side of me, the wild side of me when it comes to bed. But then we are off limits.